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Feb 27 2020

Death Calls Us Home

Death of another is a loss of what is
It is the loss of what has been
And the finality of what could have been
The loss of more time together

Death pricks the fear that you will not
Make it through the sorrow
You will not find your way out
You will always be in grief

Loss of another is a call to go within
To consciously touch to that which is solid
That which never changes and is constant
The connection with the Greater Whole

You are still safe and loved
Even when death is present
You still have the knowing of the Love
That has been and always will be

Why does the dread about death persist?
The seeming finality is scary
Your loved one is not in the flesh
Your loved one moves to a place within

Perhaps you have not explored within
Perhaps you do not feel at ease there
Perhaps the deep grief feels paralyzing
Perhaps moving ahead seems overwhelming

However within is a place of Love
Within awaits your presence
Healing and Love both reside within
Restoration and Grace reside within

Going within provides all the time
You desire to say the things you did not say
To set things right from your side
To determine that which needs saying

Death is often a doorway to inner peace
It beckons us to quiet reflection
It strengthens us for reentering life
Without our loved one in the flesh

Every action and feeling you have
Is known by the Everlasting Love
You cannot be forgotten ever
You will find your way home

Receive the blessings of the Eternal Energy
Beckoning you to your own true self
Reminding you are whole and will feel whole again
Restating that all is well and that you are truly loved

If you are beset with sorrow, this can leave you. Open a Sacred Healing Space with Divine Source energy you want in that space. Call for help (I call forth help) from Divine Source for any depression, sorrow, loss or grief energy you are carrying to be transformed. Call for your lightness of heart and mind to be restored. Call in the healing energy and balance that you desire. Call for the help you need to take up your life again. You can do this for yourself and for others. You are always heard.

Aug 29 2019

Anger Dispelled

I stumbled into Silence dragging my anger behind
Urgently seeking something I could not describe
I was a cheerful, happy person on the outside
An angry, blaming, and furious one on the inside

I did not intend to be angry with myself and others
It just came boiling forth when I least expected it
For the life of me, I could not stop it
It was as if a switch turned on and another person took over

Then came the shame, the apologies, the determination to do better
I blamed my constant back pain, my work demands
I blamed my upbringing, my family, and my friends
I blamed myself most of all as I again vowed to stem the anger

Who would choose to live with a person like me?
A kettle poised to boil over any time, day or night
My insides tightly coiled while balancing everything
With the profound determination to do it all, perfectly

I staggered into Silence to test the waters
I sought something that seemed elusive and undefined
I had no idea what lay crawling and writhing beneath my surface
Anger just simmered slowly, waiting for the ignition of the flames

When the burn came roaring in, as it always did
I was fabulous at this expression of rage and power
I was a masterful example of a woman scorned
I was always right in this one-sided state of explosion

It took me years to walk away when I exploded
It took me hours in Silence to remember I was loved
It took profoundly deep tears to forgive my behavior
It took countless hours naming all the fear fueling my rage

I would not have survived without finding Silence
Somehow in Sacred Space, I could not hide
I could not use excuses, I had to face my demons
I had to see the poison I was creating through my anger

So I wrote from my deep heart, cried, and tried again
I sought deliverance from myself and I felt my heart sigh
I was filled with an uncanny vibrational presence
That felt like God’s love to me, even as I questioned it

As I painfully acknowledged all my anger and attack energy
I began to realize that somehow, miraculously, I was still loved
My behavior was not me, it was something I could address
I even felt the thrill of Divine Presence within when I spoke the truth

I finally got that I just needed to stay on the path
To wholeness, to truth, to continue seeking peace
All else was given, continuously, again and again
My job was to work through every last morsel of anger

I spent hundreds of hours writing out my woe
Dear God was always my intro, designed to keep me honest
All the accusing, writhing, self-denunciating, despicable me
Laid out scrupulously revealed as an offering to Divine Source

We finally finished our journey of anger and rage
I began to have months and then years with no outbursts
I began to think I was done with the inner seeking, the shame
Then we began anew to work on judgment, again and again

Wish me luck and stamina
I know we will slay this dragon someday
I know I am not alone as long as I show up
As long as I keep myself in a humble place of trying
All is good and I will be truly whole!

Aug 21 2019

Pain Comes from Blocked Energy

In meditation, it is Divinely given repeatedly that all imbalances in our lives are due to our inner unseen blocked energy. Imbalances cause all sorts of pain. Pain comes from imbalances including, financial, mental, relationship, emotional, physical, health and professional imbalances, among others. What if you seriously undertook the belief that all things are possible with God/ Divine Source/ The Oneness ? Literally, you have nothing to lose and everything to gain by trying this. What is holding you back from going inside, identifying your own blocked energy and focusing on it long enough to clear it and thereby clear up your life’s imbalances? Even the smallest efforts help. All clearing you do now will release you permanently from those imbalances causing stuck energy.

You actually come into body to clear as much blocked energy as you can in your lifetime. Your major reason for coming into body is to learn you are loved beyond anything you can fully imagine.

You originally took on all you stuck energy in your mind, body and soul. Therefore, because this was taken on in body you have to clear current blocked energy while you are in physical body in this dimension. This does not magically happen when you are out of body! For chronic migraine headaches, cancer, insomnia, shame, anxiety, pain, failing relationships, or depression, etc., unseen blocked energies must become unblocked for full physical rebalancing to take place. Medications and supplements can help you along the way and but they will never fully heal the basic causes of the imbalances you are experiencing.

To begin to truly touch to your blocked energy, you have to face the parts of yourself that are out of balance. When you are out of balance, there is too much dissonance within for you to receive the love that is available to you from Divine Source, from others and from yourself. When blocked energy is present, you keep having repeated imbalances in the same areas until you do the inner work to clear unseen blocked energy that is causing the imbalances.

This approach to healing comes from 38 lifetimes spent in this dimension. We get all the chances we need to clear blocked energy, over and over again, lifetime after lifetime. The shortest way to clear chronic blocked energy is to look inside to determine where to begin. Sit in Sacred Space and ask, “What do I need to clear that is blocking me from wholeness?” You will get the guidance you need but you have to seek it with your intention and commitment to heal. Each time you call for specific clearing in Sacred Space, you will clear some of the blocked energy you have been carrying. Each time you will “lighten your load”.

How to begin. Take my free tutorial to help you effectively name the imbalances you want to address. It is three short sessions under 15 minutes, given over three days, to help you begin to name the trauma energy you are experiencing. Begin this today! This information has been given to me in meditation for 30 years in this lifetime so that all of us in body can learn how to heal major issues we are living with.

If you truly set an intention to heal your anger, your judgement, your fear, your pain or your grief, etc., you will be led in how to do this. If you take a step in this direction all the additional energy and guidance you need will be given. Try these steps for success.

Steps*

Begin with my healing yourself tutorial

Use The Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol

Use the new protocol information for chronic imbalances 1 and part 2

These resources offer a cohesive method for healing blocked energy that will work every time you use it. The alternative is to continue with these same imbalances repeating again and again until you face the stuck energy in Sacred Space and command it out of your field. All that I am offering you here has been Divinely given to help you come into greater and greater balance. Share this with others who want more balance in their lives!

The healing you need begins with you. You have to choose to use your free will to focus on what is blocked within and causing imbalances in your life. You are the one to call in the healing and rebalancing you need. No one else can really do this for you. All the help you need however, is available if you begin to call for your own healing of blocked unseen energies affecting you daily. Blessings upon all your efforts!

*If you want more support in this process, get my book, The Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol available through Amazon for under $4.00 for the kindle version.

Jul 25 2019

Depression – Becoming Whole Again

When darkness descends, my good feelings get ambushed
They cannot rise, flow, and swirl around me
There is no light energy to cajole me out of my slump

The fear of being depressed doubles the actual energy enveloping me
Pain, sorrow, loss, fear, shame, black energy and utter overwhelm
Swallows up all motivation, stamina, and endurance I would so love to feel

Choices abound but they come with major side effects
Often leading to more draining energies and self-dejection
More fear of being yet again emotionally handicapped

The drugs cover over the depression and do not heal
The endless therapy sessions go mostly nowhere
The road seems void of good, powerful, and lasting solutions

The fear of being overtaken looms around every action
The reality of not being able to get out of bed
Becomes the relentless tug of war to keep pretending I can cope

I ache for a solution that really works
How many more years of dismal, restricting energy
Can a body take? Who is listening out there, anyway?

I so yearn for lightness, laughter, heart warming abandon
I have tried everything I can possibly find
To help me come into lasting emotional balance

There is one who says I can clear for all the blocked energy
Showing up as depression and all the specific symptoms I have
As I fear dipping again into weeks of darkness and loss

She says healing is possible when we work with Divine Source
She says it is my birthright to clear all darkness from my field
She says I could be normal, depression free, and happy again
Should I try yet again to become free from depression?

There is so much of my self wrapped up with depression
I am a total pessimist in one part of me about my chances
But I so want to soar without this albatross about my neck

Who is saying I have to live this way
Things change, I change, I may find a way forward
I may give her stuff a try, even though I am still afraid to really hope

She calls it depression trauma energy and all symptoms
She says I can totally call for the healing myself
She says she can help me find a healing pathway

When this crippling darkness passes this time
I hope I will reach out and seek this healing way
I hope I can find my way to a place someday where I can
Give back to others because I have become whole again

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If you are dealing with depression or any other chronic condition, use these resources. They can help you heal yourself even if you have tried everything! Take this free simple tutorial as step 1 to get you started in naming what needs to heal. For step 2, use the Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol as a basic first level clearing with your specific imbalance. Begin step three as you move to deeper chronic root imbalances affecting your specific imbalance. Complete step four and you will have cleared many stuck types of energy at very deep levels regarding the specific imbalance. Then the balance you seek is possible! Give yourself 10 days and if you still have symptoms repeat steps 2,3, and 4. Sometimes repeated healing is needed when you are dealing with chronic issues.

For more information, get The Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol book on Amazon.

May 16 2019

Just Aging or Inner Struggle

I hurt, feel listless, and nothing helps
I take my medications and I get exercise
And still I hurt some of every day
I am discouraged, I must be getting older

My systems are sluggish and draggy
I feel strong, stuck, lurking emotions
They bubble up and I keep pushing them away
They feel buried, deeply hidden, but still agitating

My gut is a mess due to too much sugar
Too much rich food and drink
Too many simple carbs and sweets
Sugar treats everyday and twice on holidays

Food and drink help me celebrate and forget
Because inside I feel alone, disconnected, and empty
My feelings of being lost and unfocused loom,
Improve a bit, return, and eventually overwhelm

My body screams at me about being out of balance
Out of touch with All That Is and myself
I continue ignoring the small indications of trouble
While time passes and all issues grow larger

I just keep on keeping on, in ole’ familiar ways
Then pain strikes, days feel lackluster
Migraines take an upturn, wakeful nights begin repeating
Every part of my mind, body, and soul now on the edge

I have to stop and listen because medicines only work
For a short time when congestion remains inside
I know I should seek out the blocked and stuck places
And find a path forward that really works

However, I really prefer to not focus on this inner stuff
Even as my body continues to yell, scream, and cajole
Demanding the needed changes, aching daily
For balance, peace, health, and clearing

I’ve been told I get all the help I need by asking in devotion
By staying the course, by clearing, and trying to love
By commanding out fear, anger, shame, and apathy
By returning and returning to Silence for more guidance

It still seems easier to let all this fall on my deaf ears
To continue to feel invincible, pretend I’m good enough
Blowing off steam when I am angry and irritated
Totally denying I have settled for pain and suffering

I know how to play at being just fine
Know how to put on my no care in the world face
Only I truly know that act is a pack of lies
And, yes, my body continues to tell me the truth

I really, really do not want to do this work
It is so hard to look inside at what is not working
Or maybe that is just my mind playing tricks on me
Keeping me from giving my all to be my best self