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Sep 19 2018

I Self-Protect

I walk through my days protecting
Something feels very vulnerable
I cloak myself with ever ready vigilance
Against that which I sense is everywhere present

I feel attack energy ready to slay me
I see myself being irreparably hurt, betrayed, and abandoned
It has happened to others. They suffer
I could so easily be the next one to lose

I present my false self everywhere
I am protecting my real self all the time
I know the difference but I pretend I don’t
I pretend to be who I am not
I feel I need to be someone other than me
Then I may be safe
Then I may escape the darkness seeking me

How did I come to this?
What did I miss?
Why do I persist?
What have I yet to learn?
Where did my trust go?

Oh Divine One, hear my plea
I am lost in this place of pain and suffering
I know not why I have swallowed the fear
Why I have chosen self-protection
Why I have sought to hide
I am weary living like this
I can’t find my happy time

I need to feel your Presence
My connection is so broken
In all this confusion, I can’t find my center
I keep pretending so maybe there is nothing of me really present
Come into my heart and mind
Why is this happening to me?
Am I lovable at all?

Sep 12 2018

Guardian Angel Dialogue

It feels immature to believe in guardian angels
As if I need some kind of safety net that I can’t even see
Like I am not capable of living my life with my own resources
As if I am so deeply unsure of myself that my story includes a guardian angel

No, our presence is not about your lack
It is about your brilliance and your loving center
We hold the space with your soul for expansion
For your peace, health, and wholeness

Even if you do not ask us to help you
We are with you all the time
We are always waiting for a call from you
For whenever you would like help on anything

But if I can’t see you, how can I believe you are there?
I don’t relish believing in something that is made-up
Like Santa Claus or fairies or Easter bunnies
That is all so much nonsense!

I don’t really even believe in God
Not that I tell anyone that
But there is too much pain here
For there to be a God

Ah, but that is why you are in body
To learn the difference between human and Divine energy
To choose to listen to the Knowing within
To learn about your connection with God

With that listening, each will heal from
All heartache and suffering,
All illness and pain

All pain and suffering is humanly created
That is the state of those separated from Divine Source
Seek within, you will find a path to peace and serenity,
Health, wholeness, forgiveness, and balance

I do not know of these things
They concern me and seem very foreign to my life
What if I find a dark version of myself inside
What then?

You have all the chances you need to do this inner seeking
You can do it now, you can do this later
Eventually you will do to this work, one way or another
Seeking within though, is the most direct path to wholeness

The hardship you feel is every bit about being separated from Divine Energy
You live in body and think that is All There Is
That is only a tiny portion of who you are
Your present time is just as it is, so you can heal and expand your knowing

This is the real blessing of being in body
Seize the chance this lifetime gives you
You will never regret a single decision
Made in the context of seeking more peace and wholeness

Truths confirmed by Divine Knowing about Guardian Angels

Guardian Angels can change over time. The change is determined by the issues you are working with and is connected to your level of consciousness and your level of knowing of Oneness.
You must ask for the help you seek, even of Guardian Angels.
All requests are heard and responded to with the most appropriate energy for your soul’s learning.
The primary purpose of your Guardian Angel is to see that you accomplish your life’s purpose. So sometimes, what you think you need is seen differently by your Guardian Angel.
Anything you ask for your soul’s expansion is given but sometimes not in the time frame you expect nor in the way you expect it to be given.

Aug 19 2018

You Are Not the Fears You Have

When you are being run by fears such as not having enough money, not feeling lovable, not feeling you will ever have the energy you desire, or not feeling you are making a difference, these feelings are not you. They are simply fears crossing your path that you have given your energy to. Fears arise and because you do not really feel connected with Divine Source, therefore, you give your energy to these fears. You grow your fears, in other words. The fundamental fear is that you are not loved. This fuels all the other fears. The fear you are not loved manifests in a thousand ways to get you to look at those fears and discard them. This is essentially your eternal job. You are here to face and dismantle all the fears you carry. You do not have to do this alone. There is all the help you need.

However, there are many pitfalls along the way. You may get in a loop of blaming others for not loving you enough. You may get into the habit of judging self or others harshly to keep you from looking at your own fears. You may get in a loop of hiding from the fears you are carrying and they will manifest as your being snippy, angry, haughty, judging, unkind, dismissive, unforgiving, unhappy, depressed, or selfish. Still, though, these behaviors are not you either. They are the result of unexamined fears running you. Those undesirable behaviors are the result of you building up fears within, without examining them.

One of the toughest realizations is that you may be totally wrong about yourself and who your are. To find yourself fully, you need to go inside and sit with Divine Source/God/the Great Spirit. Here you will find Truth, Love, Forgiveness and Acceptance. Truly, this awaits each of you, every minute of every day. However, your fears of being less that you would hope, more broken than you fear, or much darker than you feel you can address, may keep you from going inside to Silence.

The big secret about going inside to the quiet is that you are much more loving, capable, caring, forgiving, than you are presently experiencing. Regardless of your past, regardless of your bad behaviors, when you do not consciously connect with Divine Oneness you will give your power to the fears and their resulting negative behaviors. This is the surprise that comes with being in Silence. You are led as to how to dismantle all your fears and how to feel the love available to you if you stop, breathe, open, and seek connection.

When you begin to do this or return to try again, seek Love. Simply, seek the feeling of being loved. Suspend all the self-perceptions which are in any way negative and imagine Love energy flowing in, around, and through you. You do this enough and you will begin to see the fears you are carrying and can then command them out of your energy field. Begin by seeking Love, the ability to breathe and the experience of releasing your tensions.

Everything that you fear about yourself is untrue! Every fear you have is simply energy that has run amok. You have to name those fears, cast them out of your field and more love, acceptance, kindness, and creativity replaces the fears. This is the secret to why so many people enter into Silence willingly. They have had the experience of feeling Love, Forgiveness, Grace, and Peace. You have to take the first step to look at the fears you have in a conscious Sacred Space. They are not you. They are energy that is running you.

Enter into Silence and call forth the sense of feeling Love. You can do this lying down, sitting up, walking in the woods or standing looking at beauty. Keep trying to do this. Practice is required. I tried lots and lots of ways to feel flowing Love. When I began, I took no other agenda into the Silence with me except to feel Love. Try this. The Love available to you is infinite and will lead you to eventually look at your fears. Start with seeking the feeling of Love. You are loved. The very fact that you are in body, indicates you are loved. You may not feel loved or lovable but with practice you will. All else will follow.

Jul 25 2018

Experiencing God From Within

“God is in the heart and soul of every being. And when you open within yourself the secret temple in your heart, then with the all-knowing intuition of the soul you shall read the book of life.” Paramahansa Yogananda (1)

What does this mean? You have to go within to fully actualize who you are. You are vastly more than the localized body and life you live day to day. You are connected to the non-local energy of All That Is, all the time, whether you know it or not. If you want to fully reap those benefits, you have to go to Silence within and listen to the still small voice of God which is delivered through the intuition of your soul, your eternal self.

Yogananda continues, “Then and only then will you contact the living God. Without this feeling in your heart, there will be no answer to your prayers. You may attract what your positive actions and good karma permit you to have; but to receive a conscious response from God, you must first attain Divine attunement with God.” (2)

Divine attunement with God refers to actively going into Silence with the express purpose of making conscious contact with the energy of God/Divine Source. As you discover imbalances within, you clear them and come into greater attunement with Divine Source. You have to want to have a personal exchange with Divine Source to have that manifest. Attunement means coming into balance, into the same frequency as God. This only happens in the quiet conscious seeking of Divine Source.

You may be afraid of what you will feel or be told about your faults if you expand your personal relationship with the living God. The truth is that you are so loved, way beyond the ability of your imagination to comprehend this. You are first and foremost here to develop a two-way relationship with All That Is. You are here to heal that which is not who you truly are; your fears, your anger, your unforgiveness, and your self-criticism.

You are here to seek peace and joy within. You can’t do this anywhere else. You can’t do this when you leave your body or when you take a different form from your human body. You have to find this path to the living God while in a human body. That is the reason you are in body. When you find this path to God, you can create the life, relationships, peace, and loving wholeness you are seeking. You get as many chances as you need to do this.

Begin now and expand the time you currently allot to experiencing connection with God. Every moment you allot to connect with Divine Source comes back to you one hundredfold. (Mark 10:30, King James Version)

Conscious Seeking of God

1. Find a place where you will not be disturbed

2. Open Sacred Space (even if you are unsure about what that fully means just yet)

3. State your intention for being with Divine Source/God/All That Is/The Oneness

4. State your hesitations, your concerns, your troubles, your hopes

5. Be quiet, listen and be present

6. Give thanks silently or through writing to All That Is about what you are learning

7. Return frequently to experience clearer direction and connection with the energy of God, that energy within you and surrounding you throughout the Universe

Remember you are already hard-wired to Divine Source! You are simply amplifying that connection. There is no one right way to do this. There is only the way you learn to make space in your life for a living connection with God.

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Who is Paramahansa Yogananda ( 1893-1952)? He is widely regarded as one of the preeminent spiritual figures of our time who draws on his own direct experience of God. He teaches us to seek and pray the way that saints, sages, and mystics have sought God over the centuries- the way that brings life transforming responses. He has introduced millions of readers to the enduring wisdom of the East through his life story in Autobiography of a Yogi.

Notes 1 & 2, Yogananda, Paramahansa, In the Sanctuary of the Soul, Los Angeles, CA., Self-Realization Fellowship, 1998.

Jun 06 2018

Calling on Angels

One consistent message from the Angels is that humans do not ask for enough help. We often choose to go it alone rather than to call for support, healing, or help in accomplishing something in our lives. Angels are available to everyone regardless of your specific beliefs. They do not belong to any religion or set of beliefs. They do respond however to the laws of the Universe, the most basic one being Love. This Universe was created in Love and is governed by Love. Thus, effective work with the Angels comes about when you are working from a place of Love.

What does it mean to work from a place of Love? You are heard and responded to when you are trying to create more Love, being motivated by a sense of doing good in the world, or when you are trying to face imbalances in yourself so that you can express more Love in this life. There is a huge difference in calling for help from Angels in order to have something of a material nature manifest such as a new car or a piece of jewelry and calling for help with clearing anger you are carrying with another person. The desire to have material things can sometimes be a call coming from Love or can simply be a desire to have something you want. Often you are the only person who knows whether your call is based in Love or in some type of lack, fear, anger, desire or, resentment, etc. The distinction is important.

Anything coming from a place of Love will be responded to by the Angels. So, where in your life are you trying to create more Love? Ask for help with those issues you are facing which are coming from a place of Love within yourself. This applies to your call for Angels to help other people as well. If the call is based in Love, it is sure to be answered.

Why haven’t my calls for help been answered in the past? There is a profound difference in calling for help for self or another from a place of fear rather than from a place of Love. If you are afraid for your child and your call for help comes from that base, it may or may not be heard. Clear your fear for your child first and then make a call of help for your child from a place of Love. This call is sure to be heard. Make sure that all your calls for Angelic or Divine help come from a place of Love within yourself rather than from a perceived sense of inadequacy, fear, or lack. These calls then will be responded to without a doubt.

When I was near the end of my 19 years of chronic back pain, I finally realized that I wanted to be well so that I could work with others in healing. I was no good at being able to help others while being in so much continuing pain myself. I called on Divine Source including the Angels to help me heal so that I could help others heal. This was a turning point for me. I had to call for help from a place of Love for true help to manifest for me. Then, from every direction, help came pouring in for me.

Angelic help also works when you are afraid, suffering, beating up on yourself or feeling depressed about your situation. Even if you are struggling to understand how to love yourself, this is still an act of self-love and your call for healing will be heard.

You might start with Archangel Michael unless you already have a relationship with another one of the Angels. His energy is the broadest in scope of the Angels and if he is not the right Archangel for you, he will help connect you to the other Archangels when needed. If you do have a relationship with an Angel or feel drawn to Angel energy, use it more. What you focus on grows. Your relationship with those amazing Divine Beings will expand and flourish the more you request their presence in your life.

Angels cannot help you unless you specifically call them into your life. Angels can be anywhere and everywhere because they are Spirit Beings. Their energy is unlimited so they await your calls for support and help each and every day.

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