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Nov 12 2009

Beloved I AM Presence

The I AM Presence is part of every person on Earth though many of us have no idea what this means. The I AM Presence is the Oneness which exists way beyond our bodies, our lifetimes and our memories of experiences in this world. The Oneness is the state of consciousness which manifests as connectedness with All That Is. The I AM Presence is that which is Eternal about us, and thereby is pure love, pure wholeness and perfect balance.

The I AM Presence actually can’t be captured in words though that does not stop me nor others from trying to explain this state. The I AM Presence is a state of consciousness which is available to all peoples, any place, all of the time.

When I call forth the I AM Presence into a sacred space, I think of this as calling the Highest Energy of the Most High. Do I really know what this means, how it was created, or from whence it came? Not really. What I do know is that when I call this energy, I and others feel compelled to speak the Truth, are touched by an energetic state of being, each sensing this in his or her own unique way. I know there is a qualitative difference in space when I call the I AM Presence into that space. I feel a sudden and vast support, power and infinite knowing way beyond the capacities of my own being.

Recently when working with St. Germain’s energy and teachings, I was struck again by the power of recognizing the I AM Presence in All That Is. When we recognize an other’s birthday, contributions, gifts, or talents, our relationship with that other person is strengthened because of this recognition.

Happy Our Birthday :) bu Hamid Saber — Happy Our Birthday 🙂 bu Hamid Saber

As we feel gratitude and appreciation for another, the goodness of the relationship grows. What we focus on, grows. If we walk through the halls and say hello to others, our relationships are strengthened by these acts of recognition. This very same principle is at work when we recognize, speak with, call forth, love and honor Divine Presence.

Before we begin to recognize the Divine in specific ways, the concept of Divine Presence remains shadowy, vaguely unformed possibilities for a rainy day. When we recognize Divine Presence, that relationship grows, is strengthened and the goodness itself expands as we take this into our heart, minds and our being.

You may ask what is the difference between the I AM Presence and God? I really don’t know. For me, the I AM Presence is within and without as is the “kingdom of God”. Perhaps they are different aspects of Divine Source or perhaps they are exactly the same. What I know is that the I AM Presence is here, now and is an integral part of me and probably has been for all my existence. I am sure that I am moving more deeply into Divine Space when I recognize my Beloved I AM Presence. I know these connections only come through Silence and meditation. It is not possible to know the I AM Presence with one’s mind. I can know of the I AM Presence with my mind but in order to know the I AM Presence, my mind has to be quiet and calm. That is the way it works.

Last week I discovered in Silence that one can be out of Right Relationship with one’s I AM Presence. Right Relationship is defined by Divine Knowing and means being in perfect harmony with something or someone. Being out of Right Relationship with the I AM Presence looks like not acknowledging this Presence, being skeptical that one is good enough to have a relationship with the I AM Presence, denying the Divine Presence in our life or remaining undecided about whether to believe in a Goodness beyond ourselves. This is very similar to wanting to have a relationship with another while never accepting offers to date, to mingle or to be in the public where meeting someone might happen. If we don’t acknowledge the Great I AM Presence, it can remain an elusive uncertainty for as many lifetimes as we would like.

St. Germain’s teachings encourage us to Love our I AM Presence. That was a new thought. How do I Love my I AM Presence? I am certain that I can’t love something that I have never recognized. So, calling forth the I AM Presence into meetings, gatherings, arguments, decisions, prayers, meditation and illness is a perfect way to have this energy take form in your life and grow in power, presence, vitality and form.

TRY THESE COMMANDS

I call forth my I AM Presence in Its full Power and Knowing

I send unbounded Love to my I AM Presence and invite this energy into every aspect of my life.

I call the Ascended Masters to teach me about my I AM Presence

I release all my blocked energy regarding the existence of my I AM Presence.

I call for the expansion of my consciousness so I can embrace the I AM Presence as a force in my life.

Recognizing the I AM Presence leads to more abundance. Every constructive form on the Earth came from some Cosmic Being’s Love.

Just add light... by ecstaticist — Just add light… by ecstaticist

The birds, the trees, the plants, the water, the mountains, the animals and all of us came from Love. It does not matter what we call this Comic Being. It matters greatly what we learn from the beauty, love and power of life around us. All life around us was created from Love because Love is the only eternal force in the Universe. Further, Light comes ONLY from Love. Light ALWAYS overcomes the darkness.

When we recognize our Mighty I AM Presence, we are saying YES to Love, to Oneness and therefore to Light. Abundance is a quality of the Light. Practice recognizing the Beloved I AM Presence and experience more Love, Light and Abundance in your life. We get all the help we need as we begin to take steps to bring this energy more fully into our daily lives. As we begin to take steps towards the recognition of Divine Presence, the Love, Light and Abundance of life will show itself more frequently and completely in our day to day world.

Nov 04 2009

Why Silence?

Here are some folks questioning the purpose and experience of Silence, being answered by folks who have tried Silence and find It working for them. These answers are paraphrases from individuals in my meditation and healing practice.

Why would you ever sit in Silence when there are ever so many other more interesting things to do?

Because in Silence, nothing is expected of me. In Silence, I feel at ease, safe with no one asking anything of me. Perhaps that is a lot like hiding but when I come out of it, I don’t feel like I have run away. I feel like I have run towards something that perhaps I don’t fully get but I know is great and it feels trust worthy. Also, increasingly, the myriad of “interesting things” in my life is not helping me become more peaceful. As long as I “do things”, I feel worthy, productive, competent and focused. I feel more in control. However when I stop, I know I am not in control. It feels good to sit in Silence where there are no control games going on or even the pretense of those running in the background. I love to do this in the woods, or at the beach. It seems like a whole other way of being.

I don’t see myself ever seeking Silence because my mind won’t settle down when I stop running from one thing to another. There never seems to be any peace in Silence for me.

When I first stopped doing, thinking, running around, working, to enter into Silence , my mind only knew how to keep thinking thoughts. That is exactly what it continued to do. I focused on my breath going in and out or sometimes on a candle flame or on the blank wall, and let my mind go. Eventually , my thoughts silenced themselves because I gave them no attention. Then real peace set in. I would find myself simply swirling along, not aware of time at all. There is a great sense of floating at times and of taking a real break from demands, lists, concerns and responsibilities. When I come out, I am usually more centered and less frantic. I’d like to be free of worry and concerns, all day long. In the meantime, I am getting healthier, while I practice getting there.

What could possibly be in Silence that I can’t get from putting my energy and efforts on what I like to do?

…perhaps a space where just being is a nice state. It is a great relief to be able to sit in Silence and simply be there. It is like taking a short nap for me. I usually come out refreshed and feeling lighter. I have no idea how that happens but I experience it again and again. What I find in Silence is more space to be. If I find that I can’t get away from issues and stuff from my daily life, I name them out loud and escort them back “outside the doorway to the Silence” and leave them there. They are always there when I finish my quiet time but they are often different in ways, less pressing or I have some clarity about how to respond. I really don’t know how this works, but it does. I don’t get this type of refresher in the day just running around doing things on my list. I like the sense of entering Silence and coming out of it, both. It works for me.

Why would I ever consider Silence, I don’t like to be alone usually and I find it boring in the extreme.

Intentional Silence is completely different from being alone. For me, I go into Silence to connect with a Greater Whole which I don’t fully get but know is probably there. I never feel alone because I go with the intention of connecting with Divine Energy. I don’t know about boring. I did have to learn to be still and listen to the Silence. There is a different kind of knowing there which I am slowly getting. In the beginning though, it was simply a place of Peace for me.

I don’t like Silence because I don’t know what to expect and I can’t really figure out what I am suppose to be doing there.

That is a great reason to keep going there. We don’t know what to expect most of the time in life. I often get thrown when things do not go as I expect. In Silence, I simply sit and am quiet and things happen in that space in a very different way than in my daily life. I get the sense that the hardest issues for me to learn can be learned there. I often get gentle nudges or hunches which help me when I leave that space. I don’t know what I am supposed to be doing there for sure, but I go there because I feel better when I do. I get to be there doing nothing, having no rights or wrongs in that space. When I come out, I am more able to roll along with things rather than feeling I need to control them. That has been great for me.

When my doctor asked me how I brought my blood pressure down without medicine after 10 years of it being too high, I told him through spiritual clearing and healing in Silence. He just rolled his eyes.

But really, that is what I did. I began sitting in Silence and when things came up which were stressful, I named them usually as a fear, called out the blocked energy around them and asked for them to be consumed from my energy field. This process has worked for me, big time. Then I usually enjoy my Silence after I do my release work. My blood pressure I guess was related to all the stress I was carrying when I got angry, irritated or frustrated. Maybe my cells just settled down as all those things left my energy field, who knows. Anyway, my doctor is happy and I think I am a lot healthier all around. ( for more on how to name and release) http://robbinshopkins.com/2009/09/calling-out-impatience-part-2/

Other Responses to Why Silence?

When I finally got to entering Silence on my own, I found it amazing that when I came out, I was clearer about the issues I was facing even though they were not specifically addressed by me in that Silence.

I found myself always making excuses for myself as to why I was drinking too much until in Silence I found a place to connect in stillness and within the quiet. I then began to be able to consider getting help for my drinking habits.

When I was really lost, in a situation I was completely confounded by, doing things that were unfamiliar and sometimes unpleasant for me, I could always take 5 minutes in Silence and know I was still connected to the Greater Whole.

When I got to Silence even for a short time daily, I began to see that my temper was less explosive and my language was more even, even the curse words dropped out in time. Some type of peace was coming over me just by a few minutes in Silence.

: Tjosvoll Vest by Vinje

Try Silence for several days, a few minutes at the time and then keep giving it to yourself, as a gift. You are actually giving Divine Presence/Greater Whole/All That Is/your “I AM Presence” a chance to send you Love so that you will have more Light to bring to your body, your affairs and your thoughts. Love creates Light which heals us completely. Sometimes we just aren’t creating enough Love of our “I AM Presence”/own True Self /Core Eternal Being for us to generate enough Light to feel balanced, centered, content and whole. When you enter into Silence:

1. set an intention ( say it out loud) to connect with All That Is

2. to receive healing Love

3. to experience inner Peace, with time

When you leave Silence give thanks for whatever happened for you in that time, regardless of whether you think if was good or bad, well done or botched, helpful or unhelpful. Appearances often deceive us. Being in Silence with these intentions is ALWAYS HEALING even if we can’t see it in the beginning or on a specific day.

Oct 18 2009

One day in India

My time in India was a time of sharp contrasts and self-reflection. I have not been surrounded by that level of ever present poverty with the exception of working in the Yucatan in the late 1960s, since I was in India three years ago.

The contrasts of the grinding poverty and the brilliant saris in the middle of the street seemed strange. Isn’t poverty’s color grey or somber? Everywhere one looks in the towns is rubble, dirt, rocks, thatch huts, make-shift housing that is not make-shift, beggars, and need. Yet the street markets are filled with flowers, fruits, and vegetables of every rainbow color. The living things of color dot the context of greyness like determined hope.

In the middle of all of this, a family serves 14 of us, the guests, a hot lunch everyday we are in their home and invites us to bask in their cheerfulness and love.

One can see the need in the faces of the street children, their outstretched hands immediately present when we stop. More need is etched in the wrinkles of the aged women who live on the streets.

One feels the overwhelming press of people, everywhere. When looking at the sidewalks, they are usually 4 deep with people, all the time.

Townspeople viewing an accident by Liz Spiwack

The roads are pressed with people, all the time. There are those permanently connected to the ground through affliction and physical impairment, at every turn.

One has to release all sense of normalcy as we move through the throngs of people, motorcycles, auto-rickshaws, bikes, cars and trucks. All is up to God, in every single way. My sense of order, fabric of the society and the way one makes sense out of the world does not work in India as She has her own rhythm and vibration, completely apart from what is familiar to those of us visiting. All the assumptions we hold do not work there. There is another order of society which is not visible to us, however hard we try to see it. I am constantly reminded that I am a visitor, in all ways.

The best we can do is to get a driver we can speak with who can be our go-between. The best we can do is to eat all things cooked which are put before us and to eat nothing raw. The best we an do is to be respectful of the religions ceremonies we are invited to attend and release all thoughts of what we are doing in India. It is not clear why one is necessarily called to India, it just simply happens.

Nothing is familiar, but a shared love of the Divine arrived at from vastly different paths, yet shared all the same. That is the amazing walk in India.

Amidst an endless background of poverty, one experiences the holy shrines, the elaborate religious festivals, the chanting of devotionals, the taking of prasada, blessed holy food, the use of the vibuti, the gift of amrita and cum-cum. All the outwards ways of worshiping, are unfamiliar but the sharing of the Energy of Divine Presence is completely familiar.

It is as if all the signals for living are completely switched around and one has to make one’s way on faith that all will be fine. Every moment of every day, one has to walk in faith that all will be fine. Simply the process of putting on a sari in and of itself is daunting.

Robbins dressed for the puja by Liz Spiwack

How does one put on 8 yards of material and move through the day? All the conflicting energy around one’s public self and one’s private self gets a good shake-up. Who are we really at the end of the day? What is it that makes for order and “ordinary” time. Certainly, not anything that shows on the outside. That is all jumbled up because of the clothing we are wearing and the process of walking barefoot through all the shrines and homes, and the process of chanting and praying in Sanskrit, or Hindi, or English. Can we really connect when we are this far out of our comfort zone?

I am so relieved again to find that my time in Silence is a constant. It is a constant I can find again, there, with all those people who are so different from me. It is a constant that sees me through, even in the strangeness of the clothing I am wearing, the sounds I am hearing, the visions I am seeing, the smells I am smelling. The Silence is my welcoming friend of deep solace. It is my refuge that somehow reassures me that I am fine, that I am whole, that I am in that place for something I can’t understand with my mind, only with my heart. Silence leads me to the space of deep connectedness with All That Is, including the very strange surroundings and customs I find myself partaking in.

Am I being true to myself? What does all that even really mean, while being in India? Do my outside actions really reflect who I am. Probably not, as I feel off-kilter much of the time I am there. I welcome smiles and kind words of those helping us through all of this. I welcome the room given to us to rest where there is an air conditioner, a western toilet and places to leave our things.

Sari Lesson from Ribini for Robbins by Liz Spiwack

I am touched by the helpful hands of young woman who teaches me to wrap the sari more securely. I welcome the intimate stories of the woman in conjunction with her husband and family, who has overseen the expansion of support for 25 rural schools in south India, the creation of an orphanage, a medical clinic and an aging folks home. All this in the midst of overwhelming physical poverty.

In their home, there are two large shrines to All That Is, known to them and many others, as Sai Baba. There are all sorts of stories of the pictures and statues spontaneously producing vibuti, sacred ash, which has to be scooped up regularly. There is another reality they are living with, which I thankfully know in Silence, Love and Blessing. We connect even though we are worlds apart, we are One. That is beyond all that I could ever imagine, really way beyond anything my mind could have thought of. That is why I have been called to India. We are really All One, even though we may only have a glimpse of it one day in India.

My thanks to Liz Spiwack, one of my traveling companions, for the sharing of these photos from our trip for use in this post.

Sep 24 2009

Calling Out Impatience, part 2

If you are reading this blog for the first time or after a while away, read the previous post before reading this one, as they go together. Go to http://robbinshopkins.com/2009/09/patience-is-love-of-self-part-1/.

It is possible to focus on impatience within ourselves and rout it out! This concept though came to me slowly over a long period of time. I awoke gradually to the implications of naming what was causing me distress, imbalance and friction in my life. Here are some concrete examples of how to name impatience and command it out of our field.

A Half and a Third of the Sky by Shamanic Shift

Before doing this work or any other of a spiritual nature, open a sacred healing space. I do this by inviting my Highest I AM Self , the Angelic Host, the Nature Intelligences, the Ascended Master of all traditions, the Comic Light Being of the Highest Light, Divine Physicians who can work with me today. Do what works for you.

When impatience is manifesting in our lives in the present time, we usually know it is present. We sometimes carefully and cleverly ignore it, make excuses for it or downright deny we are being impatient. This is a process when you are ready to honestly face the energy of impatience within.

1. The first step is to NAME the settings, interactions, situations where we are feeling impatient with ourselves or others. It looked like this for me. Getting up every morning, stomping around the house looking for my hair brush and cursing about never being able to find anything, repeatedly, day after day when I had to go to work!!

Also, even though you can quickly and decisively name impatience in others, that does you absolutely no good. You can only change that pattern in yourself. Your own healing of this imbalance will affect those around you.

What does impatience look like in your life? How does it specifically manifest? Pick one instance where you have been impatient with self or others, to further explore.

2. A second step in this process is to name all the ways impatience in the situation you have named is benefiting you. For me, it benefited me because it allowed me to get out my impatience with myself in a safe private environment before I was publicly at work. The ranting also kept me in touch with my power, as distorted as that was, because I felt trapped by the daily routine of going to that job. Giving power to my impatience provided me a forum to rail without any perceived consequences to myself. I could let loose and not hurt anyone but myself.

How does the impatience in the situation you have identified, benefit you? What pay offs are your getting from you impatience in this situation?

3. The third step is to consider the costs of this continued set of behaviors to yourself and to others. In my case, it was very unpleasant for my husband to witness this self-condemnation on my part every morning I had to work. Though I seemed to be getting in touch with what I thought of as power, really, I was venting my impatience with myself all over the house. This made it very difficult to get to work with grace and ease, actually, next to impossible. I don’t think grace and ease were even in my vocabulary at the time.

What are the costs to yourself and to others of continuing with this form of impatience with yourself or others?

4. The fourth area to explore is what specific fears are fueling the impatience with self or with others. In my case, my fears were of losing the “me” I liked, by being in a job I was not happy with. Another fear was that I was losing my sense of my 0wn power by needing to “fit in” to the organization where I was working. Another fear was of never getting to where I could really make a difference through what I was doing.

What specific fears are fueling the impatience with self or with others?

When the fears are specifically named, you are ready to decide if you would like these to leave your energy field for good. If so, continue with the next section for how to do that. If not, perhaps you can return to this when you feel ready to release the fears manifesting in your life as impatience with self or others.

Clearing the energy behind impatience.

There are a few basic concepts which will support this clearing of blocked energy manifesting as impatience. The first is that impatience is not an eternal energy. It is not of the family of love and therefore is fleeting, passing and is not a permanent fixture of our own true selves. We may have this trait for months, years or lifetimes but none the less, it is a passing trait which we can release if we are so inclined. Secondly, we have the deep knowing of All That Is within us. We are one with God/The Great Oneness/All That Is. We may not feel we are connected to this knowing, but we are. We need to claim this connection and releasing that which is not of love, in any form, strengthens that connection on our side. From the “other side” that connection is constant, everlasting and steadfast. Thirdly, if we command blocked energy out of our field, it will go. Until you have experience doing this, you have to simply do it and see. Then the experience of cleared energy will be known to you in this time and space and the process will become easier over time.

The clearing process begins with intent. One day I decided that I no longer wanted impatience in my energy field. Thus began a series of letting go and clearing of impatience energy from all areas of my life. I imagine there is still more to do but the backlog has been addressed! We get as many chances as we need. We can do the work now or do the work later. This is a loving step towards claiming the power and peace of our own true selves. Every one of us is capable of being patient with ourselves and others. We simply need to call out the blocked energy manifesting as impatience and call forth love to replace it.

Steps to Clear Impatience from you Field

1. Reopen your sacred healing space or restate your intent to work within that space if you have already opened it that day. ( see above)

2. Call forth the sacred flame from within you.

This flame is the form of God, All That Is, the Great Oneness which is within each of us. It knows nothing beyond the Presence of God. It is the energy of our own I AM Energy and of the Great I AM Energy in the same moment. Further, the Sacred or Eternal Flame is constant, all powerful, all knowing and everywhere present. We are in good hands with this image of Divine Oneness! Say, “I call forth the Eternal Flame from within me.”

3. Call out all the blocked fear energy you have identified in your field which is manifesting as impatience. Say something like, ” Sacred Flame consume the blocked fear of ______ which is manifesting as impatience with myself and others. ” You can call out all the specific fears you have identified from Step 4 above, at the same time.

4. Call out the core of the blocked energy from the specific year, month and day of its inception into you field. Say something like, ” I call forth this blocked fear of ____________ from all time and space from the specific year, month and day of its inception into my energy field which is now manifesting as impatience with myself and with others. Consume the original blocked energy source of this impatience from my energy field totally and completely.”

All that can go in the given day, will leave your energy field. However, you may have to repeat this process many times until the manifestation of all impatience leaves your field. Each time you do this, more and more blocked energy will leave your field forever!

5. Call in the Presence of Divine Love in the place where the fear has been. Say something like, I call forth the Presence of Divine Love into my thinking, feeling, acting self where this blocked fear energy has resided manifesting as impatience with myself and others.

6. Give thanks for the loving support of the sacred healing space. Say something like, Thank you so much for this opportunity, for the clearing and for the reconnection with Divine Love.

Blessing to all who come this way! If you try this process, share your results with us here that we may witness each other’s efforts and share in the energy of seeking greater Peace individually and collectively. If you do not see the “reply box” here, click on the Title and you will be taken to the Internet space to leave a comment.

Sep 11 2009

Patience is love of self, part 1

Patience is a form of love. It is the letting go of the need to control all that is happening around us. It is the cultivation of trust that all is well even if at the moment, our plans and expectations are not being met as we envisioned that happening. Patience begins with ourselves. We can’t really offer patience to another freely if we can’t offer it to ourselves. We can offer it but perhaps with strings attached or at a price if we have not really embraced patience within ourselves at a deep level.

Drepung Gomang Monastery in Nashua, NH by stargazr

Often when I work with those who self-report they are impatient in their lives, including myself, the core blocked energy has begun as impatience due to a critical view of ones accomplishments, mastery, self-perceived expertise or skills. There is a deeply held myth that if we are critical of ourselves, we will work harder than if we are complimentary of ourselves. Neither statement is true, in the sense of eternal and lasting because both views are evaluative and therefore not accepting of what is in the present moment.

Here are two contrasting thoughts on the same day by a person before he opened to Peace and just after he asked for Divine Presence in his day.

Damn it, why can’t I ever get my things together and get out of the house on Saturday in an orderly timely manner. One thing after another and I have shot the whole bloody day.

I just can’t seem to focus for some reason today to get the things done I wanted to. I wonder what else I need to be doing on a day like today?

The first is self-judgmental in tone with anger and impatience with self. The second is loving and accepting of what is, with a sense of wonder about what else might be going on.

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Impatience is often wrapped up with time stress. If I could just get this last thing done and off my list, I could have a bit more freedom tomorrow. If I could just fit this last errand in, I would feel I had accomplished something. If I could just make time work for me, the way I envision it, I can perhaps get everything done I need to and then I’d be able to relax. As long as we tie our amount of relaxation to accomplishment, we are living in the greater context of impatience. If were were patient and in Right Relationship with time, we could simply look at the clock and say, “Right, time for exercise, this can wait for tomorrow.” Often these decisions are within our own control but we give our power to time stress and impatience.

Impatience is the gap between our expectations and what is.

What if we had no expectations of how or when something might be done? What if we made a sacred commitment to something and let Divine Presence lead us as to when and how that might be accomplished with grace and ease?

When I was 38, I was seriously working my desire to be a spiritual healer. I was enthusiastically consuming two or three books a week. I was devouring all the workshops I could fit in and spending huge amounts of time in Silence. I was also regularly talking fervently to God about becoming a spiritual healer. From this vantage point, I see I was simultaneously afraid I was not going to make it to my goal and also afraid I would get there and not know what I was doing. This was all mixed in with some quandaries about my sanity given that I knew no one going about this like I was. These feeling though I closely held to myself.

In fairness, there were no proven paths to becoming a spiritual healer when I was entertaining this. I did not know where the inner call came from but I did know that I was passionate about it beyond anything I could control. There was however a deep level of impatience with the slow methodical process of gaining skills and confidence in spiritual healing.

The zeal I had for “getting this stuff” was crackling with energy and drive. I loved the high of learing about spiritual healing. So, when I finished my studies, wrote my last paper, was ordained as a minister of spiritual healing, I thought, ” AT LAST, I am ready to go.” Looking back my struggle with impatience though had just begun.

As I worked, I realized how green I was. I knew I was afraid of getting in over my head. I dreaded someone coming in and wanting to work on something I knew nothing about. I kept wondering how is this all going to work its way out? How am I ever going to come in to a place of Peace about this work I felt so energized around?

Silence, silence and more silence. That was the answer for me. I was to sit and sit and sit some more while Divine Presence worked on me. I was to face my judgment head on, rout out my issues, one my one, and continuously name the doubts and fears I was giving my power to. Slowly, slowly, as I would work through a set of issues say around pride, I’d get three clients working on the same issues, no kidding. Everything came in threes. If I had looked at the issues manifesting as sore knees, three clients would come in with the same issues to look at for themselves. This went on for years and years.

Patience, patience, patience kept coming up. I had to systematically and continuously let go of my expectations and embrace what was. When I didn’t, I would routinely hit a brick wall and feel bruised on every conceiveable level. Whenever I would race ahead and wonder, why am I not able to hear what is needed for another? Why am I not feeling connected to this client in the way I want to be? I would crash and burn usually trashing myself in the process. I had no colleagues who could say, good job. I was the ONLY person who could say that to myself because of the isolated and confidential nature of my work.

I had to methodically learn to love myself and in the process give up my impatience with not being perfect!! No one told me this journey was about these things. It just is though.

New week, Part 2 , Calling out impatience within ourselves.

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