spiritual work

Apr 23 2020

Balance and Grace

There is a patter in my heart that I know as living
It is a steady beat that offers a familiar, safe background
To all that is going on that is not steady and acceptable
To all the fear, loss, pain and suffering of invading dangers

This same reliability resides in the cheery morning song birds
In the ocean’s continuous ebbs and flows, dependable to the minute
The grains of wet packed sand feel solid even while ever shifting
I need to be reminded of the reliable grace of nature

In these times of required isolation, nature holds the promise of life
Returning to normal, as the flowering of nature spectacularly arrives
Even though the flowers are temporarily present by design
They form an orchestrated coming alive as if being conducted

Every awakening shrub, flower and tree is here to support me
In my sustained hibernation and isolation from others
The magnificence of every living thing is bursting around me
Holding the space for freedom of movement to manifest again

I would love to have enough profound love be able to envelop us
In ways that would fully protect us from viruses running rampant
From bodies succumbing to the ravages of fever and infection
From our own deep darknesses feeding the exploding virus

Alas, the work is within, within our fear, our discomfort, our doubt
It is within the depression that comes from worry, black thoughts
The work is seeking inner peace, joy, kindness, and above all balance
Requiring infinitesimal adjustments minute by minute

Then I remember to get outside to the living, vibrating nature
To breath deeply this day, to honor this day and this body
To hold the space for all that is swirling with danger to settle
For the Oneness to help, as we millions call back balance and grace

Feb 05 2020

Oh Wondrous Being!

Oh wondrous being, you are loved beyond anything you can imagine
It is hard to believe this when you have not experienced bountiful Love
Especially if you hurt, are grieving, feel mistreated and abandoned, or insufficient
Nonetheless, this Love is always accessible just outside your busy human self

Love is ever with you no matter what is happening to you or your loved ones
This Love created all that is beautiful, kind, imaginative, and lasting
This Love created you both in human form and in eternal formlessness
This Love continues to beckon you to go within and know unconditional Love

You may have to try repeatedly to enter that Silence within to receive
You have huge amounts of fear and dissonance that have not been attended to
You have an entire value system that daily values doing over being
You are perhaps fearful of what will be revealed and that it will be bad

However, this planet and all therein were created in profound Love
Even when you stray from this Love for eons, you still get the chance to heal
You are never abandoned even as you may be engaged in paying chronic debts
Even when you have rebelled against Love and Kindness for lifetimes

You are always being pointed in the best direction for you
You are always being given cues about what would serve you well
Even when you have taken the guidance and the experience was gut wrenching
You are always guided to where you need to grow and expand next

I know this from numbers of lifetime experiences all over the globe
I know this from thousands of hours in Silence clearing my own imbalances
I know this because I have lived in the depths of despair and risen
I know this because every time I have needed help, it has been given

The paths you need come when you decide to be kindness and seek peace
The people you need arrive when you clear all the fear and darkness you carry
The experiences you seek manifest when your inner dissonance disappears
The love you desire arrives when you know what you truly love about yourself

Being in the center of profound Love always calls you to your best self
Still you have to choose this repeatedly through your thoughts, words, and actions
You have to find the courage to face your good and not so good self
Activate your courage to trust that at your essence you are truly the Love you seek

Aug 29 2019

Anger Dispelled

I stumbled into Silence dragging my anger behind
Urgently seeking something I could not describe
I was a cheerful, happy person on the outside
An angry, blaming, and furious one on the inside

I did not intend to be angry with myself and others
It just came boiling forth when I least expected it
For the life of me, I could not stop it
It was as if a switch turned on and another person took over

Then came the shame, the apologies, the determination to do better
I blamed my constant back pain, my work demands
I blamed my upbringing, my family, and my friends
I blamed myself most of all as I again vowed to stem the anger

Who would choose to live with a person like me?
A kettle poised to boil over any time, day or night
My insides tightly coiled while balancing everything
With the profound determination to do it all, perfectly

I staggered into Silence to test the waters
I sought something that seemed elusive and undefined
I had no idea what lay crawling and writhing beneath my surface
Anger just simmered slowly, waiting for the ignition of the flames

When the burn came roaring in, as it always did
I was fabulous at this expression of rage and power
I was a masterful example of a woman scorned
I was always right in this one-sided state of explosion

It took me years to walk away when I exploded
It took me hours in Silence to remember I was loved
It took profoundly deep tears to forgive my behavior
It took countless hours naming all the fear fueling my rage

I would not have survived without finding Silence
Somehow in Sacred Space, I could not hide
I could not use excuses, I had to face my demons
I had to see the poison I was creating through my anger

So I wrote from my deep heart, cried, and tried again
I sought deliverance from myself and I felt my heart sigh
I was filled with an uncanny vibrational presence
That felt like God’s love to me, even as I questioned it

As I painfully acknowledged all my anger and attack energy
I began to realize that somehow, miraculously, I was still loved
My behavior was not me, it was something I could address
I even felt the thrill of Divine Presence within when I spoke the truth

I finally got that I just needed to stay on the path
To wholeness, to truth, to continue seeking peace
All else was given, continuously, again and again
My job was to work through every last morsel of anger

I spent hundreds of hours writing out my woe
Dear God was always my intro, designed to keep me honest
All the accusing, writhing, self-denunciating, despicable me
Laid out scrupulously revealed as an offering to Divine Source

We finally finished our journey of anger and rage
I began to have months and then years with no outbursts
I began to think I was done with the inner seeking, the shame
Then we began anew to work on judgment, again and again

Wish me luck and stamina
I know we will slay this dragon someday
I know I am not alone as long as I show up
As long as I keep myself in a humble place of trying
All is good and I will be truly whole!

Aug 21 2019

Pain Comes from Blocked Energy

In meditation, it is Divinely given repeatedly that all imbalances in our lives are due to our inner unseen blocked energy. Imbalances cause all sorts of pain. Pain comes from imbalances including, financial, mental, relationship, emotional, physical, health and professional imbalances, among others. What if you seriously undertook the belief that all things are possible with God/ Divine Source/ The Oneness ? Literally, you have nothing to lose and everything to gain by trying this. What is holding you back from going inside, identifying your own blocked energy and focusing on it long enough to clear it and thereby clear up your life’s imbalances? Even the smallest efforts help. All clearing you do now will release you permanently from those imbalances causing stuck energy.

You actually come into body to clear as much blocked energy as you can in your lifetime. Your major reason for coming into body is to learn you are loved beyond anything you can fully imagine.

You originally took on all you stuck energy in your mind, body and soul. Therefore, because this was taken on in body you have to clear current blocked energy while you are in physical body in this dimension. This does not magically happen when you are out of body! For chronic migraine headaches, cancer, insomnia, shame, anxiety, pain, failing relationships, or depression, etc., unseen blocked energies must become unblocked for full physical rebalancing to take place. Medications and supplements can help you along the way and but they will never fully heal the basic causes of the imbalances you are experiencing.

To begin to truly touch to your blocked energy, you have to face the parts of yourself that are out of balance. When you are out of balance, there is too much dissonance within for you to receive the love that is available to you from Divine Source, from others and from yourself. When blocked energy is present, you keep having repeated imbalances in the same areas until you do the inner work to clear unseen blocked energy that is causing the imbalances.

This approach to healing comes from 38 lifetimes spent in this dimension. We get all the chances we need to clear blocked energy, over and over again, lifetime after lifetime. The shortest way to clear chronic blocked energy is to look inside to determine where to begin. Sit in Sacred Space and ask, “What do I need to clear that is blocking me from wholeness?” You will get the guidance you need but you have to seek it with your intention and commitment to heal. Each time you call for specific clearing in Sacred Space, you will clear some of the blocked energy you have been carrying. Each time you will “lighten your load”.

How to begin. Take my free tutorial to help you effectively name the imbalances you want to address. It is three short sessions under 15 minutes, given over three days, to help you begin to name the trauma energy you are experiencing. Begin this today! This information has been given to me in meditation for 30 years in this lifetime so that all of us in body can learn how to heal major issues we are living with.

If you truly set an intention to heal your anger, your judgement, your fear, your pain or your grief, etc., you will be led in how to do this. If you take a step in this direction all the additional energy and guidance you need will be given. Try these steps for success.

Steps*

Begin with my healing yourself tutorial

Use The Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol

Use the new protocol information for chronic imbalances 1 and part 2

These resources offer a cohesive method for healing blocked energy that will work every time you use it. The alternative is to continue with these same imbalances repeating again and again until you face the stuck energy in Sacred Space and command it out of your field. All that I am offering you here has been Divinely given to help you come into greater and greater balance. Share this with others who want more balance in their lives!

The healing you need begins with you. You have to choose to use your free will to focus on what is blocked within and causing imbalances in your life. You are the one to call in the healing and rebalancing you need. No one else can really do this for you. All the help you need however, is available if you begin to call for your own healing of blocked unseen energies affecting you daily. Blessings upon all your efforts!

*If you want more support in this process, get my book, The Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol available through Amazon for under $4.00 for the kindle version.

Jun 19 2019

Activate Your Free Will

Having free will cuts both ways. You can settle for exactly where you find yourself or you can choose to have the life you want, regardless of your life circumstances. You have to exercise your free will though to do so. Seek the help you need through Spirit/God/The Oneness for greater peace, health, and prosperity. The building of your desired life begins with you. How and where to start?

Until you have an awareness of what is bothering you, out of balance, or draining you, you won’t be able to make the changes you desire. When you seek connection, you can begin to figure out what is out of balance. You may find yourself battling your ego in the beginning, not wanting to see what you are feeling, why you are feeling that, and what you can do about it. You have to really want to connect with Divine Source to actually have a fighting chance to do so. There is peace there. There is guidance there. There is a way forward there. All this can stay as shrouded or as separate from you as you choose. That is the essence of free will.

The level of support, love, and guidance available by consciously connecting with Divine Source is literally infinite. That connection just gets stronger and stronger as you sit in Silence and seek Peace. You are the one that is out of balance, feeling lousy, lost, frustrated, angry, demotivated, judgmental, or insufficient. Your feelings start with you regardless of how they arrive in your face. The issue sits with you even though another person may be the catalyst. You can choose to stay in a blaming mind set as long as you want to. Further, the issues are not with the job, your body, your friend, your house or your spouse. The issues are within you, always. You have to figure out what is getting triggered in you to rectify the imbalances you feel. Or you can choose to blame all your troubles on everyone and everything else. You will stay exactly where you are until you begin to look at yourself deeply and figure out what you are carrying that is no longer serving you.

A little known truth is that those in your life are always there to be a mirror for you. You come here to heal, grow, and feel more connected to Divine Source. Literally, every step of your life is designed for you to realize what you need to see to grow more peace, more balance, and more connection with All That Is. Few people know this, fewer people act on this knowing. To make progress, you must go inside, again and again to see what needs to be jettisoned from your energy field.

Mostly everyone around you is focused on the externals of life such as making money, having a family, having a prestigious job, having fun, or having their desired material wealth. You can spend your entire lifetime involved in these pursuits and still be off inside. Nothing really insures peace of mind and wellness like getting rid of feelings and situations that are not serving you. You can’t do that if you never pay attention to how you are feeling. You can’t understand how you are feeling if you do not look inside with a seeking mind to clear the draining energies you are carrying.

So, activate your free will and make the time you need to go inside, again and again. If you figure out what you are feeling, then you can clear for the trauma energy those feelings are causing. If you recognize repeating negative patterns, then you can command those out of your field and amazingly, they will leave. Why? Because you are both eternal and human. Your eternal self is trying to help you find your best self in your human life. Use your free will to begin, sustain, and return repeatedly to this journey to wholeness.

You may feel you do not know how to do this. Just begin. Show up to Silence. Seek the Peace you desire. Stewing about your feelings and your situations does absolutely nothing good for you. Entering into Sacred Space to listen, identify and clear stuck energy does everything you need to feel lighter and more grounded. Keep entering into Silence with a seeking mind. Seek the way forward you desire and you will receive the awareness you need about what you have to let go of to find your way. You might even consider taking this free healing yourself tutorial as a possible beginning step for you.