loving self

Mar 06 2020

Journeying to Now

Impatience is the bane of my existence
I am a rusher, hurrier, want to get it done
Kind of person, on the go
Doing one thing, thinking of the next thing

I get tons done most days
But my breath and body pay
As I function at high gear
Packing in and pushing most of the time

It is the impatience with others
I struggle with especially when
Their moving and decision making
Is happening in the slow lane

I know what I want to do
I make decisions quickly
I move decisively
I am all in with anything I do

This was the way I lived for years
I evaluated my day by how much I accomplished
I was rather callous with those “in my way”
I felt a total sense of shortness of time

Then, yoga found me on a crisp afternoon
I had been a dancer as a child
I had loved body movement
But yoga brought my breath back to me

Next, meditation entered stage left
Sneaking into my days
Calling me to times of quiet
Beckoning me to be still

I was not a natural meditator
I was squirmy and impatient
My progress was not easily visible
I had to surrender, again and again

I had to slow down and breath
I learned to be fully in the moment
And to clear my crummy feelings
And to stop pushing and evaluating me

I became a bit nicer to me and to others
I became more grounded and happy
I often wonder where I would be
If impatience still ruled the roost

Recently, my blood pressure returned to
The days of my 30’s and smiled upon me
Nodding to the years of changes in my life
And beckoning me to continue to flow

Something about my relation to time changed
Something about my impatience changed
Then something about being at peace showed up
Then my body healed and joy arrived to stay

Feb 19 2020

Face Your Fears

Face your darkness
As much as you don’t want to do it
Do it anyway
It is calling you to your own true self

There is an inner knowing
Of the goodness and of the darkness within
Holding onto the darkness causes illness
Sorrow, pain, heartbreak, and suffering

The only way out of the suffering
Is to face it down, command it out
Refuse to settle, name your fears
You are stronger than you can possibly imagine

You are made of the Oneness
Everything that is not going well
Is calling you to your own best self
To a different reality where there is peace

But you have to make the choice
For truth, determination, for love
And wholeness, some of every day
Don’t hide another day

Name the fears, one by one
Be ruthlessly honest with yourself
Do not take “I can’t” for an answer
Work daily to let one fear go after another

And work with Divine Source not against it
Name all that you are unhappy with
Call in the healing you need
Knowing it will come to you in perfect timing

If you are a beginner to this,
Give yourself some slack
Be sure to call in patience for yourself
Because this journey is eternal

Face the root fear of all unspoken fear
That your deepest fears are truly who you are
That if you go deeply you will find more darkness
That you are really profoundly flawed

Better to keep pretending
Because the truth will be awful
You might not be able to swallow it
You might drown while trying

Take a step back, this is truly inaccurate
Your set of fears is humanly created
They are illusions with no lasting heft
Merely thoughts you have given your power to

What awaits you is a new understanding of your magnificence
The unraveling of all fears and conditioning
The replacing of every single negative self perception
With profound grace and love for self and others

The fear you feel is the part of you
Calling for change, rebalancing
Re-centering, courage, and grit
Again and again, the call to your true self is eternal

You are more splendid that you can image
You have more love to give than you can ever grasp
Your life here is to discover the love that is your essence
Unearthing the fears reveal the doorways to lasting love and balance

Feb 05 2020

Oh Wondrous Being!

Oh wondrous being, you are loved beyond anything you can imagine
It is hard to believe this when you have not experienced bountiful Love
Especially if you hurt, are grieving, feel mistreated and abandoned, or insufficient
Nonetheless, this Love is always accessible just outside your busy human self

Love is ever with you no matter what is happening to you or your loved ones
This Love created all that is beautiful, kind, imaginative, and lasting
This Love created you both in human form and in eternal formlessness
This Love continues to beckon you to go within and know unconditional Love

You may have to try repeatedly to enter that Silence within to receive
You have huge amounts of fear and dissonance that have not been attended to
You have an entire value system that daily values doing over being
You are perhaps fearful of what will be revealed and that it will be bad

However, this planet and all therein were created in profound Love
Even when you stray from this Love for eons, you still get the chance to heal
You are never abandoned even as you may be engaged in paying chronic debts
Even when you have rebelled against Love and Kindness for lifetimes

You are always being pointed in the best direction for you
You are always being given cues about what would serve you well
Even when you have taken the guidance and the experience was gut wrenching
You are always guided to where you need to grow and expand next

I know this from numbers of lifetime experiences all over the globe
I know this from thousands of hours in Silence clearing my own imbalances
I know this because I have lived in the depths of despair and risen
I know this because every time I have needed help, it has been given

The paths you need come when you decide to be kindness and seek peace
The people you need arrive when you clear all the fear and darkness you carry
The experiences you seek manifest when your inner dissonance disappears
The love you desire arrives when you know what you truly love about yourself

Being in the center of profound Love always calls you to your best self
Still you have to choose this repeatedly through your thoughts, words, and actions
You have to find the courage to face your good and not so good self
Activate your courage to trust that at your essence you are truly the Love you seek

Dec 18 2019

Inner Work Begets Miracles

Miracles have a tenuous place in the present world
They are often subject to deep suspicion
Because if miracles can truly happen
Your whole sense of a world without miracles will be disturbed

What if heart surgery can be received without cutting
Or if bones can be realigned by merely calling that to happen
What if you can schedule your perfect vacation with Divine Presence
What if you can heal from cancer through deep clearing of stuck energy

What if you can learn how to tell if you have an infection or virus
Or call in healing for toxic, damaging relationships
What if you can heal your immune system by calling in healing
What if you can receive all the energy you need through Divine vibration

Even if all these shifts can happen and they can
Every step to arrive and experience Divine healing
Must be taken in a Divinely ordered manner
To manifest a sure knowing of the vastness of the Universal Energy

This ordered manner though is not your concern
You just need to begin your inner work
All else is given as you move from topic to topic
Once you make a tiny effort, you will get powerful support

Start with that which is the most disturbing for you
Do not let those issues fester, they sap your energy
Suspend your misgivings and try, open Sacred Space,
Call in what you need and give thanks for what manifests

You will be heard though it may be a long road
To the place where you think you are going
You have to go through every step between the present
And where you hope to arrive. One day or months may be needed.

Start now and keep returning, there will be no regrets
Frustration at times, questioning at times, of course
Every time you clear stuck energy, you will feel lighter
You will feel more confident in being able to create peace

If you never start, you will be faced with the same issues repeatedly,
Even the next time your soul returns here for another run at life
You can really never escape the areas that need healing
Your soul is eternally calling you to your best self!

Resources

This Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol is a place to start.

This free, short Healing Yourself Tutorial is another place to start. (I narrate it.)

This is part 1 protocol healing steps if you are dealing with Chronic Issues.

This is part 2 protocol healing steps if you are dealing with Chronic Issues.

For more in-depth background, see my book.

Nov 28 2019

Practice Love

The new day dawns with shimmering light
All the past can be set down
No matter the darkness or sense of hopelessness
Today holds infinite possibilities

The shining warmth of the sun
Calls you to your best loving self
You can listen or you can ignore this
You can clear the past or wallow in it

You have infinite choices though at times
You are unable to make a new choice
Because you have not finished
The past choices you are living with

Who among you can be in the present moment
Without having blessed the past
Clearly decided to move on
And called in the love you need to be present

There is vast and ever expanding love
Within and all around you, daily
You are absolutely able to call this to yourself
But you may need practice in doing this

You may need to take a walk
You may need Silence
You may need to reach out to another
You may need to be kind to yourself

Cultivating love is a practice
It takes some experimenting
To know what you need to grow love
What your heart needs to be love

So try giving your past worries and trauma
To the Light of the new day
And call in Love to replace the darkness
Hope to replace the woe and heaviness

A new day awaits you every 24 hours
The possibility of refreshing love and kindness
The opportunity to make a new start
The determination to be the love you seek

You are never alone even if you can not see the support
You can always be connected to the Wholeness
It is a matter of choosing love, kindness, and forgiveness
These acts set us free from the past to be present now

In the present moment, the past is gone
You are the one to set the past down
You are the one to take a different direction
You are the one to live in love and possibility

Be your best self today
No matter what you encounter
Hold the space for kindness
Love is just waiting to be activated

Banish any unloving act, word, or deed
Strike unloving energy from your daily routine
You are already love embodied
You simply have to embrace this and actualize the love you are

Become better acquainted with you as love
You were conceived in the loving image of Divine Source
Practice love over and over again, with the dawning of each new day
You are loved beyond anything you can ever imagine, for all eternity