choice | Robbins Hopkins

Sep 19 2018

I Self-Protect

I walk through my days protecting
Something feels very vulnerable
I cloak myself with ever ready vigilance
Against that which I sense is everywhere present

I feel attack energy ready to slay me
I see myself being irreparably hurt, betrayed, and abandoned
It has happened to others. They suffer
I could so easily be the next one to lose

I present my false self everywhere
I am protecting my real self all the time
I know the difference but I pretend I don’t
I pretend to be who I am not
I feel I need to be someone other than me
Then I may be safe
Then I may escape the darkness seeking me

How did I come to this?
What did I miss?
Why do I persist?
What have I yet to learn?
Where did my trust go?

Oh Divine One, hear my plea
I am lost in this place of pain and suffering
I know not why I have swallowed the fear
Why I have chosen self-protection
Why I have sought to hide
I am weary living like this
I can’t find my happy time

I need to feel your Presence
My connection is so broken
In all this confusion, I can’t find my center
I keep pretending so maybe there is nothing of me really present
Come into my heart and mind
Why is this happening to me?
Am I lovable at all?

Jul 11 2018

Forgiveness is Profound Love

I have been watching Kurt Seyit and Sura, a Turkish/Russian love story beginning in Russia during the Russian revolution and moving to Istanbul. It is magnificent and heartbreaking based on a true story. I have been wondering why I have been so engaged with this series. In silence today, I realized that it is because the main characters get caught up in their inability to forgive themselves and each other. This is the tragedy of their lives. There is enough self-recrimination and numerous missed opportunities to set down the past that literally wrings their souls and apparently mine as well. I found myself literally yelling at the television with total frustration at both the main characters. They simply had to forgive themselves and each other and move on, as deep hopeful love awaited them.

Forgiveness is profound love. If you do not forgive yourself, you cannot forgive or truly love others. You can play at this forgiveness for as long as it takes but unattended forgiveness remains a thorn in your soul. Where are you carrying unforgiveness? Do not let it remain and fester. It has the power to completely destroy your sense of peace and your ability to truly love others. It has the power to make you feel vulnerable and unsafe. You may feel that if you move on in your outer life that the old unforgiveness will disappear. This is not the way it works. You have to name the unforgiveness you still carry towards yourself and towards others before you can truly command it out of your energy field. You can be free of old unforgiveness but you must make that happen.

Most people have no idea that unforgiveness literally sets up house in your body. It affects your energy level, your immune system, your resilience, your overall health, your self perceptions, and your total well being. It is a powerful negative presence within. There is a type of blocked energy that I call spell energy that can remain in one’s soul for lifetimes. Spell energy refers to energy that has been in your field for a spell of time in the past and though the circumstances around that energy may have changed, it remains energetically present in your energy field though perhaps not in your present awareness. Seek this unforgiveness out wherever it resides.

One more confounding truth is that unforgiveness can reside at the unconscious and supra-conscious (soul) levels for lifetimes. Therefore, if you do begin to clear for unforgiveness, use the Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol that will prompt you to call for healing at all levels of consciousness and through all lifetimes. One of the major reasons you get pricked again and again with unforgiveness is that you need to clear this for once and for all in your energy field to be free of attracting it again to yourself. If you need to forgive yourself or another, your soul will place you in repeated situations where unforgiveness unfolds until you get that you have to heal this within yourself.

You are on a journey to peace whether you accept this or not. That is basically what we are doing here, trying to become more peaceful inside. Holding onto unforgiveness is not peaceful. It needs to go. Command all unforgiveness of self out of your field if you have the slightest hint of its presence within. If you suspect you carry this and do not know what it is about, enter into Silence and ask to be shown or guided to the unforgiveness you still carry.

I had some unresolved issues with a brother for years. I did not know it was unforgiveness. I asked about the imbalance in our relationship and was shown some deeply unkind things I had done to him as a child, totally forgotten by me. Those mean acts and their consequences were still within me and I had not forgiven myself for that treatment of my brother. When I did finally do the forgiveness work for me, I saw it expand to forgive his actions towards me, as well. Our relationship in present day totally changed. This journey awaits all of us but the seeking has to begin with you.

When you do decide to check in on unforgiveness, and figure out where that energy might be, use the Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol to help you include all the various strands that might accompany that unforgiveness for you. The Force is with you but you have to actualize it in your life for it to flourish.

Feb 02 2011

The Neggies

I had a neighbor once who when asked how things were going would sometimes reply, we have the neggies. I loved that because it was so expressive. The neggies can overtake a whole group when complaining, arguing and bickering breaks out. For me, the neggies often show up when my body hurts, when I am feeling overwhelmed, unproductive or when I have no time to take care of myself. This looks like washing my hair at 12:45 AM or trying to dry clothes at 6 AM for the coming day!

Frequently when these thoughts and feelings begin to invade my space, all the above feelings come at the same time. It is as if, when I open that doorway to one little neggie, all the other little neggies lurking in the background gang up on me and have to get their kicks in as well. Recently for example, I was “over” solid booked for weeks with clients. I contracted a sinus infection, then a major virus over Christmas (ugh) and t0 top it all off, I fell while cross-country skiing and badly sprained my knee. I think sometimes these things come all together to get me to pay attention and ask what in the world is going on here with me? The neggies are invading!

Seriously though, when this happens I am not a happy camper. I frequently am anxious and prickly and don’t sleep well and can’t even be dressed up to be taken out anywhere. That’s the biggest clue that I have succumbed, when I can’t even be roused to put on a good face to go out. Alas, time for serious self-searching.

Though I can write about this state of affairs with levity, I assure you when I am in that state, I am really not centered and in serious need of clearing and balance. I have also noticed people taking wide berths around me and the wearing of velvet gloves.

So having been recently in an expanded state of the neggies, here is what Divine Guidance came up with for me. Be quiet, have a day of doing little or nothing, get frustrated, get angry, get sad, be quiet again, and then finally ask WHAT AM I DOING TO ATTRACT THESE EXPERIENCES TO ME ??

Looking at attracting the neggies and manifesting imbalance comes from the spiritual view that we create our own experiences of our lives. We can be as angry, sad, depressed, fearful, joyful, grateful or as accommodating as we can imagine. It is our choice. When my body hurts, I have a choice to obsess about the pain or to get some help from preparations, pills or from people. I also have a choice about how I react to hurting. I can attend to it and then do something that focuses my mind differently or I can feel sorry for myself and eat. I can complain to whomever will listen or I can be still and call forth new balance in my body. I usually do a mixture of haranguing and harumphing before I realize that this does not help me at all. Then I try to move directly to the deep well within, which is very patient with me I have noticed, until I remember to call forth my I AM Energy for the re-balancing of whatever is setting me off.

Here is what that looks like for me. There is only One Power, One Presence, One Energy Source. That Energy and Presence is pure, unadulterated Love which is waiting for me to call it forth. I say something like this.

I call forth my I AM Energy (Highest Self) to infuse my mind, my heart, my body, my affairs and my home with Love, Light and Balance. I release all the blocked energy I am carrying which is manifesting as my hurting body and my complaining self. I command out my blocked emotional, mental, thermal ( self-protective) and spiritual energy which is producing this imbalance in my body and my mind. I ask forgiveness of my body for creating this imbalance and this hurt I am experiencing. Come forth. Let there be balance in my body. And So It Is. My thanks.

Why does this work?

It works because we are all, everyone one of us, Divine Energy regardless of the circumstances of our lives here. We can command this I AM Energy, our Highest Self, because we are eternally connected to this energy even though we may not be conscious of this.

This works because I am calling out the blocked negative energy which I have created my very own self in my human life. If my intention is for that stuck energy to go, it will go. I command it out and that stuck energy goes because I am the total creator of that energy in the first place.

This approach works because I am taking full responsibility for the neggies, I am feeling. In doing that, I re-engage with my own power and redirect it to the source of the negative feelings and the source of the imbalance or pain.

This way of working with imbalance recognizes the Divine Presence within which is eternal and on call, 24-7.

Try a different approach to the imbalances in your life. Try something you may not have tried before or may have tried not believing it could work for you. The first time I worked with deep pain in my back in this way, the pain instantly subsided. In complete astonishment, I burst into tears. I could hardly take it in. The pain was completely gone for 1 entire day. I was so overcome though by self-” neggie” talk that I began doubting that the shift had taken place at all. I could not trust the shift in energy. So, the next day the pain was back. That was a HUGE learning for me.

Stand fully in the knowing that you have all the power, right, authority, intention and all the chutzpah necessary to command your I AM Energy to manifest balance in your life. When I was learning to do this for myself , I tried to embrace infinite possibility with a measure of humility, two nods of passion, a thimble of mystery and a shot of gratitude. See what works for you and let us hear from you.

Oct 28 2010

Grief

How do we go on when we feel crippling grief? We sob and scream, cry and cry. We hide under our bed covers and hope when we awake from sleep, it will all have left. Life moves in grey colored tones. Every action feels like a huge effort. We walk through daily life without joy, peace or hope and that adds to the grief depression already with us. Who understands us? Who will help us? Where do we turn? Will we ever smile again? Will the deep sense of loss ever go away?

HELP US, we are lost.

Lost Tree, heavens' mourning by h.koppdelaney

Everything I thought about life has changed. The unspeakable deep sense of loss is so real, so deep. It hurts and keeps hurting. Is there anyone there? How can I go on? I don’t want this present I have now. I want the grief to leave me and the hurt to stop and the fear to disappear, now. I want the longing to stop. Who is running the show anyway? Why did this happen? How can I go on?

HELP ME Please, I am lost.

She is so distraught, she can’t eat. She is unable to sleep, for days she hasn’t slept. She is afraid of being alone now in the world. She is afraid of the world in which this grief is so overwhelming. She is a skeleton of herself. She is too sad to cry anymore, all the crying is gone and the only energy left is heartache.

He is imploding into numbness. His love has died. She was so vibrant and whole, so full of energy and vitality. How can she be gone, really gone? His heart is pining and raw. He can’t work, he can’t find any happiness, he walks and walks as if to get away from the feelings. When he returns, he lies all day on the couch with no energy to focus. The TV passes by in hours and no connection is made. He is lost to himself and to all of us.

HELP THEM, they are so lost.

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Bring all your burdens to me. For I AM Perfect Love and I AM Perfect Balance and I AM Eternity, Joy, Forgiveness and Wholeness. I AM the Love, the Light and the Life Everlasting. I AM All That you truly seek. There is no other. AND SO IT IS.

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How do we release the grief and sadness of loss, of regret, of un-forgiveness, of shame, of guilt and of depression? We begin in Stillness and Silence. WE MUST ASK Divine Presence to come to us in any way we can think of.

Calling in Healing Energy

Beloved God, I need help. I can’t continue with this grief and unbearable dark feelings of loss. I am so shut down. Come to me and clear this darkness away. I want to be joyful again but I don’t know how. I want to be whole again. I am so disconnected now.

Come to me, Divine Loving Power, I am in great need. I don’t know what to do. Healing Energy of the Universe, I call you to me, now. Move this grief. Show me joy again. Mend my heart, it is so broken. I am so deeply grateful.

Jesus, loving Presence. I need help and healing. I am so sad, lost and afraid I can’t go on. I don’t want to live this life with all this lost and grief. I miss __________ so much. I feel like part of my own being has left me. I feel un-whole and incapable of my own healing. I drag through the days and I am so deeply sad, I can’t speak of this. Come to me. I need help.

Ascended Masters, you know how to do this. You have been here, you know the grief, the darkness and the sadness here. I am being eaten up by these feelings. I can’t find my center, my balance. I can’t find my way. Help me heal. I am so utterly sad and lost. I am afraid. I feel unsafe.

Oh dear God. I am so lonely. My heart aches and aches and I can’t do anything else. Help me to find my way. I feel like I have nothing to live for. I am afraid of things I can’t name. Come Divine Grace, I open my heart to healing. Thank you.

If there is Perfect Love out there or in me, I need it. Come to help me heal. Thank you.

Sadness and grief is our right. We can feel it for as long and as deeply as we need to feel it. We can also let it go when we are ready. This is about how to get the help we need to let grief go. However, there are times when we need to simply feel the grief as humans. We need to shut out the world and be in grief.

Carrying grief however is not expected of us by some mythic “Board of Right Living”. We each have our own timing for how long we remain in a state of sadness and grief and what it looks like for us. And yet, it is really okay to set it all down, to release our heaviness and burdens to the Greater Loving Energy of the Universe. All the darkness can be handled there. It is fully okay to feel joy, delight and passion again after we have lost or after another has died.

floral tribute at Nerang by Leonard John Matthew

Send blessings to those who have left human life, to the ones who have suffered, and send blessings to yourself. Call in the help you need to embrace your path again. It will appear with new colors and new depth for you have loved, grieved and chosen to love again. All that is needed is provided WHEN we ask.

Bless us all as we ask for and receive the help that is waiting for us, after we have grieved what is.

Our Thanks, and So It Is.

Oct 22 2010

Spirits Having a Human Experience (2/2)

See Part One

Spirits Having a Human Experience (1/2)

As we learn about ourselves as spiritual beings having a human experience, new perceptions of ourselves emerge. Here are some discoveries which have been helpful to me in my spiritual and human journey. Being both spiritual and human beings takes some attention and some sorting out regarding what our spiritual beings are capable of and how to live with this unseen potential we all possess.

Our energy field extends way beyond our physical bodies. We intuitively sense this. Have you ever been in a room with people and feel a compulsion towards some and an attraction towards others? This is energy connecting and repelling and this goes on all the time. In general though, we forget about such feelings or diminish their importance because we think of our physical bodies as our full selves.

As human beings, we mostly have very limited views of our energy’s scope and breadth. The more consciously aware we are of our connection with All That Is, the greater our energy extends beyond our bodies. The more time in Stillness and Silence, the more sense we have of our expansive selves. Some beings in body are even extending beyond this earthly dimension in their commitments to help bring Balance and Peace to others.

: Chakras by Robbi Baba

Some beings here have already ascended into the Light and they have chosen to consciously return to this dimension to be in service with others. In Sanscrit, these beings are known as the bodhisattva. This does not mean however that they do not have to move through the same stages of expanding consciousness again, while in body. Their process though may be easier, quicker and more dramatic as they have already taken those steps in other incarnations. This concept is found in the Buddhism.

The bodhisattva among us are those who can teach us of the namaste. Namaste is a state of being which in part refers to the Light of a spiritually aware person readily recognizing the light in another, thereby helping all humanity to remember our connection with All That Is. The words to one song about this are ” The Light in me beholds the Light in you”. This sums up namaste rather succinctly.

Fear, negativity, darkness and anger is created through our human selves and therefore can be released through our human desire to be free of these thoughts and feelings. Kindness, love, gratitude and appreciation is created through our connected spiritual selves which is eternally One With All That Is. Love is the only lasting energy of the Universe. All other energies we are passing through on the way to remembering our own true selves as spirit beings of the Light.

Religious practices and paths have some accurate takes on Divine Presence and some inaccurate takes on Divine Presence as well. Only a spiritually seeking person can discern between that which is of the Light and that which is not of the Light. This is our gift and responsibility. Discernment requires Silence and Stillness in rather large amounts so that we can hear our own still small voice of All That Is amidst the noise of our human existence.

: Oneness by h.koppdelaney

We are eternally connect to All That Is, though we have to seek ways to discover this every time we are in body. Further, there is no requirement that we must discover this connection while in body. We can choose to live our lives in any way we want to. All our choices however have consequences. If we create and nurture imbalance, imbalance will manifest in our bodies and our lives. If we create and nurture balance, balance will manifest in our bodies and our lives.

There are wide ranging terms for Divine Presence, including God, The Great I AM, All That Is, Divine Oneness, Great Creator, Yahweh, Allah, Elohim, Allaha, The Almighty, Lord, The Holy Spirit, etc. Further, Divine Presence is available to us in a myriad of energy forms including Angels, Archangels, Angelic Host, Ascended Masters, Divine Cosmic Light Beings, Nature Intelligences, Divine Ancestors and Divine Physicians, to name a few. This Energy is available to all beings as we become increasingly conscious of these differentiated forms of Divine Presence.

All humans are eternally connected to All That Is even if we do not know this and even if we choose anger, violence or abuse in our human lives. We can never be separated from the Love of All That Is. However our human choices for imbalance in our lives can feel like we are separated from Divine Love, because when we can’t see that spark of Divinity within ourselves, so we have no way to know of the Divine Love that is all around us and within us. This Divine Presence can become invisible to us if we choose imbalance as a way of living.

Choose Love. Choose to believe in the goodness and power of Light within yourself. Choose to see the the wholeness that you are and forgive the imbalance, the lapse in love actions and the judgements along the way. Choose the path of Joy, Delight, Balance and Creativity for then you are as close to Divine Energy as is possible in our human dimension. Gift yourself with Stillness and Silence for there is a world of loving wholeness awaiting you every time you step into your spirit energy.