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May 21 2020

Your Emerging Love

There is another reality you can know if you clear away the darkness
That energy is God energy, Love energy, Balanced energy
That energy is always present but when dissonance persists
You lose the connection and can begin to feel alone, unconnected

This spiritual reality can sometimes be seen in others
For you though, it can primarily be felt in your heart
That reality is Love vibrating larger than any other feelings
That Oneness energy is calling you to your own true self

Ah, the darkness you carry and the heartache you endure
This is all on the path to knowing Divine connection
Unless you struggle with your fears and angst, and win
The spiritual reality gets buried over by unhealed feelings and experiences

Connecting with The Oneness has to become a daily ritual
Like getting dressed, brushing your teeth, and having breakfast
Otherwise the repetitive irritations overwhelm your intentions to be at peace
The imbalanced thoughts and doubts overrun you as if they were real

The only lasting energy is Love, Kindness, Compassion and Divine Source
All else shows itself, masquerading as real, demanding your reactions
Commanding you to attend to the dissonance not because it is lasting
Because it is the way forward to Peace and a solid connection with Love

In the end though the choice is yours and yours alone
You can live your life with a lukewarm connection with Spirit
Hey! lots of people do this their entire lifetime, actually every lifetime
Or you can resolve to clear the persistent marauders out of your energy field

Faith and believing can carry you part way to Divine connection
You can stay there your entire life, lifetimes in fact, over and over again
Or you can face the bedeviling feelings within Sacred Space
And make progress in letting go of all your fears and doubts

Underneath the fears and doubts, is the Peace of All That Is
Truly it is always waiting for you to become better connected
So go into those negative self-perceptions you have and cast them out
Release the jealousies, the anger, the prideful comments, and accusations

Every single time you release some dark feeling that is temporarily demanding
You take a step closer to Divine Source, your consciousness of Divine Love expands
One negative released energy at a time, ad infinitum, continuously and
Through the fog, the Divine Love of self and others emerges out of the chaos

May 15 2020

Where Can I Go for Peace?

Where can I go to find peace within?
I am so easily knocked off balance these days
I want to be at peace and feel optimistic
But seriously look at our state of affairs

The kids are so frustrated and antsy
I have all this work expected of me
The house is a mess with no one to help
The TV is on all the time due to boredom

I don’t even have a place of my own in this house
I sometimes find a place to hide and try to rebalance
But I do not have much practice at how to do this
I really despair when I am so snippy and irritated

Writing helps sometimes, when I write, Dear God
When I can pour my feelings out, I begin to feel better
I begin to let the stress release and the negativity balance
I have to remember though to call in help so something clears

If I write and don’t ask for help, the stuff stays around
I feel the words dancing through my mind all day
I revisit all the hard feelings and they simply grow
That just gets me deeper into not being at peace

I am not sure how this whole thing works
I haven’t really written out my feelings in eons
I guess I am asking the Universe for help
That is what I feel anyway. That is what I hope.

Every time I wade into tomorrow, next week or this summer
I feel anxious and fearful that this isolation will continue
That I won’t be able to cope, nor will the kids
That I will just melt and run out of the house screaming

Showers help but only then I wash my hair and cry
Then I feel somehow cleansed and able to start again
Walking helps but with the kids it is mostly about them
Good for them but not always renewing for me

When I return, I lock myself in the bedroom, with guilt
Write to Dear God again, transferring my angst to the page
Getting it out of me and somewhere safe so I don’t lash out
Come Peaceful Presence right into me and mine, with Thanks!

Mar 18 2020

Fear Taints Everything

Fear is an all-encompassing emotion
It has a very long shelf life, left unattended
It gets denser and more at home over time
It profoundly affects your sense of what is

To dig out fear, you have to suspect it may be present
You have to name it as best you can
Including all the symptoms known and unknown
While commanding it out of your own energy field

Banish it from all four fields of consciousness
Every smidgen of fear that is not conscious
Still has a huge and lasting impact on you
Fear resides at the subconscious and soul level

Fear can hang out in your unconscious field
Fear can be consciously with your all the time
That makes a whole whopping lot of fear
You need to be sure all of it leaves your being

This is a lifelong task that only you can undertake
It insures you are not run by unnamed fears
That you can stop lashing out with unbridled anger
That you can disengage from all forms of hatred

Asking for forgiveness only goes so far
If you keep repeating the fear-based responses
Blowing up and regularly going totally ballistic
Others distance and protect themselves from you

Asking for forgiveness for the umpteenth time
Is also too little too late, especially with loved ones
Your responsibility is to seek the source of your fear
Then do your utmost to clear the fear from your field

Get to it because any effort works better than
Living and being run by unnamed fears
All efforts lead towards reaching the core
Source of the fear and anger, to free you forever

Facing fear takes guts and repeated efforts
It requires you to take off your public mask
Get into your heart and name the fear
Even while you may be afraid it will devour you

Sticking your fearful head in the sand
Does not EVER work, though you do get
All the chances you need to keep avoiding
The fears, while amassing all the consequences

You can wait until the consequences are severe
So that you have to make amends with everyone
Or step up now before the abysmal consequences
Of being run by fears create profound suffering

Mar 13 2020

Humility and Sacred Journeys

I don’t remember when there had been so many miracles
That I had to change my way of thinking and living
I had to open my closed mind and make a different choice
And let the Divine Energy fill my place of knowing

For a long time, I stayed in a place of skepticism
Unable to fully put my energy and faith into a loving God
Unable to let my guard down and go with the flow
Unwilling to believe because I might be dead wrong

I suspect that the Divine was working on me a good long time
I remember when I was a small girl in church at communion
Making a scene when I was told I was too little to partake
I pitched a fit saying that “God was for all of us”

I felt snubbed and reacted with audacious fervor
Feeling truly mistreated that I could not taste God’s body
Perhaps I was already looking for proof of God’s energy then
And I had just been barred from learning more

Years passed and I called continuous daily pain to my body
I did not understand I was doing that or why
The pain in my body masked the denial I was working with
It gave me something to always deal with daily that was undeniable

Now I know about previous lifetimes of persecution and death
Due to my “knowing” of God and my lives devoted to that knowing
I was probably trying to get through this lifetime
Without sticking out because of my connection with the Divine

Though in the end it was a futile attempt to fit in
Trying to be skeptical like everyone else around me failed
Miracles, love as power, and grace beyond understanding kept showing up
As an energy beyond my mind and a love that never fades

Life’s experiences demanded that I sit in Silence
Demanded I continue to seek peace and balance
Required me to experience present lives full of miracles
Past and present times of connection and deep knowing of God

So here I am, more tempered than I thought was possible
Continuously seeking to release all that does not serve
Living a single-minded commitment to expand consciousness
Knowing the journey is eternal and that arrival is elusive

No one could have told me the journey is the peace I sought
The releasing of all my fears and anger would free me forever
The determination to connect with Divine Source would be met
With the ability to share with others their journeys as well

Feb 05 2020

Oh Wondrous Being!

Oh wondrous being, you are loved beyond anything you can imagine
It is hard to believe this when you have not experienced bountiful Love
Especially if you hurt, are grieving, feel mistreated and abandoned, or insufficient
Nonetheless, this Love is always accessible just outside your busy human self

Love is ever with you no matter what is happening to you or your loved ones
This Love created all that is beautiful, kind, imaginative, and lasting
This Love created you both in human form and in eternal formlessness
This Love continues to beckon you to go within and know unconditional Love

You may have to try repeatedly to enter that Silence within to receive
You have huge amounts of fear and dissonance that have not been attended to
You have an entire value system that daily values doing over being
You are perhaps fearful of what will be revealed and that it will be bad

However, this planet and all therein were created in profound Love
Even when you stray from this Love for eons, you still get the chance to heal
You are never abandoned even as you may be engaged in paying chronic debts
Even when you have rebelled against Love and Kindness for lifetimes

You are always being pointed in the best direction for you
You are always being given cues about what would serve you well
Even when you have taken the guidance and the experience was gut wrenching
You are always guided to where you need to grow and expand next

I know this from numbers of lifetime experiences all over the globe
I know this from thousands of hours in Silence clearing my own imbalances
I know this because I have lived in the depths of despair and risen
I know this because every time I have needed help, it has been given

The paths you need come when you decide to be kindness and seek peace
The people you need arrive when you clear all the fear and darkness you carry
The experiences you seek manifest when your inner dissonance disappears
The love you desire arrives when you know what you truly love about yourself

Being in the center of profound Love always calls you to your best self
Still you have to choose this repeatedly through your thoughts, words, and actions
You have to find the courage to face your good and not so good self
Activate your courage to trust that at your essence you are truly the Love you seek

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