pain | Robbins Hopkins

Mar 24 2010

Mitigating Debilitating Pain

Alicia was in a car accident. She was in a compact car and was hit from behind by a delivery truck. The car was crushed up to the back seat and the impact was severe.

Renault Clio – nach Wintercrash by A.Schwenke

This began a process of going to doctors for pain, tension, imbalances and eventually for psychiatric help as the pain wore on. By self report, she saw over 20 different doctors and body workers. Every week, there was at least one doctor’s appointment if not more. This went on for years before she began to think that perhaps she might be able to heal. For years, she simply accepted that the pain had to be endured and that she had to do the best she could.

She was not very familiar with prayer especially for herself. However, she considered herself a church going person. At one point in her deep pain filled days, she said out loud to God, ” I am of no use to anyone like this. I think only about myself because I have no energy to think about anyone else. I deeply want this pain to pass so that I can be more loving and present to others. Please help me. ” This began a shift in her life. She found the help she needed and she began to talk with God more personally about her own healing. Today she is pain free.

Shane had “bad knees” from athletics in college. Bad knees in this case meant he had had two arthroscopic surgeries which should have alleviated his pain and though they did help for a while, the pain returned three years after the last surgery. He was unable to play golf, walk very far, play tennis or basketball.

Over the years, he had given up all of these activities, one at a time and energetically settled into, “I have bad knees”. He had gained over 40 pounds of unwanted weight as well through his increasingly sedentary lifestyle. The surgeon had told him that he would need a knee replacement on his right knee, five years earlier. His health insurance was not going to cover a knee replacement. Further, with three kids headed to, or in college, a knee replacement was not financially possible for him.

The pain had become constant and was wearing him down energetically. He was open to trying anything. We began to pray together for the clearing of the blocked energy which was manifesting as pain and weakness in his knees. His pain subsided and he eventually picked up walking, yard work and golf again without pain.

Laurel had had two severe pain attacks in her chest, both strong enough to leave her weak and reeling on her living room couch. She had also noticed that her blood pressure was up twenty points from normal when she had her check up though she did not mention this to her doctor. Something was really not right,though. She was familiar with prayer so she took this directly to God. She asked to be told the source of the blocked energy and was shown it was blockage in two arteries. She asked what was the source of that blocked energy and she was shown the time right before one of the attacks where she had been berating herself very loudly about being a dope, stupid, incompetent, etc. She had completely forgotten that she had been ranting at herself before the attack.

In Silence, she was told that she could never do this again without serious repercussions. As she worked in meditative Silence, she asked to be led to releasing the anger she had towards herself. She was shown time and time again where she had attacked herself, berated herself, and how she readily pushed herself all the time to do, do, do and then beat herself up emotionally about time pressures. Each time she entered into Silence, she released the anger and fear of failure associated with the memories that were being given to her. Eventually when all the blocked energy was cleared, she was led to ask for healing energy for the blockage in her arteries.

One day, Laurel experienced a meditation session in which she felt Divine Energy focused directly on her heart (psychic healing). She was told to take it easy for three weeks and she did. The next blood pressure check she had was back to normal for her. It had been elevated for two years by the time all the healing was received. She has had no more pains for two years now.

Pain is an indication that something in the unseen body is manifesting as pain in the physical body. I frequently see clients with pain who have been told by doctors that nothing can be done. I know that is what is believed by these doctors but that is because they are working with physical bodies and not the whole person. Often, only Divine Presence knows what blocked energy has led us to chronic pain. We as humans are not usually able to determine how exactly we have gotten to debilitating pain. We just know we have it. I had chronic back pain for eighteen years before I took this pain to Divine Presence. I am deeply grateful that I don’t have that pain anymore.

Here are some steps to take which work.

1. Ask God/Divine Knowing or any Divine Energy Beings including Angels, Ascended Masters, Beloved Mother Mary to show you the source of the blocked energy manifesting as pain for you.

You could be shown the blocked energy through a dream, in meditation, or you might have some encounters through your day which produce anger or frustration or a sense of vulnerability. These can all be clues to YOUR BEHAVIOR which is out of balance. Pay attention and you will be shown where you are out of balance. If you don’t get the picture ask, “What is out of balance within me which is causing blocked energy in my field?” Listen in the Silence. Keep asking.

Principle – We have to understand what we are doing which is causing blocked unseen energy before our bodies can heal.

2. Clear blocked energy you are carrying from your energy field.

Call for God in the form of the Sacred Flame within, to consume the blocked energy you are carrying which is manifesting as pain. The more specific you are about the blocked energy, the more focused and therefore powerful the healing energy can be.

Principle – Blocked energy causes pain. That energy can be emotional, mental, thermal (protective), spiritual (fear) or physical. The blocked energy manifests in ways which can lead to pain in the body because the energy is being short-circuited.

3. Call for healing for the body itself . You might call for specific help through healing points of light, psychic surgery, a specific body worker or doctor to help you, or the right essential oil or homeopathic medicine for your body. All ways are used by God to bring us to healing. You can also ask for the Highest Benevolent Outcome to lead you to pain free energy.

4. Ask Divine Presence to clear all fear and anger you are carrying as result of the pain you are experiencing.

5. Give thanks for the steps you are taking to wholeness and for the support you are receiving to do this. You may have had the pain for years so give yourself time to heal.

Aug 26 2009

Infinite Source

Infinite Source means just that, the Source of All That Is has no boundaries, limits or perimeters. It is vast possibility without any limitation. This is a challenging concept to grasp, and even harder to actualize in our lives. Both are possible though and embracing Infinite Source is life changing.

Infinite Source means there is no shortage of supply, love, wealth, humor, creativity, food, health, peace, balance, etc. Infinite Source is one of the immutable Laws of Creation. Yet, we experience all sorts of limitations on Earth and in our lives at the present time. This earth dimension we live in, does not generally recognize Infinite Source in our daily lives. It is seen as a theoretical possibility for the most part which we generally do not know how to activate. So for practical purposes, it does not exist.

I would like to challenge this view and suggest that we need to pick up all our threads of creativity and imagination and launch ourselves and our lives into the energy of Infinite Source to more effortlessly and effectively help us with what we have come to do in this lifetime. We create the stifling limits within which we live, operate, breath and create. We, with our own minds, think as humans think, with boundaries, issues, concerns, problems, limitations, conditions, improbabilities and nay saying.

What if there really are no actual boundaries except the ones we are giving our power to in this lifetime? Perhaps we have all bought into accepted conventions and agreed to standard deviations for conditions, improbabilities and nay-saying? Maybe there is a field out there where you and I will meet and none of this will actually matter. Let’s say we could really live in full acceptance of Infinite Source even in one area of our lives. Might it be worth giving it a try?

Repeatedly throughout my years of spiritual seeking, the one thing that comes to me over and over again is that I think too small, envision with limitations, doubt the vastness of the Whole and generally look upon the Divine with human eyes and thoughts. Of course, I am human! However, I don’t think that my humanness is the authority by which I live and create. My “I AM” energy is the authority by which I live and create. My Oneness with All That Is is the authority by which I harness goodness and create with love. In contrast, my humanness is often the wagging finger energy standing at the doorway of my mind saying, “un-uh, you can’t do that, that is not possible, that is dreamy eyed thinking, that is absurd, just fool’s folly”. For years and years, I listened to what was not possible, not probable and gave that energy a great deal of power.

Those years were generously filled with physical pain and suffering on my part. Of course, I was giving my energy and power to many things that I thought I was going to have to do which I would not like, would be bad at doing or better yet would probably fail at. UGH!! I was immediately caught up short when I realized one day that I had really, really had chronic back pain for 16 years. I was totally surprised at this on one level because I secretly thought of myself as a jock. Well, I was, in one part of my brain. I had commuted to work with my bike, I had played tennis and taught Jazzercise, taken yoga and loved to swim. I had walked regularly and weight lifted whenever my body allowed. It seemed very weird that somehow I had become a handicapped person with this chronic pain. The insurance companies would concur with this accessment given all the doctors I was seeing.

For a while this realization of these years of pain, made me seriously angry with my body. I was also furious with everyone that pain was my constant companion. I eventually became outwardly angry and negative until that wore both me and my family out. I then became quiet in my suffering ( for a very short while) and eventually I had the thought, perhaps I could be pain free. This was the first time in 16 years that I had had that thought. It was just a glimmer of hope but it fueled a huge change within me.

This has been my very own, self-created, experience at limiting my life, my health, my options. I really did buy into the fact that I would probably be in pain my entire life. However, I became more and more determined to seek another reality for me. I was completely fatigued and impatient with doctors, body workers, therapists of all sorts. One therapist told me I was psychologically ill and the pain was all imagined. Another said I was one of the sanest persons she had had the privilege to meet. I thought then and there, I think I’ll believe the last one. It feels better. And thus, I began looking for that elusive Infinite Source. I did not know that was what IT was called then but I do now. I now know that my thoughts become my reality. I can choose to create conditions, boundaries, prerequisites, or limitations or not. The choice is mine.

Usually when I am angry, frustrated, impatient or snippy, I am giving my power to limitations, conditions and fears which are working me in negative ways. When I am peaceful, happy, loving and understanding, I am going with the flow. Infinite Source is a huge vastness of possibility and there are absolutely no bounds on that Source except the ones we create.

When I finally got that I might be able to live in greater health with pain free energy, I began to see all sorts of new help around me that had always been there. I had just not seen it. The limitations which I had made my reality, literally blocked the channels of Infinite Source around me. I began to change what I thought was true, who I spent time with, what I spent time doing and how I characterized myself to myself, and to others. I tried out aspects of Infinite Source such as “if I don’t give it a try, who will?” and “when will it be a good enough time to do something I love?” and “who is your authority here anyway?” and finally, “girl, figure out what you love and do it!”. And slowly I did. I have now been pain free with the exception of normal bumps and bruises for so many years that I know I will continue pain free, the remainder of my life.

Take a leap of faith and truly imagine what has seemed impossible for you.

Call forth Divine Assistance and go for it.

Counter the nay- sayers within and without with calm resolve.

Honor your path as part of the learning process that leads to our own true selves, pain included.

Proclaim Infinite Source and give your power to those possibilities, without bounds, in all situations.

Try giving your power to imagining and working with Infinite Source. You will truly experience that Infinite Source is seriously real. The only boundaries and limitations we have are the ones we accept and create for ourselves.

Feb 26 2009

Doing Our Spiritual Work

For 18 years, I had chronic back pain. It began four or five months before I was in an automobile accident or I might have blamed the other driver. I had been working full time, doing research for my doctoral thesis, moved in with my husband’s family, taken a new job which I barely tolerated, left it for another job with higher visibility, and regularly traveled internationally. I began to have constant pain during those months and then I was hit from behind by a van at a stop light. The entire back of my car was crunched to the back seat. I wore a neck brace off and on for months. This began my chronic pain odyssey.

Looking back, my way of responding to all this could be summed up as pushing, harder and harder. I did not really reevaluate my choices, take care of myself, ask my Greater Power for help or work less. In truth, I did not personally know a Higher Power. I was determined not to let the pain, hold me back, keep me down or seal my fate. I simply ramped up doctors’ appointments, scheduled more exercise, added weight lifting, and mostly tried to ignore the pain during the week. However, every Saturday, I was either a whiny lump in the bed or an angry, impatient demanding person, still on the treadmill of life.

I don’t know if someone had suggested then, that I meditate whether I would have listened. Probably not, as I was not listening much anywhere and certainly not to myself. I was so determined to “get this pain licked” that I pursued all types of treatments and doctors looking for a cure. I went about this with my relentless determination to conquer the pain. I simply would not give up and I would not be beaten.

One day when I had gotten my husband to rig up a picnic bench on a 45 degree angle and had strapped myself to it with bungee cords, head down, feet up, I did briefly wonder whether I was completely beyond the pale. Bless his heart, he did not say a word ! I could have been dubbed “the little train that could”. At that point, I had not yet encountered anything that I could not manage, respond to, overcome or solve, myself. The idea of asking for help from God literally never crossed my mind. There was help everywhere. Along this pain trek, I had personally experienced enough pain management techniques to write a book. I knew I was an independent woman, completely competent and self-sufficient, just one in constant pain.

The pain finally wore me down. My stubborn independent streak was very deep, however and persisted for 16 years until I actually asked out loud for help. I was away on a weekend with my husband and was in such excruciating and constant pain that I was in the bath tub crying, running the water so he could not hear me. In a moment of great surrender, I said out loud that I so desperately wanted to be free of pain so that I could stop focusing on me all the time and use my energy to help others. By that time, all my discretionary time went to pain management and seeking help. I had lost myself in all that misery. I had hit bottom.

It took me hitting bottom before I really, really asked with all my heart, my soul and my energy for help from the Great I AM. When my time came, I was calling out for help from a sense of deep anguish and pain. The moment though froze in my memory because I realized it was the first time I had actually asked for help for myself. I had spent years and years trying to get well myself and I suppose I thought this was my last hope.

My general learning from this odyssey in looking back is:

ask for Divine help in the beginning
ask in as many ways as needed
ask knowing without a doubt help will come
hold the healing space until it comes
stay open as to how it comes

Ask even if you don’t think you know how, even if you don’t think you know God, even if you think you have asked before and feel you were not answered. Ask anyway. Keep asking.

The question may arise, do we ask God for help in the same way we might ask a friend for help? Maybe yes, maybe no. No, if we think of asking for help when we feel lack, insufficiency, need or frustration. Yes, if we ask friends for help from a place of appreciation, possibility and expansive positiveness. When we come to a place where we feel imbalance, ask knowing that all the help that is needed is available, that your positive energy is expansive, that the Universe is full of infinite possibility. Limitation is fear speaking, not possibility speaking.

These are the most powerful commands I know, which I take to Divine Knowing now, when I am in a situation which is unbalanced.

Show me where am I separated from God/Divine Peace/The Great I AM.
Show me what lessons I need to learn before I can move on from here.
Show me the fear I am I carrying which is fueling my pain/this situation/my thoughts and feelings.
Show me what benefits I am getting from continuing to live my life the way I have been in this situation.

I have to be absolutely sure I am fully ready to ask for this type of support and insight before I act. What usually follows is a series of very tough interactions with people or myself, usually resulting in my feeling upset, angry, embarrassed or all three until I “get” what is fueling my pain, my situation or my relationship. Before I knew this, I did not realize I was jumping into the flames and that this was super hard and super productive. Typically when I ask to be shown, I get many, many chances in the space of a few days to fully see what I am doing which is manifesting imbalance in my life.

One week when I was just beginning to see what was behind my back pain, I got very angry with everyone in my path because I felt I was getting no support on several projects at work, on every single task at home and from committee members at my church. By the end of the week, I was literally steaming and in horrible pain as well. I finally got that if I continued to think I needed no help, was totally self-sufficient and continued to make no space for people to want to help me, I would continue to feel as I was feeling.

As I let this all sink in, my back started to relax. Here was a tiny glimmer of connection. This glimmer continued to grow and grow as I learned to stop pushing myself, began to ask for needed help with appreciation and felt moved to feel gratitude inside for my blessings. At the end of the week, I remembered that I had of my own accord, asked to be shown what lessons I needed to learn. I was dumbfounded by the entire week. It had all been orchestrated for my learning. This was both humbling and utterly amazing for me to experience my very own self.

We can only change ourselves. However, we can spend as much time as we want to thinking of how to change others, what it would look like if another would act in a certain way and what it would be like for us if they would simply change and do it our way. In fact, we can spend whole lifetimes thinking in this way. We have all the time we need. It is up to us. We can change our thoughts and feeling now, or later, or never. We only have consequences ahead to encounter, depending on our choices.

Focusing on changing others is a great way to remain separated from our own power. If we work out our imbalances as other people’s issues, we can repeat the situations over and over again in all kinds of settings until we do finally get good and tired, or good and sick, or good and fed up. Then we might begin to ask to be shown what we need to learn with our entire heart and soul in order to work our way out of the imbalances we are in.

This is doing our spiritual work. This is growing our consciousness. This is claiming our power. This is creating with the bountiful love that is all around us. This is the future that awaits us which is full of the amazing choices for love in every aspect of our lives. When we look at our part in imbalance, with love and seeking, we are likely to see what we have not seen before, name it, release it and move on. And so it is, for all of us.

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