Robbins Hopkins

Oct 17 2018

Meanness Abounds

Oh God, I know I have a meanness within me
I know not where it comes from
As I feel it rear its ugly head
I still feel unable to curb it, at all

I am ashamed, so deeply ashamed
It is so familiar, I am painfully stunned to say
I know it too well for I have acted
upon that meanness all too often

I am the master of the preemptive strike
I am quick to lash out
in my total righteousness
I have focus for my anger, only,
For my view of that which is right

I feel untenable shame at my past actions
I need profound forgiveness
for vast amount of meanness and carelessness
I have hurt others through my fiery rage
I have often still felt in the Right
even after my striking out is over

My gnashing and sobbing do not begin to make amends
but perhaps I can start anew
I need to start anew, fresh again
to try and heal the meanness
that I have given my fierceness to
over and over again

I want the meanness and regret
to be cleansed from my energy
I want any love that still remains within
to grow and overflow outwards

I call within and without for this to manifest
For love to override the core of meanness within
I command the cleansing to commence, continue, and complete!
And, So It Is. And, So It Is.

Oct 03 2018

The Other

My heart aches and hurts
The hatred of the Other is just everywhere
In hearts, in words, in news, across the globe
In the fabric of the past
In the trajectory of the future

I so need a respite from hatred of the Other
From the darkness of the fear around me
From the active hatred of those who are seemingly different
From the unexamined actions of the fearful
From the harmful experiences of one against another

We are from the same cloth, the same Light, the same Oneness
But bitter darkness comes from within you
It is externally aimed but inwardly cultivated
The we-ness and the they-ness continually fed
A well worn path of judgement, costing all in body

Seek within, seek the Light, seek Forgiveness
Seek to clear the anger, the fear, and the pride
Consuming you and all you come into contact with
This is not your true self
Only a step along your eternal path

This too shall pass if you make it so
Profoundly enter Silence, be Kindness, hold Peace
These paths lead to healing
Lead to release from fear and terror
Lead to another way to move forward

There is really, truly, no Other
Their seeming presence is for our learning
We get to learn these lessons
Lifetime after lifetime
Varied circumstances, same lessons

We come here to heal the we-ness, they-ness
Take this up with yourself
Stop the madness around you
Seek Peace and Forgiveness
Begin to love yourself within and loving the Other will follow

Sep 19 2018

I Self-Protect

I walk through my days protecting
Something feels very vulnerable
I cloak myself with ever ready vigilance
Against that which I sense is everywhere present

I feel attack energy ready to slay me
I see myself being irreparably hurt, betrayed, and abandoned
It has happened to others. They suffer
I could so easily be the next one to lose

I present my false self everywhere
I am protecting my real self all the time
I know the difference but I pretend I don’t
I pretend to be who I am not
I feel I need to be someone other than me
Then I may be safe
Then I may escape the darkness seeking me

How did I come to this?
What did I miss?
Why do I persist?
What have I yet to learn?
Where did my trust go?

Oh Divine One, hear my plea
I am lost in this place of pain and suffering
I know not why I have swallowed the fear
Why I have chosen self-protection
Why I have sought to hide
I am weary living like this
I can’t find my happy time

I need to feel your Presence
My connection is so broken
In all this confusion, I can’t find my center
I keep pretending so maybe there is nothing of me really present
Come into my heart and mind
Why is this happening to me?
Am I lovable at all?

Sep 12 2018

Guardian Angel Dialogue

It feels immature to believe in guardian angels
As if I need some kind of safety net that I can’t even see
Like I am not capable of living my life with my own resources
As if I am so deeply unsure of myself that my story includes a guardian angel

No, our presence is not about your lack
It is about your brilliance and your loving center
We hold the space with your soul for expansion
For your peace, health, and wholeness

Even if you do not ask us to help you
We are with you all the time
We are always waiting for a call from you
For whenever you would like help on anything

But if I can’t see you, how can I believe you are there?
I don’t relish believing in something that is made-up
Like Santa Claus or fairies or Easter bunnies
That is all so much nonsense!

I don’t really even believe in God
Not that I tell anyone that
But there is too much pain here
For there to be a God

Ah, but that is why you are in body
To learn the difference between human and Divine energy
To choose to listen to the Knowing within
To learn about your connection with God

With that listening, each will heal from
All heartache and suffering,
All illness and pain

All pain and suffering is humanly created
That is the state of those separated from Divine Source
Seek within, you will find a path to peace and serenity,
Health, wholeness, forgiveness, and balance

I do not know of these things
They concern me and seem very foreign to my life
What if I find a dark version of myself inside
What then?

You have all the chances you need to do this inner seeking
You can do it now, you can do this later
Eventually you will do to this work, one way or another
Seeking within though, is the most direct path to wholeness

The hardship you feel is every bit about being separated from Divine Energy
You live in body and think that is All There Is
That is only a tiny portion of who you are
Your present time is just as it is, so you can heal and expand your knowing

This is the real blessing of being in body
Seize the chance this lifetime gives you
You will never regret a single decision
Made in the context of seeking more peace and wholeness

Truths confirmed by Divine Knowing about Guardian Angels

Guardian Angels can change over time. The change is determined by the issues you are working with and is connected to your level of consciousness and your level of knowing of Oneness.
You must ask for the help you seek, even of Guardian Angels.
All requests are heard and responded to with the most appropriate energy for your soul’s learning.
The primary purpose of your Guardian Angel is to see that you accomplish your life’s purpose. So sometimes, what you think you need is seen differently by your Guardian Angel.
Anything you ask for your soul’s expansion is given but sometimes not in the time frame you expect nor in the way you expect it to be given.

Aug 29 2018

Your thoughts are not the You, you seek

When I am in Silence
I feel larger than my body
I feel I can expand and expand
I feel lighter and connected

I long to know
How to bring this Peace with me
Into my daily life
Into my every cell

I need to feel connection
All the day and all the night
In happiness and in self-attack
In doubt and in fear

I long to walk without worry
To see without anxiety
To be the connected One I may remember
From another time and place

Show me what I fear
So deeply to keep it hidden
So profoundly to keep me disconnected
So thoroughly that I believe it

The Light in Silence tells another story
About all my goodness
Even though it is fleeting
Because, maybe I can’t believe it?

Why do I feel so dark about me?
I do not want to be here, again and again
I want that Peace in Silence
To stay with me every moment of the day

Help me make new choices
For what I give my power to
For what I see as my smallness
For how I think about myself

Something is off here
My thoughts say, “not enough,
Not successful, not lovable,
Not worthy, yourself to blame”

My heart says look again
Command the darkness out
You are of the Light
Your thoughts are not the You, you seek