Your thoughts are not the You, you seek

When I am in Silence
I feel larger than my body
I feel I can expand and expand
I feel lighter and connected

I long to know
How to bring this Peace with me
Into my daily life
Into my every cell

I need to feel connection
All the day and all the night
In happiness and in self-attack
In doubt and in fear

I long to walk without worry
To see without anxiety
To be the connected One I may remember
From another time and place

Show me what I fear
So deeply to keep it hidden
So profoundly to keep me disconnected
So thoroughly that I believe it

The Light in Silence tells another story
About all my goodness
Even though it is fleeting
Because, maybe I can’t believe it?

Why do I feel so dark about me?
I do not want to be here, again and again
I want that Peace in Silence
To stay with me every moment of the day

Help me make new choices
For what I give my power to
For what I see as my smallness
For how I think about myself

Something is off here
My thoughts say, “not enough,
Not successful, not lovable,
Not worthy, yourself to blame”

My heart says look again
Command the darkness out
You are of the Light
Your thoughts are not the You, you seek