How do we go on when we feel crippling grief?  We sob and scream, cry and cry. We hide under our bed covers and hope when we awake from sleep,  it will all have left.  Life moves in grey colored tones.  Every action feels like a huge effort. We walk through daily life without joy, peace or hope and that adds to the grief depression already with us. Who understands us? Who will help us?  Where do we turn? Will we ever smile again?  Will the deep sense of loss ever go away?

HELP US, we are lost.

Lost Tree, heavens' mourning by h.koppdelaney

Everything I thought about life has changed.  The unspeakable deep sense of loss is so real, so deep.  It hurts and keeps hurting.  Is there anyone there?  How can I go on? I don’t want this present I have now.  I want the grief to leave me and the hurt to stop and the fear to disappear, now.  I want the longing to stop. Who is running the show anyway?  Why did this happen?  How can I go on?

HELP ME Please, I am lost.

These Burdens by fallingwater123

She is so distraught, she can’t eat.  She is unable to sleep, for days she hasn’t slept.  She is afraid of being alone now in the world.  She is afraid of the world in which this grief is so overwhelming.  She is a skeleton of herself. She is too sad to cry anymore, all the crying is gone and the only energy left is heartache.

He is imploding into numbness.  His love has died.  She was so vibrant and whole, so full of energy and vitality.  How can she be gone, really gone?  His heart is pining and raw.  He can’t work, he can’t find any happiness, he walks and walks as if to get away from the feelings.  When he returns, he lies all day on the couch with no energy to focus.  The TV passes by in hours and no connection is made.  He is lost to himself and to all of us.

HELP THEM, they are so lost.

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Bring all your burdens to me.  For I AM Perfect Love and I AM Perfect Balance and I AM Eternity, Joy, Forgiveness and Wholeness.  I AM the Love, the Light and the Life Everlasting.  I AM All That you truly seek.  There is no other. AND SO IT IS.

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How do we release the grief and sadness of loss, of regret, of un-forgiveness, of shame, of guilt and of depression? We begin in Stillness and Silence.  WE MUST ASK Divine Presence to come to us in any way we can think of.

Autumn dawn by James Jordan

Calling in Healing Energy

Beloved God, I need help.  I can’t continue with this grief and unbearable dark feelings of loss.  I am so shut down.  Come to me and clear this darkness away. I want to be joyful again but I don’t know how.  I want to be whole again.  I am so disconnected now.

Come to me, Divine Loving Power, I am in great need.  I don’t know what to do. Healing Energy of the Universe, I call you to me,  now.  Move this grief.  Show me joy again. Mend my heart, it is so broken.  I am so deeply grateful.

Jesus, loving Presence.  I need help and healing.  I am so sad, lost and afraid I can’t go on.  I don’t want to live this life with all this lost and grief.  I miss __________  so much. I feel like part of my own being has left me.  I feel un-whole and incapable of my own healing.  I drag through the days and I am so deeply sad, I can’t speak of this.  Come to me. I need help.

Ascended Masters, you know how to do this. You have been here, you know the grief, the darkness and the sadness here.  I am being eaten up by these feelings.  I can’t find my center, my balance.  I can’t find my way.  Help me heal.  I am so utterly sad and lost.  I am afraid.  I feel unsafe.

Oh dear God.  I am so lonely. My heart aches and aches and I can’t do anything else.  Help me to find my way.  I feel like I have nothing to live for.  I am afraid of things I can’t name.  Come Divine Grace, I open my heart to healing.  Thank you.

If there is Perfect Love out there or in me, I need it.  Come to help me heal. Thank you.

Sadness and grief is our right.  We can feel it for as long and as deeply as we need to feel it. We can also let it go when we are ready.  This is about how to get the help we need to let grief go.  However, there are times when we need to simply feel the grief as humans.  We need to shut out the world and be in grief.

Carrying grief however is not expected of us by some mythic “Board of Right Living”.   We each have our own timing for how long we remain in a state of sadness and grief and what it looks like for us.  And yet, it is really okay to set it all down, to release our heaviness and burdens to the Greater Loving Energy of the Universe.  All the darkness can be handled there.  It is fully okay to feel joy, delight and passion again after we have lost or after another has died.

floral tribute at Nerang by Leonard John Matthew

Send blessings to those who have left human life,  to the ones who have suffered, and send blessings to yourself.  Call in the help you need to embrace your path again.  It will appear with new colors and new depth for you have loved, grieved and chosen to love again. All that is needed is provided WHEN we ask.

Bless us all as we ask for and receive the help that is waiting for us, after we have grieved what is.

Our Thanks,  and So It Is.

Most of us in body, in this Earth dimension,  generally think of ourselves as humans having an occasional spiritual experience.  However as our consciousness expands, perhaps more accurately said, “We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.” This quote is from Pierre Teilhard de Chardin (1881-1955), the French philosopher and Jesuit priest.

Paradise Bridge by h.koppdelaney

The one and only thing that a group of renown spiritual teachers, mystics and writers including Deepak Chopra, Barbara Kingsolver, and Marianne Williamson agreed on after days together in conference was that we are spirit beings having a human experience. Assuming this may indeed be so, there are some implications for living as spiritual humans which can help us  on our journeys.

We are here first and foremost in our bodies for some reason, otherwise we would be elsewhere.  Repeatedly, it seems that we are here to work on our relationship to All That Is/God/Great Oneness.  We come with all sorts of baggage from previous incarnations and we continue to accumulate baggage in this lifetime as well.  However, perhaps because all healing must take place in the dimension in which we incurred the imbalance, we return repeatedly and attract to ourselves conditions which give us the opportunity to heal, come into wholeness, peace, joy and balance.

Could it all be as simple as our being here to clear our minds, bodies and souls from fear and blocked energies which we are carrying within ourselves? Is life being given in body so that this time we may choose Love and Peace, Wholeness and Balance?  Could our ancestors be looking on saying,

• MAYBE THIS TIME, she will choose Love and Wholeness.
• MAYBE THIS TIME, he will choose Peace and Joy.
• MAYBE THIS TIME, they will keep the deep spirit ways close to themselves and find Loving Kindness in all things.

In Chains by purplemattfish

When we release blocked, negative energy, we diminish our sense of darkness and our feelings of separation from All That Is.  Our consciousness expands as fear receeds. We become more aware of our connection with All That Is, The Great Oneness and increasingly aware of our spiritual selves.

We have free will so we can choose to explore our spirituality in this lifetime or we can choose to completely ignore our spiritual selves. We can spend as much time as we like ignoring our spiritual selves. However, there are a range of imbalances in the soul of each person in body which can only be re-balanced while we are in body and when we decide to work on our inner sense of peace.  All our perceptions of our outer lives are formed through our sense of inner Peace.

Meditation can allow us to temporarily escape the human requirements of our lives and be in Silence and Stillness.  The process of entering a meditative state eventually helps our minds and bodies to remember the feeling of inner balance.  Often in the beginning of this process, however, we must face the areas of our lives which are out of balance.

Spirit + Nature by h.koppdelaney

Places of stillness can also be reached through yoga, long distance runs, dancing, biking and swimming to name a few. Reaching this state, through movement is sometimes known as hitting the “zone”.   Others can find deep Stillness in gardening, walking in nature, painting or creating.  All efforts towards stillness result in our remembering what balance feels like.

Prayer is the conscious request for Divine Energy to help us in our quest for greater Peace and Balance.  Prayer is like speaking to our deepest Divine Knowing within ourselves and calling upon other available spiritual energy to support our  journeys or that of another.  Prayer in its most powerful sense is a call to balance.

Fear is the opposite of Love.  We therefore we have to name our fears and face them. Further, in order to become free of those thoughts and feelings we have to caste the fear out or deny any further power to that fear which we may be holding onto.  This allows us to fully embrace Love in our lives. All acting out, physically or emotionally stems from fear, often fears we do not recognize but none the less, fears we are expressing.

When I am out of balance, one question brings me to a place deeply within.  I have finally learned to remember to ask myself,  what fear is producing this imbalance within me?  This is one of the most important questions we can ask along the way to inner Peace. to be continued…

*Part one of this blog can be read at http://www.robbinshopkins.com/2010/08/the-dark-or-the-absence-of-light/

We can choose to be afraid or trusting.   We can choose to be selfish or generous.  We can choose to be welcoming or restrained.  Each and every choice we make for the goodness of the greater whole produces more balance.  Each and every choice we make which is not for the goodness of the greater whole produces more imbalance.

Free Child Walking on White Round Spheres by D. Sharon Pruitt

The greater the imbalance we feel within ourselves, the greater these imbalances manifest in our lives.  There is however no dark entity of dark power to be reckoned with sometimes known as the dark side.  We can know we are connected in one part of our lives to the Light and we can feel disconnected in other parts of our lives from the Light.  In my case, I was very surprised that I felt attacked by something I envisioned as dark energy.  I had not felt that fearful energy for years and years and yet there it was showing its ugly head right after our car accident. (spoken about in part 1)

Regardless of where we are in our journey, what we  feel,  see,  sense, and experience is a reflection of the choice to be connected to the Light or the choice to be separated from the Light.  This leads us back to the accident.

Why did that accident really happen to us?  I kept asking this in my mind and had a hard time not getting an immediate answer.  I wondered if I had attracted that accident to us through some means, if I needed to pay a karmic debt that I was not aware of, or if I was being attacked by the dark. I gave a lot of power to this last thought.

There are multiple true answers to this question.  Each of us involved, my husband, the truck driver, and me experienced this same accident for different reasons.  I now feel that I had this accident to give me a chance to directly face my deeply hidden fear about some force I thought of as the dark.  This was not something I might take a Sunday afternoon to contemplate! As with most of us, I would probably always choose to engage in something else, anything else, actually.  I needed a deeply shocking experience to go into my own darkness and wrestle my way through all of that old stuck energy.

Next Dimension by By h.koppdelaney- Hartwig HKD

Even though I slogged through the darkness after the accident, I sensed the minute we were hit, at some unconscious level, that we were not hurt.  Immediately after the impact, I was led to pray for the complete and total healing of  our fear from our energy fields.  I felt an insulating energy drop in around us as the accident occurred and as the  investigation was taking place.  I also had the dawning thought with increasing certainty that the impact of the truck’s energy on our van was buffered by Divine Presence.  We were surrounded immediately by that Divine Energy of Light. We were protected from harm’s way.

This experience of the Divine Presence with us at the accident continued to be present while I wrestled with my own created fear of the darkness. That powerful knowing just stayed within my energy field through all my stages of anger, frustration, uncertainly and questioning I felt I needed to feel. During one phase of my deeply questioning and anger tinged state about this accident,   I asked about all the times I had been killed from this dimension.  I was told the number.  Then immediately following this exchange I heard, “but you agreed to that”.  I started to laugh knowing deeply that this was true.  Further, if this is true for me, then it is true for every one of us.  Even the “innocent bystander” leaves when it is his or her time to leave.  At the same time, an innocent bystander does not leave before it is his or her time either.

Yet the question remains, why do some come here and physically suffer and others come and mentally or emotionally  suffer? Our entire journey is about coming into balance within our own energy.  When we begin to experience this inside, it begins to manifest all around us in all our affairs.  Many of the challenges, problems, conflicts, situations we get into are a result of imbalances we have chosen in our lives.  If we need to “atone” or re-balance, from some past transgression we have caused, we have infinite ways that we can do that in a lifetime.

Balanced Rocks by By squarewithin- Matthew Trentacost

Parts of our lives can appear like suffering until we get that we are One with the Light and that we are being given our specific life circumstances so that deep imbalances in our human selves can be re-balanced with the Love of the Universe.  We may also have a life in which we are given the option of being here in illness or disability as a way to re-balance some huge transgression of our past or as a way to develop compassion for ourselves and others, or as an example of living with joy and grace with our disability for others to learn from.

We are given whatever we need to come into a more loving and whole space with All That Is.  We cannot judge by appearances for ourselves or for others. There is a Divine and Holy Order within this Earth dimension even though we may not be able to discern it. The process of re-balancing for the Goodness of the Whole is taking place, all the time for all people everywhere.

If you think you have brought imbalances, fears and transgressions of the past with you,  you can work them out before you are required to do so, in some totally WAKE UP fashion.  I recommend all the preemptive work we can do to clear the darkness, fear and imbalance we feel inside ourselves.

• You can pray and ask forgiveness for all the people you have hurt throughout all space and time.
• You can ask for all the debts of imbalance you have brought about in your times of  separation from the Light to be made whole in all ways by Divine Grace.
• You can literally call in the healing energy of the Light for all those you have specifically hurt.
• You can call for the fear of anything you know you are facing to be consumed by the Light of God/All That Is.

Of course, one has to have the feeling that restoring balance is important.  We are loved beyond all measure but knowing that at the soul level requires our acting in this energy. We need to embrace the fact that we can clear our old stagnant energies and past misdeeds by calling for this to happen.

We have to embrace a new intention for being here, one that embraces that all living is for the purpose of healing and thereby for coming into the Energy of the One, the Whole, the Eternal Community of Life. Then all is possible.

Alicia was in a car accident.  She was in a compact car and was hit from behind by a delivery truck.  The car was crushed up to the back seat and the impact was severe.

Renault Clio - nach Wintercrash by A.Schwenke

This began a process of going to doctors for pain, tension, imbalances and eventually for psychiatric help as the pain wore on. By self report, she saw over 20 different doctors and body workers.  Every week, there was at least one doctor’s appointment if not more.  This went on for years before she began to think that perhaps she might be able to heal.  For years, she simply accepted that the pain had to be endured and that she had to do the best she could.

She was not very familiar with prayer especially for herself.  However, she considered herself  a church going person. At one point in her deep pain filled days, she said out loud to God, ” I am of no use to anyone like this.  I think only about myself because I have no energy to think about anyone else.  I deeply want this pain to pass so that I can be more loving and present to others.  Please help me. ” This began a shift in her life.  She found the help she needed and she began to talk with God more personally about her own healing.  Today she is pain free.

Shane had “bad knees” from athletics in college.  Bad knees in this case meant he had had two arthroscopic surgeries which should have alleviated his pain and though they did help for a while, the pain returned three years after the last surgery.  He was unable to play golf, walk very far, play tennis or basketball.

Lance - Annoyed at the Rocky Riverbed by Lance and Erin

Over the years, he had given up all of these activities, one at a time and energetically settled into, “I have bad knees”.  He had gained over 40 pounds of unwanted weight as well through his increasingly sedentary lifestyle. The surgeon had told him that he would need a knee replacement on his right knee, five years earlier.  His health insurance was not going to cover a knee replacement. Further, with three kids headed to, or in college, a knee replacement was not financially possible for him.

The pain had become constant and was wearing him down energetically.  He was open to trying anything.  We began to pray together for the clearing of the blocked energy which was manifesting as pain and weakness in his knees.  His pain subsided and he eventually picked up walking, yard work and golf again without pain.

Laurel had had two severe pain attacks in her chest, both strong enough to leave her weak and reeling on her living room couch.  She had also noticed that her blood pressure was up twenty points from normal when she had her check up though she did not mention this to her doctor.  Something was really not right,though.  She was familiar with prayer so she took this directly to God.  She asked to be told the source of the blocked energy and was shown it was blockage in two arteries.  She asked what was the source of that blocked energy and she was shown the time right before one of the attacks where she had been berating herself very loudly about being a dope, stupid, incompetent, etc.  She had completely forgotten that she had been ranting at herself before the attack.

In Silence, she was told that she could never do this again without serious repercussions. As she worked in meditative Silence, she asked to be led to releasing the anger she had towards herself.  She was shown time and time again where she had attacked herself, berated herself, and how she readily pushed herself all the time to do, do, do and then beat herself up emotionally about time pressures.  Each time she entered into Silence, she released the anger and fear of failure associated with the memories that were being given to her.  Eventually when all the blocked energy was cleared, she was led to ask for healing energy for the blockage in her arteries.

One day, Laurel experienced a meditation session in which she felt Divine Energy focused directly on her heart (psychic healing).  She was told to take it easy for three weeks and she did.  The next blood pressure check she had was back to normal for her. It had been elevated for two years by the time all the healing was received.  She has had no more pains for two years now.

Migraine Monday by Joana Roja

Pain is an indication that something in the unseen body is manifesting as pain in the physical body.  I frequently see clients with pain who have been told by doctors that nothing can be done.  I know that is what is believed by these doctors but that is because they are working with physical bodies and not the whole person.   Often, only Divine Presence knows what blocked energy has led us to chronic pain.  We as humans are not usually able to determine how exactly we have gotten to debilitating pain.  We just know we have it.  I had chronic back pain for eighteen years before I took this pain to Divine Presence.  I am deeply grateful that I don’t have that pain anymore.

Here are some steps to take which work.

1. Ask God/Divine Knowing or any Divine Energy Beings including Angels, Ascended Masters, Beloved Mother Mary to show you the source of the blocked energy manifesting as pain for you.

You could be shown the blocked energy through a dream, in meditation, or you might have some encounters through your day which produce anger or frustration or a sense of vulnerability.  These can all be clues to YOUR BEHAVIOR which is out of balance.  Pay attention and you will be shown where you are out of balance.  If you don’t get the picture ask,  ”What is out of balance within me which is causing blocked energy in my field?”  Listen in the Silence. Keep asking.

Principle –  We have to understand what we are doing which is causing blocked unseen energy before our bodies can heal.

2. Clear blocked energy you are carrying from your energy field.

Call for God in the form of the Sacred Flame within, to consume the blocked energy you are carrying which is manifesting as pain. The more specific you are about the blocked energy, the more focused and therefore powerful the healing energy can be.

Principle – Blocked energy causes pain.  That energy can be emotional, mental, thermal (protective), spiritual (fear) or physical. The blocked energy manifests in ways which can lead to pain in the body because the energy is being short-circuited.

3. Call for healing for the body itself . You might call for specific help through healing points of light, psychic surgery, a specific body worker or doctor to help you, or the right essential oil or homeopathic medicine for your body.  All ways are used by God to bring us to healing. You can also ask for the Highest Benevolent Outcome to lead you to pain free energy.

4. Ask Divine Presence to clear all fear and anger you are carrying as  result of the pain you are experiencing.

5. Give thanks for the steps you are taking to wholeness and for the support you are receiving to do this. You may have had the pain for years so give yourself time to heal.