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Mar 06 2020

Journeying to Now

Impatience is the bane of my existence
I am a rusher, hurrier, want to get it done
Kind of person, on the go
Doing one thing, thinking of the next thing

I get tons done most days
But my breath and body pay
As I function at high gear
Packing in and pushing most of the time

It is the impatience with others
I struggle with especially when
Their moving and decision making
Is happening in the slow lane

I know what I want to do
I make decisions quickly
I move decisively
I am all in with anything I do

This was the way I lived for years
I evaluated my day by how much I accomplished
I was rather callous with those “in my way”
I felt a total sense of shortness of time

Then, yoga found me on a crisp afternoon
I had been a dancer as a child
I had loved body movement
But yoga brought my breath back to me

Next, meditation entered stage left
Sneaking into my days
Calling me to times of quiet
Beckoning me to be still

I was not a natural meditator
I was squirmy and impatient
My progress was not easily visible
I had to surrender, again and again

I had to slow down and breath
I learned to be fully in the moment
And to clear my crummy feelings
And to stop pushing and evaluating me

I became a bit nicer to me and to others
I became more grounded and happy
I often wonder where I would be
If impatience still ruled the roost

Recently, my blood pressure returned to
The days of my 30’s and smiled upon me
Nodding to the years of changes in my life
And beckoning me to continue to flow

Something about my relation to time changed
Something about my impatience changed
Then something about being at peace showed up
Then my body healed and joy arrived to stay

Feb 19 2020

Face Your Fears

Face your darkness
As much as you don’t want to do it
Do it anyway
It is calling you to your own true self

There is an inner knowing
Of the goodness and of the darkness within
Holding onto the darkness causes illness
Sorrow, pain, heartbreak, and suffering

The only way out of the suffering
Is to face it down, command it out
Refuse to settle, name your fears
You are stronger than you can possibly imagine

You are made of the Oneness
Everything that is not going well
Is calling you to your own best self
To a different reality where there is peace

But you have to make the choice
For truth, determination, for love
And wholeness, some of every day
Don’t hide another day

Name the fears, one by one
Be ruthlessly honest with yourself
Do not take “I can’t” for an answer
Work daily to let one fear go after another

And work with Divine Source not against it
Name all that you are unhappy with
Call in the healing you need
Knowing it will come to you in perfect timing

If you are a beginner to this,
Give yourself some slack
Be sure to call in patience for yourself
Because this journey is eternal

Face the root fear of all unspoken fear
That your deepest fears are truly who you are
That if you go deeply you will find more darkness
That you are really profoundly flawed

Better to keep pretending
Because the truth will be awful
You might not be able to swallow it
You might drown while trying

Take a step back, this is truly inaccurate
Your set of fears is humanly created
They are illusions with no lasting heft
Merely thoughts you have given your power to

What awaits you is a new understanding of your magnificence
The unraveling of all fears and conditioning
The replacing of every single negative self perception
With profound grace and love for self and others

The fear you feel is the part of you
Calling for change, rebalancing
Re-centering, courage, and grit
Again and again, the call to your true self is eternal

You are more splendid that you can image
You have more love to give than you can ever grasp
Your life here is to discover the love that is your essence
Unearthing the fears reveal the doorways to lasting love and balance

Jan 23 2020

Spiritual Living

There is a space beyond my mind and body where energy flows without hindrance. Where I am one with the Universe and we commune through energy alone. It is the energy of Love and Acceptance, the energy of Infinite Possibility and Grace. At times I have felt so connected, my body vibrates, totally alive with the recognition of Source Presence. This tells me I count. This tells me I am a person of substance. This reminds me that I am always seconds away from checking in and touching to Divine Energy.

I am not sure I could always live in that space. It is exhilarating and phenomenal. It moves me beyond body, thought, or encumbrances. It is all encompassing though eventually I am delivered back to this dimension, more peaceful and gentle, more centered and grounded. I marvel at these experiences. They come upon me when I least expect them. When I am seemingly just going about my business. They catch me like a practice in reverie, though without the thoughts and without anything of human substance. I am floating along in wholeness, existing in vibration.

These experiences remind me that I am more than my words, more than my convictions, more than this body. I am of the Oneness, eternal and always growing. I have a trajectory of being that eclipses all the negativity I have ever touched to. I cannot die and fade away into nothingness. No one really does that. I change states and keep on moving along. If I so choose, I can continue to explore pure Love, call it to myself, and keep setting down all that does not serve me. I can face my demons and amazingly, they leave me. I can create the Peace I seek. I am always connected to Love and Wholeness, regardless of the the ever present darkness, visible daily.

So I belong and I don’t belong. I belong to a world of ever changing possibility. I don’t belong to the woes, slings, and arrows that continue to challenge me to make a choice for Love. Those are the trail signs helping me to follow the Light. I do belong to seeking and wonder. I do belong to an inner knowing of integrity with self and others. I do not belong to the suffering of the world though I touch to it daily. It is my choice not to remain there. It is my choice to make another move towards clearing and balance, towards loving and forgiving, towards prayer and re-centering. I do belong to the vicissitudes of life though knowing they are informed by the blessings of a spiritual path evolving the formation of my human self.

Dec 18 2019

Inner Work Begets Miracles

Miracles have a tenuous place in the present world
They are often subject to deep suspicion
Because if miracles can truly happen
Your whole sense of a world without miracles will be disturbed

What if heart surgery can be received without cutting
Or if bones can be realigned by merely calling that to happen
What if you can schedule your perfect vacation with Divine Presence
What if you can heal from cancer through deep clearing of stuck energy

What if you can learn how to tell if you have an infection or virus
Or call in healing for toxic, damaging relationships
What if you can heal your immune system by calling in healing
What if you can receive all the energy you need through Divine vibration

Even if all these shifts can happen and they can
Every step to arrive and experience Divine healing
Must be taken in a Divinely ordered manner
To manifest a sure knowing of the vastness of the Universal Energy

This ordered manner though is not your concern
You just need to begin your inner work
All else is given as you move from topic to topic
Once you make a tiny effort, you will get powerful support

Start with that which is the most disturbing for you
Do not let those issues fester, they sap your energy
Suspend your misgivings and try, open Sacred Space,
Call in what you need and give thanks for what manifests

You will be heard though it may be a long road
To the place where you think you are going
You have to go through every step between the present
And where you hope to arrive. One day or months may be needed.

Start now and keep returning, there will be no regrets
Frustration at times, questioning at times, of course
Every time you clear stuck energy, you will feel lighter
You will feel more confident in being able to create peace

If you never start, you will be faced with the same issues repeatedly,
Even the next time your soul returns here for another run at life
You can really never escape the areas that need healing
Your soul is eternally calling you to your best self!

Resources

This Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol is a place to start.

This free, short Healing Yourself Tutorial is another place to start. (I narrate it.)

This is part 1 protocol healing steps if you are dealing with Chronic Issues.

This is part 2 protocol healing steps if you are dealing with Chronic Issues.

For more in-depth background, see my book.

Nov 20 2019

Earning Respect

What does it really mean to earn respect? Running an establishment, owning a lovely home, being in charge of a department, or having a prestigious job? Perhaps. There is a more lasting method of earning respect than may be possible through public indications of success. There is a deep inner state you can cultivate through earning respect for yourself. This can be a long journey but it begins in small steps.

One of the first steps to earning respect is learning to tell the truth. This takes practice. First, you have to recognize the truth for what it is to you. The extremes fueled by emotions nor the extremes fueled by wanting to please others rarely represent the truth. Truth is found between the extremes of our unexamined feelings and the fear of not pleasing others. Truth is between these opposites and only you can determine what your truth really is. Only you can call yourself to the full picture of truth for you. This is a step in developing respect for yourself. A few exchanges help to capture this.

Heart-felt emotions, not full truth
George, you are a slimy jerk having RSVP’d saying I was coming to this party. What gave you that right without even asking me? You just totally ignore my wishes, set me up for failure, and expect me to bow and scrape because you want me to. Just leave me alone! You make me so angry!

Giving in to pleasing others, not full truth
George, I know you really want me to go to this party. I am not happy about this but I will go. I will put a smile on and act as if I like these people and what they stand for. If this is what you want, I will go. But you owe me!

Beginnings of speaking truth
George, I already told you, I am not going to this party and pretend to be happy about who these people are and what they stand for. It is not something you have a right to expect of me. You may have the finesse to pull this off and be comfortable yourself. That is fine. I know I do not and I will not put my self in harm’s way in order to present a united false front to these people.

To even get close to the third example of beginning to speak truth, you have to determine what truth looks like. It changes through time, through your experiences, through your failures and through the conscious development of who you truly are and how you show that to others. You are the only one who can begin to see the balance between your strong emotions and the desire or perceived need to please others. Somewhere in between the extremes, truth can be found.

Further along the path to speaking truth
George, I know you want me to go with you to this party. I get that. If I could find anywhere within me that I could do that, I would, for you. However, I feel so totally like I am play acting when I am in those people’s company. I can not put myself in that environment without feeling I have let my own self down. I hope you can understand this. I am sorry to disappoint you, truly, but I won’t be going.

When you speak from a place of deep and full truth, you earn respect for yourself. As you earn respect for yourself, you can hold that space for others you encounter. Search for the full truth of a situation. It is likely to be found between the strong emotional reactions and the total giving into what is expected by others. Earning respect for yourself is something you can cultivate, grow and get better at. It also has longevity and solidity not to mention that the process of earning respect for self enables you to be your best person.

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