I have been watching Kurt Seyit and Sura, a Turkish/Russian love story beginning in Russia during the Russian revolution and moving to Istanbul. It is magnificent and heartbreaking based on a true story. I have been wondering why I have been so engaged with this series. In silence today, I realized that it is because the main characters get caught up in their inability to forgive themselves and each other. This is the tragedy of their lives. There is enough self-recrimination and numerous missed opportunities to set down the past that literally wrings their souls and apparently mine as well. I found myself literally yelling at the television with total frustration at both the main characters. They simply had to forgive themselves and each other and move on, as deep hopeful love awaited them.
Forgiveness is profound love. If you do not forgive yourself, you cannot forgive or truly love others. You can play at this forgiveness for as long as it takes but unattended forgiveness remains a thorn in your soul. Where are you carrying unforgiveness? Do not let it remain and fester. It has the power to completely destroy your sense of peace and your ability to truly love others. It has the power to make you feel vulnerable and unsafe. You may feel that if you move on in your outer life that the old unforgiveness will disappear. This is not the way it works. You have to name the unforgiveness you still carry towards yourself and towards others before you can truly command it out of your energy field. You can be free of old unforgiveness but you must make that happen.
Most people have no idea that unforgiveness literally sets up house in your body. It affects your energy level, your immune system, your resilience, your overall health, your self perceptions, and your total well being. It is a powerful negative presence within. There is a type of blocked energy that I call spell energy that can remain in one’s soul for lifetimes. Spell energy refers to energy that has been in your field for a spell of time in the past and though the circumstances around that energy may have changed, it remains energetically present in your energy field though perhaps not in your present awareness. Seek this unforgiveness out wherever it resides.
One more confounding truth is that unforgiveness can reside at the unconscious and supra-conscious (soul) levels for lifetimes. Therefore, if you do begin to clear for unforgiveness, use the Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol that will prompt you to call for healing at all levels of consciousness and through all lifetimes. One of the major reasons you get pricked again and again with unforgiveness is that you need to clear this for once and for all in your energy field to be free of attracting it again to yourself. If you need to forgive yourself or another, your soul will place you in repeated situations where unforgiveness unfolds until you get that you have to heal this within yourself.
You are on a journey to peace whether you accept this or not. That is basically what we are doing here, trying to become more peaceful inside. Holding onto unforgiveness is not peaceful. It needs to go. Command all unforgiveness of self out of your field if you have the slightest hint of its presence within. If you suspect you carry this and do not know what it is about, enter into Silence and ask to be shown or guided to the unforgiveness you still carry.
I had some unresolved issues with a brother for years. I did not know it was unforgiveness. I asked about the imbalance in our relationship and was shown some deeply unkind things I had done to him as a child, totally forgotten by me. Those mean acts and their consequences were still within me and I had not forgiven myself for that treatment of my brother. When I did finally do the forgiveness work for me, I saw it expand to forgive his actions towards me, as well. Our relationship in present day totally changed. This journey awaits all of us but the seeking has to begin with you.
When you do decide to check in on unforgiveness, and figure out where that energy might be, use the Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol to help you include all the various strands that might accompany that unforgiveness for you. The Force is with you but you have to actualize it in your life for it to flourish.