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Oct 28 2010

Grief

How do we go on when we feel crippling grief? We sob and scream, cry and cry. We hide under our bed covers and hope when we awake from sleep, it will all have left. Life moves in grey colored tones. Every action feels like a huge effort. We walk through daily life without joy, peace or hope and that adds to the grief depression already with us. Who understands us? Who will help us? Where do we turn? Will we ever smile again? Will the deep sense of loss ever go away?

HELP US, we are lost.

Lost Tree, heavens' mourning by h.koppdelaney

Everything I thought about life has changed. The unspeakable deep sense of loss is so real, so deep. It hurts and keeps hurting. Is there anyone there? How can I go on? I don’t want this present I have now. I want the grief to leave me and the hurt to stop and the fear to disappear, now. I want the longing to stop. Who is running the show anyway? Why did this happen? How can I go on?

HELP ME Please, I am lost.

She is so distraught, she can’t eat. She is unable to sleep, for days she hasn’t slept. She is afraid of being alone now in the world. She is afraid of the world in which this grief is so overwhelming. She is a skeleton of herself. She is too sad to cry anymore, all the crying is gone and the only energy left is heartache.

He is imploding into numbness. His love has died. She was so vibrant and whole, so full of energy and vitality. How can she be gone, really gone? His heart is pining and raw. He can’t work, he can’t find any happiness, he walks and walks as if to get away from the feelings. When he returns, he lies all day on the couch with no energy to focus. The TV passes by in hours and no connection is made. He is lost to himself and to all of us.

HELP THEM, they are so lost.

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Bring all your burdens to me. For I AM Perfect Love and I AM Perfect Balance and I AM Eternity, Joy, Forgiveness and Wholeness. I AM the Love, the Light and the Life Everlasting. I AM All That you truly seek. There is no other. AND SO IT IS.

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How do we release the grief and sadness of loss, of regret, of un-forgiveness, of shame, of guilt and of depression? We begin in Stillness and Silence. WE MUST ASK Divine Presence to come to us in any way we can think of.

Calling in Healing Energy

Beloved God, I need help. I can’t continue with this grief and unbearable dark feelings of loss. I am so shut down. Come to me and clear this darkness away. I want to be joyful again but I don’t know how. I want to be whole again. I am so disconnected now.

Come to me, Divine Loving Power, I am in great need. I don’t know what to do. Healing Energy of the Universe, I call you to me, now. Move this grief. Show me joy again. Mend my heart, it is so broken. I am so deeply grateful.

Jesus, loving Presence. I need help and healing. I am so sad, lost and afraid I can’t go on. I don’t want to live this life with all this lost and grief. I miss __________ so much. I feel like part of my own being has left me. I feel un-whole and incapable of my own healing. I drag through the days and I am so deeply sad, I can’t speak of this. Come to me. I need help.

Ascended Masters, you know how to do this. You have been here, you know the grief, the darkness and the sadness here. I am being eaten up by these feelings. I can’t find my center, my balance. I can’t find my way. Help me heal. I am so utterly sad and lost. I am afraid. I feel unsafe.

Oh dear God. I am so lonely. My heart aches and aches and I can’t do anything else. Help me to find my way. I feel like I have nothing to live for. I am afraid of things I can’t name. Come Divine Grace, I open my heart to healing. Thank you.

If there is Perfect Love out there or in me, I need it. Come to help me heal. Thank you.

Sadness and grief is our right. We can feel it for as long and as deeply as we need to feel it. We can also let it go when we are ready. This is about how to get the help we need to let grief go. However, there are times when we need to simply feel the grief as humans. We need to shut out the world and be in grief.

Carrying grief however is not expected of us by some mythic “Board of Right Living”. We each have our own timing for how long we remain in a state of sadness and grief and what it looks like for us. And yet, it is really okay to set it all down, to release our heaviness and burdens to the Greater Loving Energy of the Universe. All the darkness can be handled there. It is fully okay to feel joy, delight and passion again after we have lost or after another has died.

floral tribute at Nerang by Leonard John Matthew

Send blessings to those who have left human life, to the ones who have suffered, and send blessings to yourself. Call in the help you need to embrace your path again. It will appear with new colors and new depth for you have loved, grieved and chosen to love again. All that is needed is provided WHEN we ask.

Bless us all as we ask for and receive the help that is waiting for us, after we have grieved what is.

Our Thanks, and So It Is.

Oct 22 2010

Spirits Having a Human Experience (2/2)

See Part One

Spirits Having a Human Experience (1/2)

As we learn about ourselves as spiritual beings having a human experience, new perceptions of ourselves emerge. Here are some discoveries which have been helpful to me in my spiritual and human journey. Being both spiritual and human beings takes some attention and some sorting out regarding what our spiritual beings are capable of and how to live with this unseen potential we all possess.

Our energy field extends way beyond our physical bodies. We intuitively sense this. Have you ever been in a room with people and feel a compulsion towards some and an attraction towards others? This is energy connecting and repelling and this goes on all the time. In general though, we forget about such feelings or diminish their importance because we think of our physical bodies as our full selves.

As human beings, we mostly have very limited views of our energy’s scope and breadth. The more consciously aware we are of our connection with All That Is, the greater our energy extends beyond our bodies. The more time in Stillness and Silence, the more sense we have of our expansive selves. Some beings in body are even extending beyond this earthly dimension in their commitments to help bring Balance and Peace to others.

: Chakras by Robbi Baba

Some beings here have already ascended into the Light and they have chosen to consciously return to this dimension to be in service with others. In Sanscrit, these beings are known as the bodhisattva. This does not mean however that they do not have to move through the same stages of expanding consciousness again, while in body. Their process though may be easier, quicker and more dramatic as they have already taken those steps in other incarnations. This concept is found in the Buddhism.

The bodhisattva among us are those who can teach us of the namaste. Namaste is a state of being which in part refers to the Light of a spiritually aware person readily recognizing the light in another, thereby helping all humanity to remember our connection with All That Is. The words to one song about this are ” The Light in me beholds the Light in you”. This sums up namaste rather succinctly.

Fear, negativity, darkness and anger is created through our human selves and therefore can be released through our human desire to be free of these thoughts and feelings. Kindness, love, gratitude and appreciation is created through our connected spiritual selves which is eternally One With All That Is. Love is the only lasting energy of the Universe. All other energies we are passing through on the way to remembering our own true selves as spirit beings of the Light.

Religious practices and paths have some accurate takes on Divine Presence and some inaccurate takes on Divine Presence as well. Only a spiritually seeking person can discern between that which is of the Light and that which is not of the Light. This is our gift and responsibility. Discernment requires Silence and Stillness in rather large amounts so that we can hear our own still small voice of All That Is amidst the noise of our human existence.

: Oneness by h.koppdelaney

We are eternally connect to All That Is, though we have to seek ways to discover this every time we are in body. Further, there is no requirement that we must discover this connection while in body. We can choose to live our lives in any way we want to. All our choices however have consequences. If we create and nurture imbalance, imbalance will manifest in our bodies and our lives. If we create and nurture balance, balance will manifest in our bodies and our lives.

There are wide ranging terms for Divine Presence, including God, The Great I AM, All That Is, Divine Oneness, Great Creator, Yahweh, Allah, Elohim, Allaha, The Almighty, Lord, The Holy Spirit, etc. Further, Divine Presence is available to us in a myriad of energy forms including Angels, Archangels, Angelic Host, Ascended Masters, Divine Cosmic Light Beings, Nature Intelligences, Divine Ancestors and Divine Physicians, to name a few. This Energy is available to all beings as we become increasingly conscious of these differentiated forms of Divine Presence.

All humans are eternally connected to All That Is even if we do not know this and even if we choose anger, violence or abuse in our human lives. We can never be separated from the Love of All That Is. However our human choices for imbalance in our lives can feel like we are separated from Divine Love, because when we can’t see that spark of Divinity within ourselves, so we have no way to know of the Divine Love that is all around us and within us. This Divine Presence can become invisible to us if we choose imbalance as a way of living.

Choose Love. Choose to believe in the goodness and power of Light within yourself. Choose to see the the wholeness that you are and forgive the imbalance, the lapse in love actions and the judgements along the way. Choose the path of Joy, Delight, Balance and Creativity for then you are as close to Divine Energy as is possible in our human dimension. Gift yourself with Stillness and Silence for there is a world of loving wholeness awaiting you every time you step into your spirit energy.

Oct 03 2010

Spirits Having a Human Experience (1/2)

Most of us in body, in this Earth dimension, generally think of ourselves as humans having an occasional spiritual experience. However as our consciousness expands, perhaps more accurately said, “We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.” This quote is from Pierre Teilhard de Chardin (1881-1955), the French philosopher and Jesuit priest.

The one and only thing that a group of renown spiritual teachers, mystics and writers including Deepak Chopra, Barbara Kingsolver, and Marianne Williamson agreed on after days together in conference was that we are spirit beings having a human experience. Assuming this may indeed be so, there are some implications for living as spiritual humans which can help us on our journeys.

We are here first and foremost in our bodies for some reason, otherwise we would be elsewhere. Repeatedly, it seems that we are here to work on our relationship to All That Is/God/Great Oneness. We come with all sorts of baggage from previous incarnations and we continue to accumulate baggage in this lifetime as well. However, perhaps because all healing must take place in the dimension in which we incurred the imbalance, we return repeatedly and attract to ourselves conditions which give us the opportunity to heal, come into wholeness, peace, joy and balance.

Could it all be as simple as our being here to clear our minds, bodies and souls from fear and blocked energies which we are carrying within ourselves? Is life being given in body so that this time we may choose Love and Peace, Wholeness and Balance? Could our ancestors be looking on saying,

MAYBE THIS TIME, she will choose Love and Wholeness.
MAYBE THIS TIME, he will choose Peace and Joy.
MAYBE THIS TIME, they will keep the deep spirit ways close to themselves and find Loving Kindness in all things.

When we release blocked, negative energy, we diminish our sense of darkness and our feelings of separation from All That Is. Our consciousness expands as fear receeds. We become more aware of our connection with All That Is, The Great Oneness and increasingly aware of our spiritual selves.

We have free will so we can choose to explore our spirituality in this lifetime or we can choose to completely ignore our spiritual selves. We can spend as much time as we like ignoring our spiritual selves. However, there are a range of imbalances in the soul of each person in body which can only be re-balanced while we are in body and when we decide to work on our inner sense of peace. All our perceptions of our outer lives are formed through our sense of inner Peace.

Meditation can allow us to temporarily escape the human requirements of our lives and be in Silence and Stillness. The process of entering a meditative state eventually helps our minds and bodies to remember the feeling of inner balance. Often in the beginning of this process, however, we must face the areas of our lives which are out of balance.

Places of stillness can also be reached through yoga, long distance runs, dancing, biking and swimming to name a few. Reaching this state, through movement is sometimes known as hitting the “zone”. Others can find deep Stillness in gardening, walking in nature, painting or creating. All efforts towards stillness result in our remembering what balance feels like.

Prayer is the conscious request for Divine Energy to help us in our quest for greater Peace and Balance. Prayer is like speaking to our deepest Divine Knowing within ourselves and calling upon other available spiritual energy to support our journeys or that of another. Prayer in its most powerful sense is a call to balance.

Fear is the opposite of Love. We therefore have to name our fears and face them. Further, in order to become free of those thoughts and feelings we have to caste the fear out or deny any further power to that fear which we may be holding onto. This allows us to fully embrace Love in our lives. All acting out, physically or emotionally stems from fear, often fears we do not recognize but none the less, fears we are expressing.

When I am out of balance, one question brings me to a place deeply within. I have finally learned to remember to ask myself, what fear is producing this imbalance within me? This is one of the most important questions we can ask along the way to inner Peace. to be continued…

Read Part 2

Spirits Having a Human Experience (2/2)

Aug 17 2010

The Dark or The Absence of Light? Part 2

*Read The Dark or The Absence of Light: Part One

We can choose to be afraid or trusting. We can choose to be selfish or generous. We can choose to be welcoming or restrained. Each and every choice we make for the goodness of the greater whole produces more balance. Each and every choice we make which is not for the goodness of the greater whole produces more imbalance.

The greater the imbalance we feel within ourselves, the greater these imbalances manifest in our lives. There is however no dark entity of dark power to be reckoned with sometimes known as the dark side. We can know we are connected in one part of our lives to the Light and we can feel disconnected in other parts of our lives from the Light. In my case, I was very surprised that I felt attacked by something I envisioned as dark energy. I had not felt that fearful energy for years and years and yet there it was showing its ugly head right after our car accident. (spoken about in part 1)

Regardless of where we are in our journey, what we feel, see, sense, and experience is a reflection of the choice to be connected to the Light or the choice to be separated from the Light. This leads us back to the accident.

Why did that accident really happen to us? I kept asking this in my mind and had a hard time not getting an immediate answer. I wondered if I had attracted that accident to us through some means, if I needed to pay a karmic debt that I was not aware of, or if I was being attacked by the dark. I gave a lot of power to this last thought.

There are multiple true answers to this question. Each of us involved, my husband, the truck driver, and me experienced this same accident for different reasons. I now feel that I had this accident to give me a chance to directly face my deeply hidden fear about some force I thought of as the dark. This was not something I might take a Sunday afternoon to contemplate! As with most of us, I would probably always choose to engage in something else, anything else, actually. I needed a deeply shocking experience to go into my own darkness and wrestle my way through all of that old stuck energy.

Next Dimension by By h.koppdelaney- Hartwig HKD

Even though I slogged through the darkness after the accident, I sensed the minute we were hit, at some unconscious level, that we were not hurt. Immediately after the impact, I was led to pray for the complete and total healing of our fear from our energy fields. I felt an insulating energy drop in around us as the accident occurred and as the investigation was taking place. I also had the dawning thought with increasing certainty that the impact of the truck’s energy on our van was buffered by Divine Presence. We were surrounded immediately by that Divine Energy of Light. We were protected from harm’s way.

This experience of the Divine Presence with us at the accident continued to be present while I wrestled with my own created fear of the darkness. That powerful knowing just stayed within my energy field through all my stages of anger, frustration, uncertainly and questioning I felt I needed to feel. During one phase of my deeply questioning and anger tinged state about this accident, I asked about all the times I had been killed from this dimension. I was told the number. Then immediately following this exchange I heard, “but you agreed to that”. I started to laugh knowing deeply that this was true. Further, if this is true for me, then it is true for every one of us. Even the “innocent bystander” leaves when it is his or her time to leave. At the same time, an innocent bystander does not leave before it is his or her time either.

Yet the question remains, why do some come here and physically suffer and others come and mentally or emotionally suffer? Our entire journey is about coming into balance within our own energy. When we begin to experience this inside, it begins to manifest all around us in all our affairs. Many of the challenges, problems, conflicts, situations we get into are a result of imbalances we have chosen in our lives. If we need to “atone” or re-balance, from some past transgression we have caused, we have infinite ways that we can do that in a lifetime.

Balanced Rocks by By squarewithin- Matthew Trentacost

Parts of our lives can appear like suffering until we get that we are One with the Light and that we are being given our specific life circumstances so that deep imbalances in our human selves can be re-balanced with the Love of the Universe. We may also have a life in which we are given the option of being here in illness or disability as a way to re-balance some huge transgression of our past or as a way to develop compassion for ourselves and others, or as an example of living with joy and grace with our disability for others to learn from.

We are given whatever we need to come into a more loving and whole space with All That Is. We cannot judge by appearances for ourselves or for others. There is a Divine and Holy Order within this Earth dimension even though we may not be able to discern it. The process of re-balancing for the Goodness of the Whole is taking place, all the time for all people everywhere.

If you think you have brought imbalances, fears and transgressions of the past with you, you can work them out before you are required to do so, in some totally WAKE UP fashion. I recommend all the preemptive work we can do to clear the darkness, fear and imbalance we feel inside ourselves.

You can pray and ask forgiveness for all the people you have hurt throughout all space and time.
You can ask for all the debts of imbalance you have brought about in your times of separation from the Light to be made whole in all ways by Divine Grace.
You can literally call in the healing energy of the Light for all those you have specifically hurt.
You can call for the fear of anything you know you are facing to be consumed by the Light of God/All That Is.

Of course, one has to have the feeling that restoring balance is important. We are loved beyond all measure but knowing that at the soul level requires our acting in this energy. We need to embrace the fact that we can clear our old stagnant energies and past misdeeds by calling for this to happen.

We have to embrace a new intention for being here, one that embraces that all living is for the purpose of healing and thereby for coming into the Energy of the One, the Whole, the Eternal Community of Life. Then all is possible.

Apr 23 2010

Gratitude: for others, for our Earth

Gratitude and negativity can not exist at the same time. Gratitude and worry can not hold the same space. Neither can gratitude and anger, blame or resentment coexist together. Therefore choosing the energy of gratitude is a life giving activity.

It fills up the places where draining energy might have dared to roam. Being grateful takes us out of negative attention and connects us with Love. Gratitude is a part of the large body of Love feelings which are available to us. How can we cultivate gratitude?

One early step towards gratitude is to be aware of times and places when we are feeling angry and drained. We have to train the mind to “jump the track” to gratitude when we are angry, frustrated or feeling simply down. We can focus on that which is draining energy or that which is life affirming and the later creates good endorphins throughout the body. This then helps us glide through situations which might have snagged our good feelings in the past. If we practice focusing on our blessings and on that for which we are grateful, we literally feed ourselves a diet of Love. This affects every single aspect of our lives, including our chemical balance, our ability to sleep soundly and our ability to attract mates or live peacefully with the mates we have.

Gratitude energy is of a very high vibration, not simply the fleeting thought of gratitude but the real feeling of being grateful for the blessings we have. This actually opens and strengthens our connection with the Divine Presence as well, because we begin to exude Love energy which attracts us to Divine Presence. This is a totally awesome experience filled with love and support which can only improve our lives.

In fact, developing the choice for gratitude is a wonderful way to become closer and more connected with All That Is on many levels. When we feel grateful or appreciative, we actually calm our nervous system. This brings us into greater balance and we cultivate the feelings of goodness and well being. So the question is why would we not choose to live in this energy all the time? Basically, fear. Fear keeps us in a state of vigilance, anxiety, stress or all three. Fear and gratitude are not compatible with each other.

Beth kept feeling fear and anxiety for her son, Greg. In fact, every time she thought of Greg, her body constricted due to her very real concerns about him. She was afraid that he would suffer because of his excessive weight. She was concerned that he was not happy in his job and she worried that his current relationship was unsupportive. She was unable to think about Greg without a sense of deep sadness, worry and discomfort. Their interactions began to suffer, become strained and eventually Greg did not want to see his mother very much at all. This added to Beth’s angst and generally sense of loss and impotence regarding her son. She needed a change of thoughts and feelings regarding her son.

" Attitude ... Eye choose the left side " by gmayster01 .... Trying to keep up !

Beth began by writing down all the fears she was carrying about Greg and his life. She named over 22 fears she had for her son. She allowed as how it was probably impossible for him to come for a visit and not feel the energy of fear she had for him. One by one, she began to call out the specific fears she had for Greg and turn them over to All That Is/Divine Oneness/God. At the SAME time, she began to list the things she was grateful for about her son. This was a much harder list to compile because she hardly ever thought in this way. Eventually, though there was a complete shift in her thinking about her son. She began to fill her thoughts with the energy of gratitude and this began to transform their time together and their relationship. Love heals anything and gratitude is a form of Love, pure and simple.

This is also true about our Earth. When we feel gratitude towards her beauty, it is a healing energy. When we drink in the beauty of a sunset or bask in the warming rays of the sun or work with our flowers or food, and feel gratitude, we become a healing presence for Mother Earth. It is harder to feel gratitude for our Earth if we are worrying about pollution, animal extinction, strip mining, insect imbalances, genetically enhanced foods, clear cutting, pesticides and dwindling oil supplies. If this is your relation with our Earth, consider praying to Divine Presence to bring forth re-balancing energy for Mother Earth. This is something we can readily do which can clear us of the draining energy of worry and concern. This allows us to focus on the gratitude we feel for the beauty of the Earth, and we can stay in a state of gratitude for the other aspects of the Earth which feed our soul.

Prayer Process for our Earth

1. Open a Sacred healing circle with your highest I AM self, the Angelic Host and the Ascended Masters. You can include any and all Divine Presence you want to help you hold the space.

2. Set the intention to call forth Divine Healing Energy for Planet Earth.

3. Clear you own concern, fear, anger or sense of outrage regarding Earth conditions which you know are particularly draining you.

Sacred Flame, I call forth my blocked emotional, mental, thermal (protective) and spiritual energy originating from this lifetime or from any previous lifetime which is manifesting as my outrage with the practices of strip mining I am seeing in West Virginia. ( fill in the blank for you)

4. Call for the Sacred Flame, the Presence of All That Is which knows nothing but the Divine, to clear blocked energies manifesting as imbalances on our Earth.

Sacred Flame (Divine Presence in this form) clear the blocked emotional, mental, thermal and spiritual energies from our Earth from this century and from any previous centuries which are now manifesting as strip mining in West Virginia. I call for energy of the Great I AM/Divine Presence/Mighty God to fill the strip mining industry with the perfect vibrations to bring strip mining into Right Relationship with All That Is.

5. My deep appreciation and lasting thanks.

In the process of clearing our blocked energy and blocked energy from other sources, we ourselves benefit greatly by being able to remain in a state of gratitude. When we are in a state of gratitude, this grows and blesses all whom we meet and all we come in contact with including our Sacred Planet.

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