balance

May 28 2020

Keeper of Your Gate

There is no other keeper of your gate but you
You have helpers along the way
Those who parented you and loved you
Those who befriended you and taught you

In the end though you are the sole keeper of your gate
You decide what to focus on and who to let in
You decide what you feel and how to react to those feelings
You decide what is worthy of your attention and what is not

You make all the choices of what and who can enter
Based on all the love and hurts you have ever experienced
You draw to yourself all the wonderful and awful
Experiences you need to come clean with yourself

Every life is a balance of the good and the bad
You have to sort it though and decide what to allow
What you will put up with and who you will tolerate
Those people who are helpful and those who are not

This can feel incredibly overwhelming
The sense that is it all up to you
That each choice or decision is solely up to you
This is not fully true, nor your only alternative

The experience of feeling alone and wholly responsible
Is the human interpretations of a lifetime
There is a spiritual dimension that can also be present
That choice is to connect to all the Love energy available

What if you tried to connect your heart to Love
Every single moment of the day and night?
What if you asked for Divine help to do this?
Knowing you will always be heard and supported

Not so alone, not so solely responsible for your life’s trajectory
What if you truly sought the guidance of the Great Spirit?
Try it. Nothing keeps you from opening to Divine Love
And seeing where it leads you. Seeing where you are taken.

You really have nothing to lose but unhealed inner negativity
You have everything to gain, a pathway to Peace and Balance
You will also be accompanied if you call this energy into your life
You have to give permission though for help to be given to you

Take a leap into the arms of Divine Love and Knowing
You are already wired for this, by being in body
You have already committed to learn everything needed to come to Peace
However, you must still activate this call to Divine Source again, now

You may think you have set up your life to work with Spirit before you came in
However, until you consciously make that choice again in body
You will not be fully able to work with Spirit because of Free Will
You have to call in the Presence of Divine Love now for it to manifest

It is not a hard thing to do
Only you may need to set down
The feeling that you do not deserve
To know God’s presence

That is a human issue, fully coming out of false self-perceptions
Set those down, call the Divine energy in anyway
The act of calling in the Presence of All That Is
Will set you on a renewed path to Inner Peace, Kindness, and Love

May 21 2020

Your Emerging Love

There is another reality you can know if you clear away the darkness
That energy is God energy, Love energy, Balanced energy
That energy is always present but when dissonance persists
You lose the connection and can begin to feel alone, unconnected

This spiritual reality can sometimes be seen in others
For you though, it can primarily be felt in your heart
That reality is Love vibrating larger than any other feelings
That Oneness energy is calling you to your own true self

Ah, the darkness you carry and the heartache you endure
This is all on the path to knowing Divine connection
Unless you struggle with your fears and angst, and win
The spiritual reality gets buried over by unhealed feelings and experiences

Connecting with The Oneness has to become a daily ritual
Like getting dressed, brushing your teeth, and having breakfast
Otherwise the repetitive irritations overwhelm your intentions to be at peace
The imbalanced thoughts and doubts overrun you as if they were real

The only lasting energy is Love, Kindness, Compassion and Divine Source
All else shows itself, masquerading as real, demanding your reactions
Commanding you to attend to the dissonance not because it is lasting
Because it is the way forward to Peace and a solid connection with Love

In the end though the choice is yours and yours alone
You can live your life with a lukewarm connection with Spirit
Hey! lots of people do this their entire lifetime, actually every lifetime
Or you can resolve to clear the persistent marauders out of your energy field

Faith and believing can carry you part way to Divine connection
You can stay there your entire life, lifetimes in fact, over and over again
Or you can face the bedeviling feelings within Sacred Space
And make progress in letting go of all your fears and doubts

Underneath the fears and doubts, is the Peace of All That Is
Truly it is always waiting for you to become better connected
So go into those negative self-perceptions you have and cast them out
Release the jealousies, the anger, the prideful comments, and accusations

Every single time you release some dark feeling that is temporarily demanding
You take a step closer to Divine Source, your consciousness of Divine Love expands
One negative released energy at a time, ad infinitum, continuously and
Through the fog, the Divine Love of self and others emerges out of the chaos

May 15 2020

Where Can I Go for Peace?

Where can I go to find peace within?
I am so easily knocked off balance these days
I want to be at peace and feel optimistic
But seriously look at our state of affairs

The kids are so frustrated and antsy
I have all this work expected of me
The house is a mess with no one to help
The TV is on all the time due to boredom

I don’t even have a place of my own in this house
I sometimes find a place to hide and try to rebalance
But I do not have much practice at how to do this
I really despair when I am so snippy and irritated

Writing helps sometimes, when I write, Dear God
When I can pour my feelings out, I begin to feel better
I begin to let the stress release and the negativity balance
I have to remember though to call in help so something clears

If I write and don’t ask for help, the stuff stays around
I feel the words dancing through my mind all day
I revisit all the hard feelings and they simply grow
That just gets me deeper into not being at peace

I am not sure how this whole thing works
I haven’t really written out my feelings in eons
I guess I am asking the Universe for help
That is what I feel anyway. That is what I hope.

Every time I wade into tomorrow, next week or this summer
I feel anxious and fearful that this isolation will continue
That I won’t be able to cope, nor will the kids
That I will just melt and run out of the house screaming

Showers help but only then I wash my hair and cry
Then I feel somehow cleansed and able to start again
Walking helps but with the kids it is mostly about them
Good for them but not always renewing for me

When I return, I lock myself in the bedroom, with guilt
Write to Dear God again, transferring my angst to the page
Getting it out of me and somewhere safe so I don’t lash out
Come Peaceful Presence right into me and mine, with Thanks!

Apr 23 2020

Balance and Grace

There is a patter in my heart that I know as living
It is a steady beat that offers a familiar, safe background
To all that is going on that is not steady and acceptable
To all the fear, loss, pain and suffering of invading dangers

This same reliability resides in the cheery morning song birds
In the ocean’s continuous ebbs and flows, dependable to the minute
The grains of wet packed sand feel solid even while ever shifting
I need to be reminded of the reliable grace of nature

In these times of required isolation, nature holds the promise of life
Returning to normal, as the flowering of nature spectacularly arrives
Even though the flowers are temporarily present by design
They form an orchestrated coming alive as if being conducted

Every awakening shrub, flower and tree is here to support me
In my sustained hibernation and isolation from others
The magnificence of every living thing is bursting around me
Holding the space for freedom of movement to manifest again

I would love to have enough profound love be able to envelop us
In ways that would fully protect us from viruses running rampant
From bodies succumbing to the ravages of fever and infection
From our own deep darknesses feeding the exploding virus

Alas, the work is within, within our fear, our discomfort, our doubt
It is within the depression that comes from worry, black thoughts
The work is seeking inner peace, joy, kindness, and above all balance
Requiring infinitesimal adjustments minute by minute

Then I remember to get outside to the living, vibrating nature
To breath deeply this day, to honor this day and this body
To hold the space for all that is swirling with danger to settle
For the Oneness to help, as we millions call back balance and grace

Mar 18 2020

Fear Taints Everything

Fear is an all-encompassing emotion
It has a very long shelf life, left unattended
It gets denser and more at home over time
It profoundly affects your sense of what is

To dig out fear, you have to suspect it may be present
You have to name it as best you can
Including all the symptoms known and unknown
While commanding it out of your own energy field

Banish it from all four fields of consciousness
Every smidgen of fear that is not conscious
Still has a huge and lasting impact on you
Fear resides at the subconscious and soul level

Fear can hang out in your unconscious field
Fear can be consciously with your all the time
That makes a whole whopping lot of fear
You need to be sure all of it leaves your being

This is a lifelong task that only you can undertake
It insures you are not run by unnamed fears
That you can stop lashing out with unbridled anger
That you can disengage from all forms of hatred

Asking for forgiveness only goes so far
If you keep repeating the fear-based responses
Blowing up and regularly going totally ballistic
Others distance and protect themselves from you

Asking for forgiveness for the umpteenth time
Is also too little too late, especially with loved ones
Your responsibility is to seek the source of your fear
Then do your utmost to clear the fear from your field

Get to it because any effort works better than
Living and being run by unnamed fears
All efforts lead towards reaching the core
Source of the fear and anger, to free you forever

Facing fear takes guts and repeated efforts
It requires you to take off your public mask
Get into your heart and name the fear
Even while you may be afraid it will devour you

Sticking your fearful head in the sand
Does not EVER work, though you do get
All the chances you need to keep avoiding
The fears, while amassing all the consequences

You can wait until the consequences are severe
So that you have to make amends with everyone
Or step up now before the abysmal consequences
Of being run by fears create profound suffering