Robbins Hopkins

Spiritual Health: Being at Peace in Everyday Life

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Infinite Source

Infinite Source means just that, the Source of All That Is has no boundaries, limits or perimeters.  It is vast possibility without any limitation. This is a challenging concept to grasp, and even harder to actualize in our lives.  Both are possible though and embracing Infinite Source is life changing.

Vastness by melolou
Vastness by melolou

Infinite Source means there is no shortage of supply, love, wealth, humor, creativity, food, health, peace, balance, etc. Infinite Source is one of the immutable Laws of Creation.  Yet, we experience all sorts of limitations on Earth and in our lives at the present time.   This earth dimension we live in, does not generally recognize Infinite Source in our daily lives.  It is seen as a theoretical possibility for the most part which we generally do not know how to activate.  So for practical purposes, it does not exist.

I would like to challenge this view and suggest that we need to pick up all our threads of creativity and imagination and launch ourselves and our lives into the energy of Infinite Source to more effortlessly and effectively help us with what we have come to do in this lifetime.  We create the stifling limits within which we live, operate, breath and create. We, with our own minds, think as humans think, with boundaries, issues, concerns, problems, limitations, conditions, improbabilities and nay saying.

Blue by derpunk
Blue by derpunk

What if there really are no actual boundaries except the ones we are giving our power to in this lifetime? Perhaps we have all bought into accepted conventions and agreed to standard deviations for conditions, improbabilities and nay-saying?  Maybe there is a field out there where you and I will meet and none of this will actually matter. Let’s say we could really live in full acceptance of Infinite Source even in one area of our lives.  Might it be worth giving it a try?

Repeatedly throughout my years of spiritual seeking, the one thing that comes to me over and over again is that I think too small, envision with limitations, doubt the vastness of the Whole and generally look upon the Divine with human eyes and thoughts.  Of course, I am human!  However, I don’t think that my humanness is the authority by which I live and create.   My “I AM” energy is the authority by which I live and create. My Oneness with All That Is is the authority by which I harness goodness and create with love.  In contrast,  my humanness is often the wagging finger energy standing at the doorway of my mind saying, “un-uh, you can’t do that, that is not possible, that is dreamy eyed thinking,  that is absurd, just fool’s folly”.  For years and years, I listened to what was not possible, not probable and gave that energy a great deal of power.

Those years were generously filled with physical pain and suffering on my part.  Of course, I was giving my energy and power to many things that I thought I was going to have to do which I would not like, would be bad at doing or better yet would probably fail at. UGH!!  I was immediately caught up short when I realized one day that I had really, really had chronic back pain for 16 years.   I was totally surprised at this on one level because I secretly thought of myself as a jock.  Well, I was, in one part of my brain.  I had commuted to work with my bike, I had played tennis and taught Jazzercise, taken yoga and loved to swim.  I had walked regularly and weight lifted whenever my body allowed.   It seemed very weird that somehow I had become a handicapped person with this chronic pain.  The insurance companies would concur with this accessment given all the doctors I was seeing.

For a while this realization of  these years of pain, made me seriously angry with my body.   I was also furious with everyone that pain was my constant companion.  I eventually became outwardly angry and negative until that wore both me and my family out.  I then became quiet in my suffering ( for a very short while) and eventually I had the thought, perhaps I could be pain free.  This was the first time in 16 years that I had had that thought.   It was just a glimmer of hope but it fueled a huge change within me.

This has been my very own, self-created, experience at limiting my life, my health, my options.  I  really did buy into the fact that I would probably be in pain my entire life.   However, I became more and more determined to seek another reality for me.  I was completely fatigued and impatient with doctors, body workers, therapists of all sorts.  One therapist told me I was psychologically ill and the pain was all imagined.  Another said I was one of the sanest persons she had had the privilege to meet.  I thought then and there, I think I’ll believe the last one.  It feels better.  And thus, I began looking for that elusive Infinite Source.  I did not know that was what IT was called then but I do now.  I now know that my thoughts become my reality. I can choose to create conditions, boundaries, prerequisites, or limitations or not.  The choice is mine.

Usually when I am angry, frustrated, impatient or snippy, I am giving my power to limitations, conditions and fears which are working me in negative ways.  When I am peaceful, happy, loving and understanding, I am going with the flow.   Infinite Source is a huge vastness of possibility and there are absolutely no bounds on that Source except the ones we create.

When I finally got that I might be able to live in greater health with pain free energy, I began to see all sorts of new help around me that had always been there.  I had just not seen it.  The limitations which I had made my reality, literally blocked the channels of Infinite Source around me. I began to change what I thought was true, who I spent time with, what I spent time doing and how I characterized myself to myself, and to others.  I tried out aspects of Infinite Source such as  “if I don’t give it a try, who will?” and  “when will it be a good enough time to do something I love?” and  “who is your authority here anyway?” and finally, “girl, figure out what you love and do it!”.   And slowly I did.  I have now been pain free with the exception of normal bumps and bruises for so many years that I know I will continue pain free,  the remainder of my life.

Take a leap of faith and truly imagine what has seemed impossible for you.

Call forth Divine Assistance and go for it.

Counter the nay- sayers within and without with calm resolve.

Honor your path as part of the learning process that leads to our own true selves, pain included.

Proclaim Infinite Source and give your power to those possibilities, without bounds,  in all situations.

Try giving your power to imagining and working with Infinite Source.   You will truly experience that Infinite Source is seriously real. The only boundaries and limitations we have are the ones we accept and create for ourselves.

Unpacking Anger

Anger has a life of its own. How does that happen?  We might be having a very fine day and then that old argument about making plans for the weekend comes up or age old wounds about spending money to celebrate a special occasion appear and suddenly, real nastiness sets in.   We can be in the car and make a seemingly mild comment about going another way to the store and every other issue ever discussed about driving comes crashing into the car between you and your companion.  Suddenly Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde are present in full regalia.  Who are those folks erupting into yelling, posturing, accusing and defending?

Anger is like temporary insanity. The emotions take on such presence that we begin to feel they are real, powerful and overwhelming.

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Coffee Argument by alasdair.d

They aren’t actually any of those things.  Anger is neither real, powerful nor overwhelming though our reaction to it can well be overwhelming especially when we are in the thick of the interaction.  Anger is not real in the sense that it is a passing emotion, not eternal and it is certainly not powerful as it is not of the Great Oneness.  Erupting and repeating anger is a repeatedly debilitating experience which most of us would love to be free of.  How do we unpack anger from our energy field, especially when we are, of course,  right?

The very first step to unpacking anger is to want it unpacked, more than you want to be right. If you are really ready to stop giving your power to anger, you have to put it first on your list before all other feelings as the one you are going to get rid of.  It takes a great deal of determination and commitment but it can be done.  It takes honesty with oneself and before Divine Presence.

The next step to unpacking anger is to pick one recent anger encounter and take it into meditation and  reflection with Divine Presence.  Here is a story of how one partner worked on her anger until it dissipated.

Kevin and Mary repeat versions of  anger every time they begin to plan Thanksgiving for their family gathering.

Everyone take their seat... or any seat, please by OldOnliner
Everyone take their seat… or any seat, please by OldOnliner

Kevin comes from a formal family and Mary from an informal family and therefore their approach to entertaining is very different.  Though the specific incidents differ each year, the anger and angst for each of them by self-report, feel exactly the  same.  Mary began to be more and more determined to clear her anger response to Kevin  because she was increasingly bothered by having those arguments taint the entire family gathering.

Mary began to work on smaller issues around entertaining in an effort to clear the air leading up to family gatherings.  She found that she got angry when she felt that the menu,  buying of the food and  getting the house ready was all ending up on her plate.  Every time it seemed that this was happening, she would get defensive and anger would erupt.   She recognized and named the fear as “it is all up to me to make the event successful”.   As this fear “ran her” in most conversations about entertaining,  she would begin early to keep herself from making any commitments which could pile up and result in her feeling  “it is all up to me”.  This would drive Kevin crazy because he simply wanted the responsibilities clear.  Mary would steadfastly not participate in clarifying the responsibilities so that she would not have it  “end up being all on her” .  Needless to say, entertaining was stressful.

After Mary specifically named her fear,  she began to see this fear morphing and showing up in many other areas of her life, including at work and with her friends as well.  Though she remained determined to release this fear, it simply did not seem to be able to go.  She took this into Silence and got a clear sense that there was a deeper more gripping fear that she had not even known was there.  Mary realized that she really feared “that she would make  a major effort and fail or be embarrassed”.  This felt solid and intensely honest as it had been with her for many years.

Mary said this was exactly how she felt performing as a young dancer. She would practice for months at a time and  had been really embarrassed numerous times about her performances.

This fear was still in her energy field though it had morphed into issues of entertaining in her home.  By focusing on one specific situation,  she began to be able to let it go and unpack part of her wall of anger.   As long as the anger seemed to be one overwhelming, huge, repeating network of arguments,  she was unable to do anything but protect herself with all her might against the possibility of impending failure.

This may sound like a psychological assessment of the situation Mary faced but all her insight and clarity came as a result of taking this into Silence and reflecting on these issues through her  journaling.  Here are the steps she took to come to this clarity herself and to release the core fear running her efforts around entertaining with her husband.

  1. Open a sacred healing space in whatever way you feel comfortable.  ( Call in your Highest I Am Energy, Divine  Presence and Angelic Energy, for example.
  2. Focus on one specific argument in the recent past.
  3. Ask, “What am I afraid of, What is the fear which is fueling this repeating  argument?”
  4. What am I getting from holding onto this argument?  What is this argument costing me?
  5. Ask yourself, “Where else is this fear working in my life?
  6. Take all these situations into Silence and ask, “What is the core, root fear behind all this behavior?”
  7. Name the core fear.
  8. Call forth the Sacred Flame from within yourself and command the fear be completely consumed by this Divine Energy.  (Even if you feel you don’t know how this works, do it, it does work. )