anxiety

Feb 02 2011

The Neggies

I had a neighbor once who when asked how things were going would sometimes reply, we have the neggies. I loved that because it was so expressive. The neggies can overtake a whole group when complaining, arguing and bickering breaks out. For me, the neggies often show up when my body hurts, when I am feeling overwhelmed, unproductive or when I have no time to take care of myself. This looks like washing my hair at 12:45 AM or trying to dry clothes at 6 AM for the coming day!

Frequently when these thoughts and feelings begin to invade my space, all the above feelings come at the same time. It is as if, when I open that doorway to one little neggie, all the other little neggies lurking in the background gang up on me and have to get their kicks in as well. Recently for example, I was “over” solid booked for weeks with clients. I contracted a sinus infection, then a major virus over Christmas (ugh) and t0 top it all off, I fell while cross-country skiing and badly sprained my knee. I think sometimes these things come all together to get me to pay attention and ask what in the world is going on here with me? The neggies are invading!

Seriously though, when this happens I am not a happy camper. I frequently am anxious and prickly and don’t sleep well and can’t even be dressed up to be taken out anywhere. That’s the biggest clue that I have succumbed, when I can’t even be roused to put on a good face to go out. Alas, time for serious self-searching.

Though I can write about this state of affairs with levity, I assure you when I am in that state, I am really not centered and in serious need of clearing and balance. I have also noticed people taking wide berths around me and the wearing of velvet gloves.

So having been recently in an expanded state of the neggies, here is what Divine Guidance came up with for me. Be quiet, have a day of doing little or nothing, get frustrated, get angry, get sad, be quiet again, and then finally ask WHAT AM I DOING TO ATTRACT THESE EXPERIENCES TO ME ??

Looking at attracting the neggies and manifesting imbalance comes from the spiritual view that we create our own experiences of our lives. We can be as angry, sad, depressed, fearful, joyful, grateful or as accommodating as we can imagine. It is our choice. When my body hurts, I have a choice to obsess about the pain or to get some help from preparations, pills or from people. I also have a choice about how I react to hurting. I can attend to it and then do something that focuses my mind differently or I can feel sorry for myself and eat. I can complain to whomever will listen or I can be still and call forth new balance in my body. I usually do a mixture of haranguing and harumphing before I realize that this does not help me at all. Then I try to move directly to the deep well within, which is very patient with me I have noticed, until I remember to call forth my I AM Energy for the re-balancing of whatever is setting me off.

Here is what that looks like for me. There is only One Power, One Presence, One Energy Source. That Energy and Presence is pure, unadulterated Love which is waiting for me to call it forth. I say something like this.

I call forth my I AM Energy (Highest Self) to infuse my mind, my heart, my body, my affairs and my home with Love, Light and Balance. I release all the blocked energy I am carrying which is manifesting as my hurting body and my complaining self. I command out my blocked emotional, mental, thermal ( self-protective) and spiritual energy which is producing this imbalance in my body and my mind. I ask forgiveness of my body for creating this imbalance and this hurt I am experiencing. Come forth. Let there be balance in my body. And So It Is. My thanks.

Why does this work?

It works because we are all, everyone one of us, Divine Energy regardless of the circumstances of our lives here. We can command this I AM Energy, our Highest Self, because we are eternally connected to this energy even though we may not be conscious of this.

This works because I am calling out the blocked negative energy which I have created my very own self in my human life. If my intention is for that stuck energy to go, it will go. I command it out and that stuck energy goes because I am the total creator of that energy in the first place.

This approach works because I am taking full responsibility for the neggies, I am feeling. In doing that, I re-engage with my own power and redirect it to the source of the negative feelings and the source of the imbalance or pain.

This way of working with imbalance recognizes the Divine Presence within which is eternal and on call, 24-7.

Try a different approach to the imbalances in your life. Try something you may not have tried before or may have tried not believing it could work for you. The first time I worked with deep pain in my back in this way, the pain instantly subsided. In complete astonishment, I burst into tears. I could hardly take it in. The pain was completely gone for 1 entire day. I was so overcome though by self-” neggie” talk that I began doubting that the shift had taken place at all. I could not trust the shift in energy. So, the next day the pain was back. That was a HUGE learning for me.

Stand fully in the knowing that you have all the power, right, authority, intention and all the chutzpah necessary to command your I AM Energy to manifest balance in your life. When I was learning to do this for myself , I tried to embrace infinite possibility with a measure of humility, two nods of passion, a thimble of mystery and a shot of gratitude. See what works for you and let us hear from you.

Apr 23 2010

Gratitude: for others, for our Earth

Gratitude and negativity can not exist at the same time. Gratitude and worry can not hold the same space. Neither can gratitude and anger, blame or resentment coexist together. Therefore choosing the energy of gratitude is a life giving activity.

It fills up the places where draining energy might have dared to roam. Being grateful takes us out of negative attention and connects us with Love. Gratitude is a part of the large body of Love feelings which are available to us. How can we cultivate gratitude?

One early step towards gratitude is to be aware of times and places when we are feeling angry and drained. We have to train the mind to “jump the track” to gratitude when we are angry, frustrated or feeling simply down. We can focus on that which is draining energy or that which is life affirming and the later creates good endorphins throughout the body. This then helps us glide through situations which might have snagged our good feelings in the past. If we practice focusing on our blessings and on that for which we are grateful, we literally feed ourselves a diet of Love. This affects every single aspect of our lives, including our chemical balance, our ability to sleep soundly and our ability to attract mates or live peacefully with the mates we have.

Gratitude energy is of a very high vibration, not simply the fleeting thought of gratitude but the real feeling of being grateful for the blessings we have. This actually opens and strengthens our connection with the Divine Presence as well, because we begin to exude Love energy which attracts us to Divine Presence. This is a totally awesome experience filled with love and support which can only improve our lives.

In fact, developing the choice for gratitude is a wonderful way to become closer and more connected with All That Is on many levels. When we feel grateful or appreciative, we actually calm our nervous system. This brings us into greater balance and we cultivate the feelings of goodness and well being. So the question is why would we not choose to live in this energy all the time? Basically, fear. Fear keeps us in a state of vigilance, anxiety, stress or all three. Fear and gratitude are not compatible with each other.

Beth kept feeling fear and anxiety for her son, Greg. In fact, every time she thought of Greg, her body constricted due to her very real concerns about him. She was afraid that he would suffer because of his excessive weight. She was concerned that he was not happy in his job and she worried that his current relationship was unsupportive. She was unable to think about Greg without a sense of deep sadness, worry and discomfort. Their interactions began to suffer, become strained and eventually Greg did not want to see his mother very much at all. This added to Beth’s angst and generally sense of loss and impotence regarding her son. She needed a change of thoughts and feelings regarding her son.

" Attitude ... Eye choose the left side " by gmayster01 .... Trying to keep up !

Beth began by writing down all the fears she was carrying about Greg and his life. She named over 22 fears she had for her son. She allowed as how it was probably impossible for him to come for a visit and not feel the energy of fear she had for him. One by one, she began to call out the specific fears she had for Greg and turn them over to All That Is/Divine Oneness/God. At the SAME time, she began to list the things she was grateful for about her son. This was a much harder list to compile because she hardly ever thought in this way. Eventually, though there was a complete shift in her thinking about her son. She began to fill her thoughts with the energy of gratitude and this began to transform their time together and their relationship. Love heals anything and gratitude is a form of Love, pure and simple.

This is also true about our Earth. When we feel gratitude towards her beauty, it is a healing energy. When we drink in the beauty of a sunset or bask in the warming rays of the sun or work with our flowers or food, and feel gratitude, we become a healing presence for Mother Earth. It is harder to feel gratitude for our Earth if we are worrying about pollution, animal extinction, strip mining, insect imbalances, genetically enhanced foods, clear cutting, pesticides and dwindling oil supplies. If this is your relation with our Earth, consider praying to Divine Presence to bring forth re-balancing energy for Mother Earth. This is something we can readily do which can clear us of the draining energy of worry and concern. This allows us to focus on the gratitude we feel for the beauty of the Earth, and we can stay in a state of gratitude for the other aspects of the Earth which feed our soul.

Prayer Process for our Earth

1. Open a Sacred healing circle with your highest I AM self, the Angelic Host and the Ascended Masters. You can include any and all Divine Presence you want to help you hold the space.

2. Set the intention to call forth Divine Healing Energy for Planet Earth.

3. Clear you own concern, fear, anger or sense of outrage regarding Earth conditions which you know are particularly draining you.

Sacred Flame, I call forth my blocked emotional, mental, thermal (protective) and spiritual energy originating from this lifetime or from any previous lifetime which is manifesting as my outrage with the practices of strip mining I am seeing in West Virginia. ( fill in the blank for you)

4. Call for the Sacred Flame, the Presence of All That Is which knows nothing but the Divine, to clear blocked energies manifesting as imbalances on our Earth.

Sacred Flame (Divine Presence in this form) clear the blocked emotional, mental, thermal and spiritual energies from our Earth from this century and from any previous centuries which are now manifesting as strip mining in West Virginia. I call for energy of the Great I AM/Divine Presence/Mighty God to fill the strip mining industry with the perfect vibrations to bring strip mining into Right Relationship with All That Is.

5. My deep appreciation and lasting thanks.

In the process of clearing our blocked energy and blocked energy from other sources, we ourselves benefit greatly by being able to remain in a state of gratitude. When we are in a state of gratitude, this grows and blesses all whom we meet and all we come in contact with including our Sacred Planet.

Dec 16 2009

Anxiety

Anxiety is the sense of feeling overwhelmed, apprehensive, out of control and tense regarding something, frequently in the future. Often our minds rush ahead in time to anticipate all sorts of negative scenarios for us to consider including just how badly we might mess up or fail, and just how awful the consequences might be for us. Therefore, many folks dealing with anxiety steadfastly avoid situations they know have stimulated past feelings of anxiety.

Aren’t those situation the whole root of the anxiety in the first place? Actually, no, they are not! No situation, relationship or person is the actual root of anxiety. Anxiety has core roots in our thoughts, emotions and past feelings associated with a person, situation or type of relationship. Until we actually go into the midst of the anxiety and try to debunk it, we are likely to remain its victim for a long time.

Terry had anxiety attacks every time she had to face exams. She could feel the anxiety begin to swell about two or three weeks before exams.

She would eat non-stop, toss and turn at night and she became seriously grouchy with everyone. It was a pattern she knew well from her childhood which was getting worse and worse in university. She essentially went into pre-exam jitters twice a year without fail. By the second semester of her junior year she was literally having panic attacks when she would try to begin studying for exams. She would be in the library and have to leave because she was breaking out in a sweat and beginning to shake. She kept hoping this would all go away but the severity of it got her to eventually seek help.

Rajiv experienced anxiety every time he needed to drive to a new place or ended up in an unfamiliar place. Therefore, he avoided such possibilities at all costs, thinking this would keep him from having these feelings. He never willingly drove to new places, even with a GPS system for fear of getting lost. The anxiety though began to seep into all driving situations where he might possibly end up being lost, such as taking friends to unfamiliar places and giving folks lifts home from parties. When Rajiv did on occasion did get lost, he would have to stop the car to and try to calm his breathing and then frequently he would have trouble driving again. He also on occasion had begun to shake when he was lost in unfamiliar surroundings.

Both Terry and Rajiv were having anxiety at serious enough levels to disrupt their lives. Both felt they were victims of something they did not understand and that was even more fearful than they could speak about. Their reactions privately were feelings of being at fault, lacking and broken because of their anxious reactions to normal life experiences. Recurring anxiety has ramifications far beyond the specific instance of anxious feelings. The sense of shame often connected with recurring anxiety is one of the biggest costs to a person.

Perhaps more than with other feelings, the sources of anxiety can be elusive. Unexamined anxiety tends to grow and grow until it can become crippling and completely removed from the original source of the anxiety. In contrast, we often have some sense of where jealousy, guilt or anger may have begun in our past. With anxiety, there is a tendency to strongly avoid all past anxiety producing experiences in an effort to avoid another “anxiety incident”. As these experiences are linked with past fears of failing, embarrassment or of loss of control, a common strategy is to energetically surround certain experiences with a “keep out” warning. Both Terry and Rajiv thought that their individual experiences were causing their anxiety. However, their experiences were merely the current triggers for the anxiety response.

The core reason behind anxiety comes from blocked energy from our past which is showing up in the present, as anxiety. The blocked energy can be emotional, mental, thermal (protective “second skin”) energy or spiritual/fear energy. Any or all of these types of energy can contribute to the manifesting of anxiety in our current lives. When we unblock the original blocked energy manifesting as anxiety, the anxiety will stop. What a concept! Yes, the anxiety can stop even in response to the exact same situations where there has been anxiety in the past. In my experience, balance is restored much faster when we work in sacred space in partnership with All That Is/God/Divine Goodness/Higher Power.

Here are some concrete steps to come into balance regarding anxiety. Speak each step of this process out loud so that you give it form, substance and therefore power in this dimension.

1. Open a Sacred Healing space by calling forth your Highest (I AM ) Self and Divine Presence in whatever form you desire ( Angels, Jesus, Mary, Ascended Masters, Divine Cosmic Light Beings, etc.)

I open a Sacred Healing space with my Highest Self and the energy of the Ascended Masters, Mary and all other forms of the Divine Presence I need for this healing.

2. Name the specific anxiety you are addressing today.

I experience anxiety whenever I face visiting with my spouse’s family.

3. State your intention for healing and energy release.

My intention is to release all the original blocked energy I am carrying which is currently manifesting as anxiety when I have to visit my spouse’s family.

4. Call out the original blocked energy manifesting as anxiety in your life now. ( Divine Knowing, knows the source of this anxiety already however you must command it out of your energy field to be free of its impact on you.)

a. I command out the original blocked energy from the specific year, month and day of its inception into my energy field which is now manifesting as anxiety when I have to visit my spouse’s family. Take all this old stuck energy from my field completely.

b. I call forth the Eternal Flame within me. Eternal Flame consume all the core blocked energy from the specific year, month and day of its inception into my field which is now manifesting as anxiety when I have to visit my spouse’s family.

5. Sit in the sacred space for a few minutes until you feel settled.

6. Give thanks for the release of the old stuck energy which has manifest as anxiety.

Thank you so much for the clearing of this old energy. I welcome continued guidance and support in how to face other areas where I still hold anxiety. I am very grateful.

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You have most probably spent months or years manifesting anxiety. Therefore, you may need to call for the clearing of this energy more than one time. Further, we need to call for the clearing of blocked energy from each situation where we experience anxiety. The pattern of anxiety may be our response to several different situations but may stem from different origins in our past. Keep working this material in this way until the anxieties are completely gone. When you get there, you will experience a new sense of freedom and power.

You are a Being of the Light. Therefore, you must command the Light into places where you need it. Write and let us know how you are doing!

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