fear

Oct 30 2019

Fear Free Living

Goodness is all around but I am consumed by fear
Fear of not being enough, fear of being alone
Fear of aging, fear of not being lovable
Fear of living in poverty, without joy

I get totally caught up with all my fears
They loom just in the background
Then they pounce upon the scene
Catching me off guard and unprepared

I usually then just crumble and enter darkness
Give in to the power of the fears
Wallow in them a few days, overeating, self-bashing
Until I somehow come into greater balance

This endless cycle is the dark side of me
I seem to always be trying to avoid facing the fears
Trying to hide from them so they won’t “get me”
But really the fears keep erupting over and over again

I am not my fears
But goodness knows they run me
I want to outpace every one of my fears
Escape to a fearless space of balance

How to begin?
How to get rid of these obsessions?
How to be my best, fearless self?
How to pull more of my goodness to the forefront?

If this is even a tiny bit of where you are, turn to your eternal self. That is found inside, in the quietness, in the listening part of you. That part of you that is beyond the body and mind, and beyond the doing. That part of you that is eternal and always connected to the Greater Whole.

Every single one of you has this part of you within. But it stays in the background until you seek more balance, more peace and more fear free living. Consciously stop doing, enter into stillness and breathe. Try doing this lying down. When you begin to feel a quietness, soak that energy in and let it fill your entire being. As the quietness and breathing begin to settle you, bring your most fearful energy forward for rebalancing.

Consciously bring the fear energy into the Lightness you are experiencing. Call for that fear to clear your energy field from wherever you first took it into you. Call for it to be transformed by the Silence, the Balance and the Wholeness you are experiencing. Give thanks and return to the tranquil space you are creating for yourself.

Do this often. It works. It is one way to fear free living.

Jul 03 2019

Be Not Afraid

Be not afraid. Fear drains the very vitality out of your body and life. Fear can run away with your joy and your sense of peace. It is the opposite of love and can seep into every crevice you allow it to inhabit. Fear feeds discouragement and imbalance. So what are your top fears? Everyone has a set of fears that sit just below the surface, running you. The only way to deal with fear is to face it down. You have to name it and command it out of you field so it releases your mind, heart, body, soul, and energy field completely. Otherwise, it just sits in your energy field and disturbs you again and again. If you did nothing else ever with your energy field but clear for fear, you could arrive at a totally peaceful inner landscape. Fear is worthy of your time. It is worthy of your attention and your determination to cast it out of your energy field.

Fear is what makes you feel little, ineffective, of no importance, and without agency. Return to your major fear and look at it squarely in the face. When you name fear you take the first step towards commanding it our of your mind, body, and soul. You are the only one who can do this. You have free will so you can live with fear or you can set it down and move on. There may always be another fear rearing its ugly head just as you let one fear go. But you can always face that one as well. That is your choice and your right to cleanse all fear from your energy field.

Frequently, individuals tell me they do not want to even try to clear fear because of feeling they have no power to do so. Others feel that the fear is real, true, and has power over them. But truly, fear is something you have given your power to and you can take that power back as well.

Lots of folks stick their heads in the sand and ignore their inner sense of fear believing that not consciously recognizing the fear, keeps it from negatively affecting you. This is absolutely untrue. In fact, fear is the way your inner knowing is guiding you to pay attention. When fear is in your field, it is always negatively affecting you! Further, the longer you hold onto fear, the stronger it becomes. It often slops over into anger and rage. Anger and rage have their beginnings in fear. Pretty soon, you are filled with fear manifesting anger and rage, over and over again.

Fear is your inner warning system. It is powerful and relentless. It takes a myriad of forms and only you can face it and call it out. Start with the biggest fear you have and work with it in Sacred Space. Follow the Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol and clear it from your field. Then use both part 1 and part 2 of the of the Chronic Imbalances protocol to more deeply clear chronic fear from your field and you are home free. We are talking 15 minutes at the outside.

Further, if you do not fully clear all the fear you targeted, no worries. You will be shown again that more clearing is needed. Just repeat the process again, knowing that clearings of this sort have their own timing for total clearing. Repeating clearings does not mean you have messed up. It means you are getting guidance to complete that which you have started. Begin the process, keep showing up, and all the next steps will be given.

So what do you do then after that first fear energy is gone? Go to the next big fear you have and repeat this process again, and again. Do not hide from any fear you carry. Fear is corrosive and detrimental to your health on every single level you can imagine. Do not allow fear to simmer within! Name it, face it, and command it out within a Sacred Space. Wallowing in fear or denying its existence does you no good at all. Commanding it out of your energy field is one of the most transformational acts you can take towards inner peace. Begin with your biggest fear today!

Sep 19 2018

I Self-Protect

I walk through my days protecting
Something feels very vulnerable
I cloak myself with ever ready vigilance
Against that which I sense is everywhere present

I feel attack energy ready to slay me
I see myself being irreparably hurt, betrayed, and abandoned
It has happened to others. They suffer
I could so easily be the next one to lose

I present my false self everywhere
I am protecting my real self all the time
I know the difference but I pretend I don’t
I pretend to be who I am not
I feel I need to be someone other than me
Then I may be safe
Then I may escape the darkness seeking me

How did I come to this?
What did I miss?
Why do I persist?
What have I yet to learn?
Where did my trust go?

Oh Divine One, hear my plea
I am lost in this place of pain and suffering
I know not why I have swallowed the fear
Why I have chosen self-protection
Why I have sought to hide
I am weary living like this
I can’t find my happy time

I need to feel your Presence
My connection is so broken
In all this confusion, I can’t find my center
I keep pretending so maybe there is nothing of me really present
Come into my heart and mind
Why is this happening to me?
Am I lovable at all?

Aug 29 2018

Your thoughts are not the You, you seek

When I am in Silence
I feel larger than my body
I feel I can expand and expand
I feel lighter and connected

I long to know
How to bring this Peace with me
Into my daily life
Into my every cell

I need to feel connection
All the day and all the night
In happiness and in self-attack
In doubt and in fear

I long to walk without worry
To see without anxiety
To be the connected One I may remember
From another time and place

Show me what I fear
So deeply to keep it hidden
So profoundly to keep me disconnected
So thoroughly that I believe it

The Light in Silence tells another story
About all my goodness
Even though it is fleeting
Because, maybe I can’t believe it?

Why do I feel so dark about me?
I do not want to be here, again and again
I want that Peace in Silence
To stay with me every moment of the day

Help me make new choices
For what I give my power to
For what I see as my smallness
For how I think about myself

Something is off here
My thoughts say, “not enough,
Not successful, not lovable,
Not worthy, yourself to blame”

My heart says look again
Command the darkness out
You are of the Light
Your thoughts are not the You, you seek

Jul 11 2018

Forgiveness is Profound Love

I have been watching Kurt Seyit and Sura, a Turkish/Russian love story beginning in Russia during the Russian revolution and moving to Istanbul. It is magnificent and heartbreaking based on a true story. I have been wondering why I have been so engaged with this series. In silence today, I realized that it is because the main characters get caught up in their inability to forgive themselves and each other. This is the tragedy of their lives. There is enough self-recrimination and numerous missed opportunities to set down the past that literally wrings their souls and apparently mine as well. I found myself literally yelling at the television with total frustration at both the main characters. They simply had to forgive themselves and each other and move on, as deep hopeful love awaited them.

Forgiveness is profound love. If you do not forgive yourself, you cannot forgive or truly love others. You can play at this forgiveness for as long as it takes but unattended forgiveness remains a thorn in your soul. Where are you carrying unforgiveness? Do not let it remain and fester. It has the power to completely destroy your sense of peace and your ability to truly love others. It has the power to make you feel vulnerable and unsafe. You may feel that if you move on in your outer life that the old unforgiveness will disappear. This is not the way it works. You have to name the unforgiveness you still carry towards yourself and towards others before you can truly command it out of your energy field. You can be free of old unforgiveness but you must make that happen.

Most people have no idea that unforgiveness literally sets up house in your body. It affects your energy level, your immune system, your resilience, your overall health, your self perceptions, and your total well being. It is a powerful negative presence within. There is a type of blocked energy that I call spell energy that can remain in one’s soul for lifetimes. Spell energy refers to energy that has been in your field for a spell of time in the past and though the circumstances around that energy may have changed, it remains energetically present in your energy field though perhaps not in your present awareness. Seek this unforgiveness out wherever it resides.

One more confounding truth is that unforgiveness can reside at the unconscious and supra-conscious (soul) levels for lifetimes. Therefore, if you do begin to clear for unforgiveness, use the Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol that will prompt you to call for healing at all levels of consciousness and through all lifetimes. One of the major reasons you get pricked again and again with unforgiveness is that you need to clear this for once and for all in your energy field to be free of attracting it again to yourself. If you need to forgive yourself or another, your soul will place you in repeated situations where unforgiveness unfolds until you get that you have to heal this within yourself.

You are on a journey to peace whether you accept this or not. That is basically what we are doing here, trying to become more peaceful inside. Holding onto unforgiveness is not peaceful. It needs to go. Command all unforgiveness of self out of your field if you have the slightest hint of its presence within. If you suspect you carry this and do not know what it is about, enter into Silence and ask to be shown or guided to the unforgiveness you still carry.

I had some unresolved issues with a brother for years. I did not know it was unforgiveness. I asked about the imbalance in our relationship and was shown some deeply unkind things I had done to him as a child, totally forgotten by me. Those mean acts and their consequences were still within me and I had not forgiven myself for that treatment of my brother. When I did finally do the forgiveness work for me, I saw it expand to forgive his actions towards me, as well. Our relationship in present day totally changed. This journey awaits all of us but the seeking has to begin with you.

When you do decide to check in on unforgiveness, and figure out where that energy might be, use the Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol to help you include all the various strands that might accompany that unforgiveness for you. The Force is with you but you have to actualize it in your life for it to flourish.