August 2009 – Robbins Hopkins

Infinite Source

Infinite Source means just that, the Source of All That Is has no boundaries, limits or perimeters. It is vast possibility without any limitation. This is a challenging concept to grasp, and even harder to actualize in our lives. Both are possible though and embracing Infinite Source is life changing.

Infinite Source means there is no shortage of supply, love, wealth, humor, creativity, food, health, peace, balance, etc. Infinite Source is one of the immutable Laws of Creation. Yet, we experience all sorts of limitations on Earth and in our lives at the present time. This earth dimension we live in, does not generally recognize Infinite Source in our daily lives. It is seen as a theoretical possibility for the most part which we generally do not know how to activate. So for practical purposes, it does not exist.

I would like to challenge this view and suggest that we need to pick up all our threads of creativity and imagination and launch ourselves and our lives into the energy of Infinite Source to more effortlessly and effectively help us with what we have come to do in this lifetime. We create the stifling limits within which we live, operate, breath and create. We, with our own minds, think as humans think, with boundaries, issues, concerns, problems, limitations, conditions, improbabilities and nay saying.

What if there really are no actual boundaries except the ones we are giving our power to in this lifetime? Perhaps we have all bought into accepted conventions and agreed to standard deviations for conditions, improbabilities and nay-saying? Maybe there is a field out there where you and I will meet and none of this will actually matter. Let’s say we could really live in full acceptance of Infinite Source even in one area of our lives. Might it be worth giving it a try?

Repeatedly throughout my years of spiritual seeking, the one thing that comes to me over and over again is that I think too small, envision with limitations, doubt the vastness of the Whole and generally look upon the Divine with human eyes and thoughts. Of course, I am human! However, I don’t think that my humanness is the authority by which I live and create. My “I AM” energy is the authority by which I live and create. My Oneness with All That Is is the authority by which I harness goodness and create with love. In contrast, my humanness is often the wagging finger energy standing at the doorway of my mind saying, “un-uh, you can’t do that, that is not possible, that is dreamy eyed thinking, that is absurd, just fool’s folly”. For years and years, I listened to what was not possible, not probable and gave that energy a great deal of power.

Those years were generously filled with physical pain and suffering on my part. Of course, I was giving my energy and power to many things that I thought I was going to have to do which I would not like, would be bad at doing or better yet would probably fail at. UGH!! I was immediately caught up short when I realized one day that I had really, really had chronic back pain for 16 years. I was totally surprised at this on one level because I secretly thought of myself as a jock. Well, I was, in one part of my brain. I had commuted to work with my bike, I had played tennis and taught Jazzercise, taken yoga and loved to swim. I had walked regularly and weight lifted whenever my body allowed. It seemed very weird that somehow I had become a handicapped person with this chronic pain. The insurance companies would concur with this accessment given all the doctors I was seeing.

For a while this realization of these years of pain, made me seriously angry with my body. I was also furious with everyone that pain was my constant companion. I eventually became outwardly angry and negative until that wore both me and my family out. I then became quiet in my suffering ( for a very short while) and eventually I had the thought, perhaps I could be pain free. This was the first time in 16 years that I had had that thought. It was just a glimmer of hope but it fueled a huge change within me.

This has been my very own, self-created, experience at limiting my life, my health, my options. I really did buy into the fact that I would probably be in pain my entire life. However, I became more and more determined to seek another reality for me. I was completely fatigued and impatient with doctors, body workers, therapists of all sorts. One therapist told me I was psychologically ill and the pain was all imagined. Another said I was one of the sanest persons she had had the privilege to meet. I thought then and there, I think I’ll believe the last one. It feels better. And thus, I began looking for that elusive Infinite Source. I did not know that was what IT was called then but I do now. I now know that my thoughts become my reality. I can choose to create conditions, boundaries, prerequisites, or limitations or not. The choice is mine.

Usually when I am angry, frustrated, impatient or snippy, I am giving my power to limitations, conditions and fears which are working me in negative ways. When I am peaceful, happy, loving and understanding, I am going with the flow. Infinite Source is a huge vastness of possibility and there are absolutely no bounds on that Source except the ones we create.

When I finally got that I might be able to live in greater health with pain free energy, I began to see all sorts of new help around me that had always been there. I had just not seen it. The limitations which I had made my reality, literally blocked the channels of Infinite Source around me. I began to change what I thought was true, who I spent time with, what I spent time doing and how I characterized myself to myself, and to others. I tried out aspects of Infinite Source such as “if I don’t give it a try, who will?” and “when will it be a good enough time to do something I love?” and “who is your authority here anyway?” and finally, “girl, figure out what you love and do it!”. And slowly I did. I have now been pain free with the exception of normal bumps and bruises for so many years that I know I will continue pain free, the remainder of my life.

Take a leap of faith and truly imagine what has seemed impossible for you.

Call forth Divine Assistance and go for it.

Counter the nay- sayers within and without with calm resolve.

Honor your path as part of the learning process that leads to our own true selves, pain included.

Proclaim Infinite Source and give your power to those possibilities, without bounds, in all situations.

Try giving your power to imagining and working with Infinite Source. You will truly experience that Infinite Source is seriously real. The only boundaries and limitations we have are the ones we accept and create for ourselves.

Being Eternal

When all seems to be said and done, there is still more to handle, respond to, and integrate, always and forever! We are never said and done. We are never completely finished, not in death, not in life, not in work, not in love.

There is always more awaiting us when we are ready to receive it, into our knowing. We are ETERNAL. We are eternally presented with more of something or another. Even in the most severely extreme actions taken to end a life, one is never said and done. It is impossible to finish or end ourselves. We are always with our being whatever dimension we are living in. This is an absolute truth for all beings, everywhere.

Eventually, sometime, somewhere we will begin to hear the small voice of All That Is which is always with us whether we attend to that voice or not. Even at the end of deeply destructive action, we come face-to-face with ourselves and we are IT. There is no getting away from us, from our thoughts, words, deeds and actions. We are IT.

Being Eternal is a forever process.

Our beings repeatedly move from one dimension to another and pick up where we left off. We still have to face the same heartache, the same sadness, the same misperceptions, the same feeling of disconnection from God and Divine Love. As above, so below. As below, so above. We are the creators of our own lives. We are the ones who make choices with what we are given. We are the ones who give meaning and power to the things which happen to us. We can do the clearing work now or do the clearing work later, the choice is ours but the blocked energy NEVER simply goes away on its own.

We are inextricably part of All That Is, in mind, body and soul regardless of what we have done, what we are thinking, what we are presently doing or not doing or what we will chose to do in the future. We create our own lives, the good and the bad, for the sole purpose of healing our souls from the separateness we feel from the Greater Whole. Why do bad things happen to us? Why do good things happen to us? We are on a journey and each of us will have the precise and exact situations we need to heal our souls.

Upon my return from India three years ago, I experienced 10 days of amoebic dysentery and 4 weeks of a serious, painful knee infection which had me in bed for over 2 weeks and on crutches for another 2 weeks beyond that, affecting all my systems because of the bacteria.

I had been on a spiritual journey to an ashram while in India. You can imagine my outrage, anger and ranting about having such a thing happen to me when I had “put out” so much to make that trip! What had I done “to deserve that reaction” in my life? I was not at this level of outrage on the first day of the dysentery nor even during the first week of the infection but as it wore on and on, I wore out, more and more. I felt exhaustion, weakness, pain, pain, pain and then anger, fear, rage, blame and finally release. Ah, the sweet energy of surrender!

I finally saw that the entire experience was for me to GET THE SPIRITUAL MESSAGES of the trip and to integrate that knowing into every aspect of my being, including deep and serious illness. I am not a super “swifty” in this type of learning! However, with enough pain and discomfort, I did have to stop railing, begin meditating and praying, and eventually, let go.

I was supported in this odyssey by a book I had gotten in India written about a spiritual mystic, entitled Sri Aurobindo or the Adventure of Consciousness* by Satprem. During the endless days of my debilitating imbalance, I read this book. My strong emotions were raging around and then I got to chapter 14. Here was something that struck to the very core of my being:

We cannot heal unless we heal all the way down and we cannot go all the way down unless we go all the way up. The deeper we want to descend, the more powerful the light we need, otherwise we are eaten alive. … Ultimately, progress is not so much a matter of ascending as of clearing all that obstructs — when we are clear, everything is THERE. …..When the seeker has had a first decisive opening above, when he has seen the Light, he almost simultaneously feels a battering below, as if something in him were aching. …And he will have learned his first lesson: we cannot take one step above without taking one step below… As soon as we have touched a certain intensity of consciousness or light, it automatically exerts a pressure on the rest of our nature and brings out the corresponding obscurities or resistances. *Institut de Recherches Evolutives, Paris, 1996-2003, pgs 235-239.

This extended pain finally made sense. My confinement and pain was not a punishment, not a “bad thing”, not cooked up for me to suffer. It was a necessary experience if I was going to really escape all the emotions I had of blaming and raging against the Universe when my body was deeply hurting. Having spent 18 years earlier in my life with debilitating back pain, I was deeply familiar with pain. However this time, I could see that my body was speaking to me LOUDLY about letting go all blame, anger, outrage and pain.

Resist not evil came hurling into my mind and saturated the pores of my body. The message was to simply allow and this would pass as well. It did pass and I had a talk with the Universe to arrange for other means to get my attention if and when I needed such a clearing in the future! I envision an email from God with a clear message, “clean up your act, you need to move on! ” I would hope I would get such a message now and not need more weeks in bed.

Have you gotten any emails from God recently? I had probably gotten lots of messages which I had not recognized or ignored before my knee episode. The “big guns” were brought in so that I had to attend to the messages. May we each attend to the areas of our lives which are bringing us imbalance. They don’t go away, ever, they just retreat and wait for another occasion to get us to pay attention to what needs clearing and balance in our lives. As we are eternal through and through, we have all the time we need to learn the lessons before us.

Prayer and Clearing Suggestion

Open a Sacred Healing Circle as you envision that for yourself.

Say from your heart : I forgive myself completely and ask forgiveness from all others, where I have tried to hurt or punish myself or another knowingly or unknowingly including the following specific incidents ( _____) through all space and time. I want to walk more fully in the Light, in Balance and In Harmony with myself and with others. Thanks be to All That Is.

Evidence of Hacking

Dear Readers,

You may have gotten a post earlier yesterday seemingly, from my website. My website was hacked yesterday before we caught it. All the information has now been secured at a higher level than before. The post itself goes to my list of email addresses and RSS feeds which are saved in another secure location which the hacker can’t access. This means that the hacker does not have your email address. The hacker did however, write a bogus post so that is what you may have received last night saying “Hello World”. I suppose it could have been a lot worse! A stronger security protocol has been established so we hope this will not occur again. We are in communication with the host of this publishing service to work with them in insuring further security for the future.

If you have received the bogus post as an email, I suggest you simply delete it from your inbox.

Ah, the joys and challenges of the Internet! My apologies for any inconvenience this may have caused you. Many blessings of the Highest Light.

Peace and visions of a renewed, smooth blogging process.

Robbins Hopkins