seeking

Oct 17 2018

Meanness Abounds

Oh God, I know I have a meanness within me
I know not where it comes from
As I feel it rear its ugly head
I still feel unable to curb it, at all

I am ashamed, so deeply ashamed
It is so familiar, I am painfully stunned to say
I know it too well for I have acted
upon that meanness all too often

I am the master of the preemptive strike
I am quick to lash out
in my total righteousness
I have focus for my anger, only,
For my view of that which is right

I feel untenable shame at my past actions
I need profound forgiveness
for vast amount of meanness and carelessness
I have hurt others through my fiery rage
I have often still felt in the Right
even after my striking out is over

My gnashing and sobbing do not begin to make amends
but perhaps I can start anew
I need to start anew, fresh again
to try and heal the meanness
that I have given my fierceness to
over and over again

I want the meanness and regret
to be cleansed from my energy
I want any love that still remains within
to grow and overflow outwards

I call within and without for this to manifest
For love to override the core of meanness within
I command the cleansing to commence, continue, and complete!
And, So It Is. And, So It Is.

Sep 12 2018

Guardian Angel Dialogue

It feels immature to believe in guardian angels
As if I need some kind of safety net that I can’t even see
Like I am not capable of living my life with my own resources
As if I am so deeply unsure of myself that my story includes a guardian angel

No, our presence is not about your lack
It is about your brilliance and your loving center
We hold the space with your soul for expansion
For your peace, health, and wholeness

Even if you do not ask us to help you
We are with you all the time
We are always waiting for a call from you
For whenever you would like help on anything

But if I can’t see you, how can I believe you are there?
I don’t relish believing in something that is made-up
Like Santa Claus or fairies or Easter bunnies
That is all so much nonsense!

I don’t really even believe in God
Not that I tell anyone that
But there is too much pain here
For there to be a God

Ah, but that is why you are in body
To learn the difference between human and Divine energy
To choose to listen to the Knowing within
To learn about your connection with God

With that listening, each will heal from
All heartache and suffering,
All illness and pain

All pain and suffering is humanly created
That is the state of those separated from Divine Source
Seek within, you will find a path to peace and serenity,
Health, wholeness, forgiveness, and balance

I do not know of these things
They concern me and seem very foreign to my life
What if I find a dark version of myself inside
What then?

You have all the chances you need to do this inner seeking
You can do it now, you can do this later
Eventually you will do to this work, one way or another
Seeking within though, is the most direct path to wholeness

The hardship you feel is every bit about being separated from Divine Energy
You live in body and think that is All There Is
That is only a tiny portion of who you are
Your present time is just as it is, so you can heal and expand your knowing

This is the real blessing of being in body
Seize the chance this lifetime gives you
You will never regret a single decision
Made in the context of seeking more peace and wholeness

Truths confirmed by Divine Knowing about Guardian Angels

Guardian Angels can change over time. The change is determined by the issues you are working with and is connected to your level of consciousness and your level of knowing of Oneness.
You must ask for the help you seek, even of Guardian Angels.
All requests are heard and responded to with the most appropriate energy for your soul’s learning.
The primary purpose of your Guardian Angel is to see that you accomplish your life’s purpose. So sometimes, what you think you need is seen differently by your Guardian Angel.
Anything you ask for your soul’s expansion is given but sometimes not in the time frame you expect nor in the way you expect it to be given.

Aug 19 2018

You Are Not the Fears You Have

When you are being run by fears such as not having enough money, not feeling lovable, not feeling you will ever have the energy you desire, or not feeling you are making a difference, these feelings are not you. They are simply fears crossing your path that you have given your energy to. Fears arise and because you do not really feel connected with Divine Source, therefore, you give your energy to these fears. You grow your fears, in other words. The fundamental fear is that you are not loved. This fuels all the other fears. The fear you are not loved manifests in a thousand ways to get you to look at those fears and discard them. This is essentially your eternal job. You are here to face and dismantle all the fears you carry. You do not have to do this alone. There is all the help you need.

However, there are many pitfalls along the way. You may get in a loop of blaming others for not loving you enough. You may get into the habit of judging self or others harshly to keep you from looking at your own fears. You may get in a loop of hiding from the fears you are carrying and they will manifest as your being snippy, angry, haughty, judging, unkind, dismissive, unforgiving, unhappy, depressed, or selfish. Still, though, these behaviors are not you either. They are the result of unexamined fears running you. Those undesirable behaviors are the result of you building up fears within, without examining them.

One of the toughest realizations is that you may be totally wrong about yourself and who your are. To find yourself fully, you need to go inside and sit with Divine Source/God/the Great Spirit. Here you will find Truth, Love, Forgiveness and Acceptance. Truly, this awaits each of you, every minute of every day. However, your fears of being less that you would hope, more broken than you fear, or much darker than you feel you can address, may keep you from going inside to Silence.

The big secret about going inside to the quiet is that you are much more loving, capable, caring, forgiving, than you are presently experiencing. Regardless of your past, regardless of your bad behaviors, when you do not consciously connect with Divine Oneness you will give your power to the fears and their resulting negative behaviors. This is the surprise that comes with being in Silence. You are led as to how to dismantle all your fears and how to feel the love available to you if you stop, breathe, open, and seek connection.

When you begin to do this or return to try again, seek Love. Simply, seek the feeling of being loved. Suspend all the self-perceptions which are in any way negative and imagine Love energy flowing in, around, and through you. You do this enough and you will begin to see the fears you are carrying and can then command them out of your energy field. Begin by seeking Love, the ability to breathe and the experience of releasing your tensions.

Everything that you fear about yourself is untrue! Every fear you have is simply energy that has run amok. You have to name those fears, cast them out of your field and more love, acceptance, kindness, and creativity replaces the fears. This is the secret to why so many people enter into Silence willingly. They have had the experience of feeling Love, Forgiveness, Grace, and Peace. You have to take the first step to look at the fears you have in a conscious Sacred Space. They are not you. They are energy that is running you.

Enter into Silence and call forth the sense of feeling Love. You can do this lying down, sitting up, walking in the woods or standing looking at beauty. Keep trying to do this. Practice is required. I tried lots and lots of ways to feel flowing Love. When I began, I took no other agenda into the Silence with me except to feel Love. Try this. The Love available to you is infinite and will lead you to eventually look at your fears. Start with seeking the feeling of Love. You are loved. The very fact that you are in body, indicates you are loved. You may not feel loved or lovable but with practice you will. All else will follow.

Aug 15 2018

Love Inspired Truth

Listen to Truth. It does not try to appease you or convince you. It simply is. It is created by Divine Oneness, never by mortal humans, because you are most likely still working on imbalances, confusion, and misperceptions. Truth is beyond human understanding. It sings a song from the heavens, from the voice of All That Is, from the vibrations of Unconditional Love. It is always attainable though you must have begun your inner journey to Wholeness. You need to begin this inner journey to Wholeness for Truth to be revealed to you. You have to go within and understand with every part of your being that you are loved and cherished, constantly, thoroughly, and irrevocably by the Divine Love of the Universe.

You are truly loved no matter what has befallen you. Even when attacked, hurt, sick, unable to find the right partner, or unable to find your professional path, you are profoundly loved. You may ask, how can that be? One explanation is that you may be paying a karmic debt during this life. Karmic debts are required of us when we have committed a seemingly unforgivable debt in a previous lifetime. We need to pay for that debt to be free to expand and fully grow in consciousness. Your life may be devoted to paying off that debt or debts so that you can soar. You may not feel loved because there are parts of your life that are very hard and seemingly unfair. However, you are still loved with a fierceness that created your current life precisely for you to be free from past transgressions. This is one type of Truth that might be revealed to you if you go within, seeking.

Nothing that happens in this world is haphazard. However, because you may not be fully versed in Divine Truth, you may resort to the belief in haphazard events, fear, or blame to make sense of that which is beyond your senses. All poverty, hatred, violence, anger, resentment, and illness are humanly created. You create a myriad of imbalances from being separated from Truth. When you go within, you are taught about Love that is all encompassing and all forgiving and you slowly heal from all that separates you from Truth, Peace, and Balance.

Being separate from Truth can also show up in how you feel about yourself. You may feel you have failed in reaching your potential or that you are being punished because of every bad thing that has happened to you. You may blame yourself for being in an unsuccessful relationship. All the while, you have simply forgotten to ask for help, for all things, in all ways, at all times. Consciously seeking in Silence and listening to Truth can heal these inaccurate perceptions of yourself and help receive needed support to see yourself as the person you actually are, loving and evolving.

This world is created in Love, and Truth is intrinsically part of that Love. You stray from that Truth every time you give into fear, anger, blame, depression, gossip, pride, judgment, or shame. These feelings and thoughts separate you from Spirit. When separated from Spirit, your requests for help have no power. If for example you are carrying self-anger and blame, when you call for a shift in your work relationships, this cannot be received. Your self-anger and blame energy block your ability to receive the energy of the request you made. This is because your self-perceptions are not in Truth!!! You have to come from loving, truthful energy for stuck energy to be transformed. The Truth is, you are a loving person carrying negative self- perceptions which are not the Truth, so this energy has to be transformed before the healing energies can be received.

Clear all blocked energies that separate you from God’s energy of love, peace, and balance. Then, all subsequent prayers are answered, every single time. You are also then privy to Truth energy that helps form the way you live.

Only Love can fully speak the Truth. For the Universe and all who dwell therein were created in Divine Love and in the image of that magnificent energy. Anything less than living in accurate Truth falls short of your full potential. You who want to reach your full potential; meditate, spend time in Silence, seek balance, seek kindness to self and forgiveness of others. You could do yourself a great kindness to pursue these ways to reach your full, loving, and powerful Truth.

Where to begin? Use the Spiritual Healing Protocol to free yourself from any type of imbalance which separates you from knowing Divine Source and living in Truth.

Aug 01 2018

Mind Creates Matter

What we think, how we feel about our thoughts, and how we react to these thoughts has a huge impact on every aspect of our lives including our bodies. When working in Sacred Space, I have been repeatedly led to seek answers to physical imbalances from places where energy is blocked. In other words, I get nudged to look for stuck energies so through clearing, new balance levels can manifest for specific bodies or situations. This has consistently worked well with all sorts of physical and relationship imbalances.

You may have heard the saying, “What you pay attention to grows”. If you keep thinking that you are not up to a particular task, it is very hard to do that task well or at all. If you keep thinking about how underweight and ugly you feel you are, you can focus on this so strongly that nothing else about you registers or seems to matter. Imagine all the thoughts you have in a given day and their impact on your body. What you think determines how you function but also how your body creates itself. So, becoming aware of your thoughts is paramount to being able to change those thoughts towards the positive.

Imbalances shared with me about one’s body, relationships, work, or life circumstances all initiate looking at thought processes.The imbalances serve to teach us that some of our thoughts are not helpful. The imbalances we have in our lives and bodies begin with imbalances in our thoughts and can be exacerbated by our feelings.

A client* felt that she had had no success in her life with men. She had been divorced twice and was dating again. She was seriously wondering whether she was even likable to any man. In Sacred Space work, the Divine beings around her indicated that she had hidden fears about being able to be her true self in an intimate relationship. She was blocked from having workable relationships with men because of this hidden fear. As she cleared these issues at all levels of consciousness, (conscious, subconscious, unconscious, and supra-conscious) she began to find compatible men to date and began to change her negative self-perception about how she was seen by men.

Another person had bone marrow cancer in several of his bones. When we began seeking the reasons behind this, it was revealed that he had created a life contract for pain and suffering so that he could develop more compassion for others in pain. When this set of unhelpful thoughts healed regarding his life contract, he healed from bone marrow cancer without any chemo or radiation. We called for Divine vibrational intervention for all affected bones and that was enough for all his bones to heal.

Thoughts are very powerful and impact energy in your life, your body, and your relationships. So, how do you work with this effectively? Seek to determine what negative or unhelpful thoughts can be connected to the imbalance you are dealing with. Open Sacred Space and put this question to the Divine Beings working with you. They are present to help you. If nothing comes immediately, pay attention to your thoughts in the next few days. You will very likely be guided to the thoughts that are the culprits causing the imbalance.

A client reported with distress that her relationship with her husband was no longer affectionate. She asked in Sacred Space for guidance as to what she might be doing that was causing this. In the next three days, she realized she carried negative judgment energy about her husband regarding a number of issues. These were not areas she had even raised with her husband. However, the stuck energy was being shown to her so that she could clear all negative judgment trauma energy manifesting as a lack of affection and closeness between herself and her husband. Their relationship changed in lovely ways with more two-way affection being shared. The clearing we do for ourselves often affects others around us as well.

Monitor your thoughts. Begin to challenge those thoughts that are negative and unhelpful. This is a good proactive approach to cleaning up your brain. Use Silence to pose your questions that are bothering you and ask how you may be unwittingly creating the imbalances you are experiencing. This is a powerful way to move into balance in your life, relationships, body, and health.

* References to clients are either composites or have been slightly changed to protect client confidentiality.