seeking | Robbins Hopkins

Jul 25 2019

Depression – Becoming Whole Again

When darkness descends, my good feelings get ambushed
They cannot rise, flow, and swirl around me
There is no light energy to cajole me out of my slump

The fear of being depressed doubles the actual energy enveloping me
Pain, sorrow, loss, fear, shame, black energy and utter overwhelm
Swallows up all motivation, stamina, and endurance I would so love to feel

Choices abound but they come with major side effects
Often leading to more draining energies and self-dejection
More fear of being yet again emotionally handicapped

The drugs cover over the depression and do not heal
The endless therapy sessions go mostly nowhere
The road seems void of good, powerful, and lasting solutions

The fear of being overtaken looms around every action
The reality of not being able to get out of bed
Becomes the relentless tug of war to keep pretending I can cope

I ache for a solution that really works
How many more years of dismal, restricting energy
Can a body take? Who is listening out there, anyway?

I so yearn for lightness, laughter, heart warming abandon
I have tried everything I can possibly find
To help me come into lasting emotional balance

There is one who says I can clear for all the blocked energy
Showing up as depression and all the specific symptoms I have
As I fear dipping again into weeks of darkness and loss

She says healing is possible when we work with Divine Source
She says it is my birthright to clear all darkness from my field
She says I could be normal, depression free, and happy again
Should I try yet again to become free from depression?

There is so much of my self wrapped up with depression
I am a total pessimist in one part of me about my chances
But I so want to soar without this albatross about my neck

Who is saying I have to live this way
Things change, I change, I may find a way forward
I may give her stuff a try, even though I am still afraid to really hope

She calls it depression trauma energy and all symptoms
She says I can totally call for the healing myself
She says she can help me find a healing pathway

When this crippling darkness passes this time
I hope I will reach out and seek this healing way
I hope I can find my way to a place someday where I can
Give back to others because I have become whole again

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If you are dealing with depression or any other chronic condition, use these resources. They can help you heal yourself even if you have tried everything! Take this free simple tutorial as step 1 to get you started in naming what needs to heal. For step 2, use the Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol as a basic first level clearing with your specific imbalance. Begin step three as you move to deeper chronic root imbalances affecting your specific imbalance. Complete step four and you will have cleared many stuck types of energy at very deep levels regarding the specific imbalance. Then the balance you seek is possible! Give yourself 10 days and if you still have symptoms repeat steps 2,3, and 4. Sometimes repeated healing is needed when you are dealing with chronic issues.

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Jul 03 2019

Be Not Afraid

Be not afraid. Fear drains the very vitality out of your body and life. Fear can run away with your joy and your sense of peace. It is the opposite of love and can seep into every crevice you allow it to inhabit. Fear feeds discouragement and imbalance. So what are your top fears? Everyone has a set of fears that sit just below the surface, running you. The only way to deal with fear is to face it down. You have to name it and command it out of you field so it releases your mind, heart, body, soul, and energy field completely. Otherwise, it just sits in your energy field and disturbs you again and again. If you did nothing else ever with your energy field but clear for fear, you could arrive at a totally peaceful inner landscape. Fear is worthy of your time. It is worthy of your attention and your determination to cast it out of your energy field.

Fear is what makes you feel little, ineffective, of no importance, and without agency. Return to your major fear and look at it squarely in the face. When you name fear you take the first step towards commanding it our of your mind, body, and soul. You are the only one who can do this. You have free will so you can live with fear or you can set it down and move on. There may always be another fear rearing its ugly head just as you let one fear go. But you can always face that one as well. That is your choice and your right to cleanse all fear from your energy field.

Frequently, individuals tell me they do not want to even try to clear fear because of feeling they have no power to do so. Others feel that the fear is real, true, and has power over them. But truly, fear is something you have given your power to and you can take that power back as well.

Lots of folks stick their heads in the sand and ignore their inner sense of fear believing that not consciously recognizing the fear, keeps it from negatively affecting you. This is absolutely untrue. In fact, fear is the way your inner knowing is guiding you to pay attention. When fear is in your field, it is always negatively affecting you! Further, the longer you hold onto fear, the stronger it becomes. It often slops over into anger and rage. Anger and rage have their beginnings in fear. Pretty soon, you are filled with fear manifesting anger and rage, over and over again.

Fear is your inner warning system. It is powerful and relentless. It takes a myriad of forms and only you can face it and call it out. Start with the biggest fear you have and work with it in Sacred Space. Follow the Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol and clear it from your field. Then use both part 1 and part 2 of the of the Chronic Imbalances protocol to more deeply clear chronic fear from your field and you are home free. We are talking 15 minutes at the outside.

Further, if you do not fully clear all the fear you targeted, no worries. You will be shown again that more clearing is needed. Just repeat the process again, knowing that clearings of this sort have their own timing for total clearing. Repeating clearings does not mean you have messed up. It means you are getting guidance to complete that which you have started. Begin the process, keep showing up, and all the next steps will be given.

So what do you do then after that first fear energy is gone? Go to the next big fear you have and repeat this process again, and again. Do not hide from any fear you carry. Fear is corrosive and detrimental to your health on every single level you can imagine. Do not allow fear to simmer within! Name it, face it, and command it out within a Sacred Space. Wallowing in fear or denying its existence does you no good at all. Commanding it out of your energy field is one of the most transformational acts you can take towards inner peace. Begin with your biggest fear today!

Jun 19 2019

Activate Your Free Will

Having free will cuts both ways. You can settle for exactly where you find yourself or you can choose to have the life you want, regardless of your life circumstances. You have to exercise your free will though to do so. Seek the help you need through Spirit/God/The Oneness for greater peace, health, and prosperity. The building of your desired life begins with you. How and where to start?

Until you have an awareness of what is bothering you, out of balance, or draining you, you won’t be able to make the changes you desire. When you seek connection, you can begin to figure out what is out of balance. You may find yourself battling your ego in the beginning, not wanting to see what you are feeling, why you are feeling that, and what you can do about it. You have to really want to connect with Divine Source to actually have a fighting chance to do so. There is peace there. There is guidance there. There is a way forward there. All this can stay as shrouded or as separate from you as you choose. That is the essence of free will.

The level of support, love, and guidance available by consciously connecting with Divine Source is literally infinite. That connection just gets stronger and stronger as you sit in Silence and seek Peace. You are the one that is out of balance, feeling lousy, lost, frustrated, angry, demotivated, judgmental, or insufficient. Your feelings start with you regardless of how they arrive in your face. The issue sits with you even though another person may be the catalyst. You can choose to stay in a blaming mind set as long as you want to. Further, the issues are not with the job, your body, your friend, your house or your spouse. The issues are within you, always. You have to figure out what is getting triggered in you to rectify the imbalances you feel. Or you can choose to blame all your troubles on everyone and everything else. You will stay exactly where you are until you begin to look at yourself deeply and figure out what you are carrying that is no longer serving you.

A little known truth is that those in your life are always there to be a mirror for you. You come here to heal, grow, and feel more connected to Divine Source. Literally, every step of your life is designed for you to realize what you need to see to grow more peace, more balance, and more connection with All That Is. Few people know this, fewer people act on this knowing. To make progress, you must go inside, again and again to see what needs to be jettisoned from your energy field.

Mostly everyone around you is focused on the externals of life such as making money, having a family, having a prestigious job, having fun, or having their desired material wealth. You can spend your entire lifetime involved in these pursuits and still be off inside. Nothing really insures peace of mind and wellness like getting rid of feelings and situations that are not serving you. You can’t do that if you never pay attention to how you are feeling. You can’t understand how you are feeling if you do not look inside with a seeking mind to clear the draining energies you are carrying.

So, activate your free will and make the time you need to go inside, again and again. If you figure out what you are feeling, then you can clear for the trauma energy those feelings are causing. If you recognize repeating negative patterns, then you can command those out of your field and amazingly, they will leave. Why? Because you are both eternal and human. Your eternal self is trying to help you find your best self in your human life. Use your free will to begin, sustain, and return repeatedly to this journey to wholeness.

You may feel you do not know how to do this. Just begin. Show up to Silence. Seek the Peace you desire. Stewing about your feelings and your situations does absolutely nothing good for you. Entering into Sacred Space to listen, identify and clear stuck energy does everything you need to feel lighter and more grounded. Keep entering into Silence with a seeking mind. Seek the way forward you desire and you will receive the awareness you need about what you have to let go of to find your way. You might even consider taking this free healing yourself tutorial as a possible beginning step for you.

Jun 12 2019

Patiently Waiting for Me

I want to open all of me to all of Thee
Take every part of me that is shrunk and disconnected
Take all my fears and my repeating worries
Reshape the parts of me that are hesitant and self-protecting

I know I need to feel expansive to touch to the Wholeness
Many days though my littleness is playing out
Other days my self doubt and the nasties are showing up
Then I swerve severely from thinking big and boldly

I am forming daily mantras for the shriveled up days I have
I am one with All That Is, I am known and loved
I am always connected with Divine Source
Spirit and I are one, are one, are one, are one

In Truth, I am always connected to Divine Love
I have to keep reminding my flighty mind of this
I must feel the desire to connect a dozen times a day
So reaffirming in little ways seems to see me through

My life, my work, my relationships, and my health
Are better when I feel connected to God and Oneness
I seem to be able to sail through all my responsibilities
And come out with more energy than I began with

There are even whole days my mind does not judge me
There are times when every part of my day moves with Grace and Ease
These are the glory days, the way I wish every day could unfold
These are the days that support me through the rough periods

Nothing human is ever a perfect constant
Change is always occurring with all things
I remember, I am the one with the dissonance
Divine Source is always patiently waiting for me

Another day, another try at connecting
This day will be the one with flow and delight
This day will be my best effort of all to connect
This day I will be the Peace and Joy I seek

And so it is!

May 16 2019

Just Aging or Inner Struggle

I hurt, feel listless, and nothing helps
I take my medications and I get exercise
And still I hurt some of every day
I am discouraged, I must be getting older

My systems are sluggish and draggy
I feel strong, stuck, lurking emotions
They bubble up and I keep pushing them away
They feel buried, deeply hidden, but still agitating

My gut is a mess due to too much sugar
Too much rich food and drink
Too many simple carbs and sweets
Sugar treats everyday and twice on holidays

Food and drink help me celebrate and forget
Because inside I feel alone, disconnected, and empty
My feelings of being lost and unfocused loom,
Improve a bit, return, and eventually overwhelm

My body screams at me about being out of balance
Out of touch with All That Is and myself
I continue ignoring the small indications of trouble
While time passes and all issues grow larger

I just keep on keeping on, in ole’ familiar ways
Then pain strikes, days feel lackluster
Migraines take an upturn, wakeful nights begin repeating
Every part of my mind, body, and soul now on the edge

I have to stop and listen because medicines only work
For a short time when congestion remains inside
I know I should seek out the blocked and stuck places
And find a path forward that really works

However, I really prefer to not focus on this inner stuff
Even as my body continues to yell, scream, and cajole
Demanding the needed changes, aching daily
For balance, peace, health, and clearing

I’ve been told I get all the help I need by asking in devotion
By staying the course, by clearing, and trying to love
By commanding out fear, anger, shame, and apathy
By returning and returning to Silence for more guidance

It still seems easier to let all this fall on my deaf ears
To continue to feel invincible, pretend I’m good enough
Blowing off steam when I am angry and irritated
Totally denying I have settled for pain and suffering

I know how to play at being just fine
Know how to put on my no care in the world face
Only I truly know that act is a pack of lies
And, yes, my body continues to tell me the truth

I really, really do not want to do this work
It is so hard to look inside at what is not working
Or maybe that is just my mind playing tricks on me
Keeping me from giving my all to be my best self