Where can I go to find peace within?
I am so easily knocked off balance these days
I want to be at peace and feel optimistic
But seriously look at our state of affairs
The kids are so frustrated and antsy
I have all this work expected of me
The house is a mess with no one to help
The TV is on all the time due to boredom
I don’t even have a place of my own in this house
I sometimes find a place to hide and try to rebalance
But I do not have much practice at how to do this
I really despair when I am so snippy and irritated
Writing helps sometimes, when I write, Dear God
When I can pour my feelings out, I begin to feel better
I begin to let the stress release and the negativity balance
I have to remember though to call in help so something clears
If I write and don’t ask for help, the stuff stays around
I feel the words dancing through my mind all day
I revisit all the hard feelings and they simply grow
That just gets me deeper into not being at peace
I am not sure how this whole thing works
I haven’t really written out my feelings in eons
I guess I am asking the Universe for help
That is what I feel anyway. That is what I hope.
Every time I wade into tomorrow, next week or this summer
I feel anxious and fearful that this isolation will continue
That I won’t be able to cope, nor will the kids
That I will just melt and run out of the house screaming
Showers help but only then I wash my hair and cry
Then I feel somehow cleansed and able to start again
Walking helps but with the kids it is mostly about them
Good for them but not always renewing for me
When I return, I lock myself in the bedroom, with guilt
Write to Dear God again, transferring my angst to the page
Getting it out of me and somewhere safe so I don’t lash out
Come Peaceful Presence right into me and mine, with Thanks!