balance

May 19 2010

Walking in Integrity

To walk in integrity, we have to lose our fear about the future. We have to embrace the Goodness of God. We have to wrestle our human thoughts about appearances to the ground.

Siberian Tigers Play Wrestling in the Water by Abysim

Above all, we have to speak our truth. This is walking in integrity. When we are walking in integrity, we are able to be at peace within, in a deeply whole way.

Stewart, a graduate student, competed for and was awarded a paid summer internship paying $7000. He was thrilled. The program’s literature guaranteed a good match for the selected students with organizations in the area. Stewart was tentatively matched with an assignment in a public school system. After the interview in the school, he realized that he had already done that same type of work 4 years earlier and had moved on from there in the intervening years. When no other placements were actually available, he told the granting organization this placement was not a good match for him. They strongly advised him to take the placement and told him if he did not, they would “be obliged” to call his college and say that he reneged on his contract.

He was both disappointed about the mismatch and yet offended by the treatment he had received through veiled threats and serious arm twisting to take a job which was so clearly a bad match for him. After a second round of meetings, and a lot of soul searching, Stewart respectfully resigned the paid internship. By the time he made his decision, he was in a good place looking forward to a summer of doing his own research and work. The very day he let this go, however, he was asked to join a team in Africa to work on more efficient ways to deliver medical support for malaria. This offer was a much better match for Stewart on many levels.

This is a situation where walking in integrity paid off in a rather dramatic turn of events. In one conversation, we talked about Tom Stoppard’s line, “every exit is an entrance somewhere else.” This was truly Stewart’s experience. However, he alone had to weight the consequences and act. He was the only person who could decide what walking in integrity was for him.

One characteristic of being in integrity is that it requires deep personal soul searching at times. It requires getting our ego out of the way and listening to the energy of the Highest Good. Walking in integrity often requires facing our doubts, fears and misgivings rather than taking the expected option or path because of the promised rewards. At the end of the day, walking in integrity requires courage, the conviction of the heart that if something is not a good option, the right options will present in the fullness of time.

One great way to walk in integrity is to write to God or talk to God. This way, we are not tempted to shade things, twist motivations or color the truth. We can more easily speak the truth because we know all is already known anyway. Making up a good story for God is a futile act. When we communicate with the All Knowing Divine Presence, we can frequently find out what integrity looks like. It is never too late to walk in integrity around issues in the past or present.

When Ria began a spiritual practice of meditation, her world began to change. She began to realize just how unkindly she had treated some of the men she had dated much earlier in her life. She felt deep guilt and shame around some of her actions and was at a loss to know what to do. Though she was not in touch with any of these men anymore, the drive to “make things right” would not go away. She was led to write in her journal to each of the mistreated men, to say clearly what she needed to say, and to ask for forgiveness. She worked on this process until all the men she had mistreated had been written to in her journal, before God and until she felt whole and clean. Nearing the end of this process, she had a service for the men of her past. She blessed each one of them, acknowledged what she had learned from them, asked again for forgiveness and gave all her shame and guilt to God. She had walked in integrity with the past.

Where might you need to walk in integrity? What is keeping you from making amends with your past or your present? Might you be prostituting yourself for the sake of money, prestige, reputation, influence or recognition?

All things, no matter what they consist of, can be taken to God/the Great Knowing/the Oneness. When we take steps to walk in integrity we come into Right Relationship with ourselves, with others and with God. We come to a place of deep inner balance and peace. There are ALWAYS better options for us than remaining out of integrity with ourselves and our lives. As we come into integrity, we manifest more balance in our lives, more love and more forgiveness. Our lives can be literally transformed by taking a walk with integrity.

All acts of the past, those in integrity and those out of integrity are traveling along with us. Any set of actions we have taken which have been out of integrity are negatively affecting us in one way or another. We are the accumulations of our past actions, thoughts, deeds and feelings. Only when we bring those into the space of integrity can we be truly at Peace. Go hunting for places where you are not walking in integrity. You will be supported beyond your wildest imagination by the Presence of God.

Steps to Integrity

1. Open a Sacred Space with Divine Energy/God/Ascended Masters/Angels and your Highest Self, to support your work.

2. Name the specific person(s) or incident where you are out of integrity with All That Is.

3. Speak or write to God about the feelings you have regarding your situation. Name your fears. Go thoroughly into this situation and explore it deeply.

4. Ask for the support you need, a way out, a way to let it go of the guilt or fear, forgiveness, support in facing what you have done, etc.

5. Give all negative thoughts and feelings to Divine Presence, in writing or out loud.

6. Give thanks for the support you are receiving to walk in integrity.

7. Wait upon the Presence of God to work within your energy field.

8. Repeat this process with other situations or persons until you feel you are walking in full integrity.

Apr 10 2010

Prayers for Coming into Balance

Here are specific prayers and approaches to help us come into balance with All That Is/ God/ Universal Goodness. These prayers target blocked energy for clearing energy fields to allow our feelings, our body or our relationships to heal. All prayer should begin with opening a sacred healing space. There are many ways to do that. Here are two options.

Sunset and balancing rock stack by James Jordan

I. Before prayer, open the Sacred Space.

This is done to amplify our prayers, to create a protected healing space for the prayers and to help us begin to create real partnerships with these Divine Energy Beings who are always available to support us.

Options

A. I call forth my highest I AM Self. ( This is the part of us that is always One with God. ) I call the Angelic Host, the Ascended Masters and the Highest Cosmic Light Beings of the Universe to hold this sacred space for healing and wisdom with me. And so it is.

B. I am opening a sacred space for this prayer. My deepest thanks for this support and healing grace.

II. Clear your own energy before commanding energy through prayer.

If you have any inkling that you feel your prayer is not going to work, clear your doubt and fear before praying. ALL OUR PRAYERS ARE HEARD!! Further, if you are carrying un-forgiveness about yourself, this needs to be released before prayer is powerful.

Options

A. Divine Knowing, clear the blocked energy I am carrying which is manifesting as doubt and fear concerning what I am about to pray for. My thanks.

B. Spirit of the Living God, I ask for forgiveness for the anxiety I am carrying about my job interview. Thank you.

III. I have a body part that is in pain.

I call forth the Sacred Flame ( God in flame form within us) to consume the blocked mental, thermal (protective) and spiritual (fear) energy originating from this lifetime or any other lifetime from the year, month and day of its inception into my field which is manifesting now as a painful _______ (knee, hip, hand), etc. Consume the blocked energy to allow for balance of my _______ (knee, hip, hand), etc. in present time. I am open to the healing energy in any form that is possible. Thanks be to God.

IV. I have a stuffy nose with cloudy discharge. (fill in the condition/symptoms)

I call forth the Sacred Flame ( God in flame form within us) to consume the blocked mental, thermal (protective) and spiritual (fear) energy originating from this lifetime or any other lifetime from the year, month and day of its inception into my field which is manifesting now as a stuffy nose with cloudy discharge. Consume the blocked energy allowing for balance of my body with regard to the symptoms of this stuffy nose. Thanks be to All That Is.

V. Brad has recurring headaches. (fill in the condition/symptoms)

I call Brad’s highest I AM Self into this sacred healing and wisdom circle. I call forth the Sacred Flame from within Brad to consume the blocked emotional, mental, thermal(protective) and spiritual (fear) energy originating from this lifetime or any other lifetime from the year, month and day of its inception into Brad’s field which is manifesting now as recurring headaches. Consume the blocked energy allowing for balance of his body. Thanks be to All That Is.

VI. I had a bad argument with my spouse,child, co-worker, mother, friend.

I ask for deep forgiveness for my part in escalating the argument with _____ (name) last night. I call forth the Sacred Flame to consume the blocked emotional, mental, thermal and spiritual energy from my energy field from this lifetime or from any previous lifetime which is manifesting now as this argument with _____ (name). Clear all this old stagnant, blocked energy which can go today. I call Peace and Divine Energy into the midst of my relationship with _____ (name). Thank you, Divine Grace.

VII. I feel angry with my spouse for his lack of awareness of what needs to be done around the house.

Sacred Flame come forth and consume the blocked mental, thermal and spiritual energy originating from this lifetime or any other lifetime which is manifesting as my repeated anger and frustration with my spouse about his lack of awareness of what needs to be done in our house. I call forth the Blessings of the Light for our relationship. I am so grateful for this support and healing energy.

VIII. I feel depressed and lethargic.

I call forth the Sacred Flame of All That Is from within me. Sacred Flame, come forth and consume the emotional, mental, thermal and spiritual energy originating from my lifetime or from any other lifetime from the specific year, month and year of its inception which is currently manifesting as my feeling depressed and lethargic. Show me ways to move out of this place of darkness and separation. Help me to see small steps I can take. My profound thanks.

IX. I am afraid for __________(name) and what is happening to him/her.

Sacred flame consume the blocked mental, thermal (protective) and spiritual energy (fear) originating from this lifetime or any previous lifetimes which is manifesting as my being afraid for ___________ ( name). I call forth the Divine Presence within ________ (name) for his/her Highest Benevolent Good. I turn this fear over to All That Is for a perfect outcome. My thanks.

X. I am out of Right Relationship with my _________ self, work, husband, mother, aunt, boss, upcoming performance, spending/eating/exercise habits, responsibilities to my children, anger towards others, desire for a mate, seeming inability to make money, etc.

Right Relationship means in Right Relationship with All That Is, with God. We often know or suspect when we are out of Right Relationship with a person, situation or our self. This sacred term, Right Relationship means as defined by God. This takes the guess work out of defining what is “wrong” with the relationship.

Divine Presence, my heart is heavy. I call forth the Sacred Flame to consume the blocked emotional, mental, thermal (protective) and spiritual ( fear) energy from all core sources in this lifetime or any previous lifetime which is now manifesting as my being out of Right Relationship with my _____________ ( see above list). I release all this stuck energy willingly with deep and lasting thanks. And so it is, Amen.

Jan 21 2010

Those Among Us

Earlier this month, I went to the Dominican Republic. I thought we were going on vacation and in part, we were. However, there was a broader purpose for my being there. On the first morning I went into Silence, as is my daily custom, and listened for any people or places which needed prayer. I was guided to call in healing energy to clear aspects of the energy of criminal intent, present in the DR. In listening further, I was invited to include Haiti in the prayers as well.

Haiti is on the western end of the same island as the Dominican Republic. We were on the northern coast of the Dominican Republic. I did expand the prayer focus to include Haiti. More imbalances were named for healing during the hour and over the next two days. Corruption, domestic violence, ethnic hatred, subjugation energy, financial instability, energy of poverty, violence, abuse, fear of being poor, and many other areas were identified for re-balancing. For each imbalance, the century of the original blocked energy was given. Also the type of blocked energy (emotional, mental, thermal, spiritual or physical) when this imbalance first appeared was specified as well.

This process is the exact same process I have learned to use with individuals when clearing blocked energies showing up as imbalances in the body. To do this work effectively, we need to really grasp that all imbalances either personal or global are directly due to blocked energy coming from someone or somewhere. When the blocked energies are cleared, the body, the sea, the earth’s crust can heal itself because balance is the natural state of all living entities.

We humans must call Divine Presence into our lives so that this Presence in its myriad of forms is “allowed” to work with us. Each of us has the sovereign right to live our lives any way we so choose. We can ignore or accept anything we want. We have all the time we need and all the help we need to bring peace and balance to our lives but we have to ask for the help we want and are willing to receive. As we know, with some of the conditions at the global level, we are running short of time.

When we call in Divine Presence, what is needed is specifically provided. After many hundreds of these experiences, I know this will always happen. The outcome may not happen as I envision it, but the energy is always re-balanced in one way or another. We are the hands of All That Is upon the Earth and we have the power to call Divine Intervention into lives and aspects of our Earth where imbalances are manifesting.

There seemed to be an urgency in the work I was doing in the DR. After 3 days of deeply focused healing energy for Haiti and the Dominican Republic, I was invited to extend the boundaries of this work to all of the Caribbean and Central America. The process started all over again and continued for two more days. Then I got an email from a spiritual healer and friend who suggested that I listen to the sea creatures around the island. How she got that message, I am not sure but I have stopped asking the “how” questions with this type of work.

That evening I set up a sacred healing and wisdom “virtual” circle as I do with all healing work. I invited the sea creatures to join us in spirit and I waited. I had never worked with sea creatures before and was wondering how I would know if they were there and if I was hearing them. I settled into a comfortable meditative state. I listened for a long time and heard nothing but felt the energy of Peace and Harmony, or what I sensed as that. After about 20-30 minutes, as clear as a bell I heard, “we would like to work with you in this healing”. I was at once both thrilled and floored! I knew the voice was not mine because I would have never even thought of such a thing. I had thought we were simply meditating together. We then spent a very powerful hour together exchanging energy and it seemed like we were playing in God’s space for lack of a better description.

The next day right before 6 PM, we felt the earth shake very clearly. We went outside and it stopped. My husband checked the seas from the third floor to see if a very low tide was indicating a tsunami. No low tide was evident. We surfed the cable TV but did not get news of the earthquake for about two hours. I was stunned. In all the time I had spent in prayer, I had never once even considered working with the earth energy of the island. It had not been given or I had not heard it, and I had not thought of it, either. Immediately I thought that perhaps I had missed something very important in the prayer dialog of the week. The devastation in Haiti was enormous and the faces of those affected were heartbreaking.

I went into prayer and I wrote my spiritual colleagues to see what they were picking up about the earthquake and my work in the DR. I eventually learned that I was not to have focused on the earthquake. Our work was the clearing of the blocked energy which would affect the rebuilding of that area of the world, now especially with Haiti but more extensively as well. The prayers were now to be, Come Divine Intervention for the Highest Benevolent Outcome for Haiti and her people on all levels.

Of all the information given though, about the work that was done, that of the sea creatures took my heart. I was told that they quelled the seas to prevent the tsunamis which were being formed as a result of the violent shaking. This broke open every boundary I had ever erected between humans and sea creatures. Of course, they knew there were imbalances of a major order and offered to help. The sea creatures in connection with Divine Grace in many forms, quelled the imbalances in the water, averting the tsunamis.

Never mind if this does not seem plausible. It is not plausible with our minds. This is only plausible and possible to grasp with our hearts. This experience though has dramatically changed my view of sea creatures and I will never swim in the oceans again without thanking them for their presence here among us and for all the healing energy they are bringing to our world.

Aug 12 2009

Being Eternal

When all seems to be said and done, there is still more to handle, respond to, and integrate, always and forever! We are never said and done. We are never completely finished, not in death, not in life, not in work, not in love.

There is always more awaiting us when we are ready to receive it, into our knowing. We are ETERNAL. We are eternally presented with more of something or another. Even in the most severely extreme actions taken to end a life, one is never said and done. It is impossible to finish or end ourselves. We are always with our being whatever dimension we are living in. This is an absolute truth for all beings, everywhere.

Eventually, sometime, somewhere we will begin to hear the small voice of All That Is which is always with us whether we attend to that voice or not. Even at the end of deeply destructive action, we come face-to-face with ourselves and we are IT. There is no getting away from us, from our thoughts, words, deeds and actions. We are IT.

Being Eternal is a forever process.

Our beings repeatedly move from one dimension to another and pick up where we left off. We still have to face the same heartache, the same sadness, the same misperceptions, the same feeling of disconnection from God and Divine Love. As above, so below. As below, so above. We are the creators of our own lives. We are the ones who make choices with what we are given. We are the ones who give meaning and power to the things which happen to us. We can do the clearing work now or do the clearing work later, the choice is ours but the blocked energy NEVER simply goes away on its own.

We are inextricably part of All That Is, in mind, body and soul regardless of what we have done, what we are thinking, what we are presently doing or not doing or what we will chose to do in the future. We create our own lives, the good and the bad, for the sole purpose of healing our souls from the separateness we feel from the Greater Whole. Why do bad things happen to us? Why do good things happen to us? We are on a journey and each of us will have the precise and exact situations we need to heal our souls.

Upon my return from India three years ago, I experienced 10 days of amoebic dysentery and 4 weeks of a serious, painful knee infection which had me in bed for over 2 weeks and on crutches for another 2 weeks beyond that, affecting all my systems because of the bacteria.

I had been on a spiritual journey to an ashram while in India. You can imagine my outrage, anger and ranting about having such a thing happen to me when I had “put out” so much to make that trip! What had I done “to deserve that reaction” in my life? I was not at this level of outrage on the first day of the dysentery nor even during the first week of the infection but as it wore on and on, I wore out, more and more. I felt exhaustion, weakness, pain, pain, pain and then anger, fear, rage, blame and finally release. Ah, the sweet energy of surrender!

I finally saw that the entire experience was for me to GET THE SPIRITUAL MESSAGES of the trip and to integrate that knowing into every aspect of my being, including deep and serious illness. I am not a super “swifty” in this type of learning! However, with enough pain and discomfort, I did have to stop railing, begin meditating and praying, and eventually, let go.

I was supported in this odyssey by a book I had gotten in India written about a spiritual mystic, entitled Sri Aurobindo or the Adventure of Consciousness* by Satprem. During the endless days of my debilitating imbalance, I read this book. My strong emotions were raging around and then I got to chapter 14. Here was something that struck to the very core of my being:

We cannot heal unless we heal all the way down and we cannot go all the way down unless we go all the way up. The deeper we want to descend, the more powerful the light we need, otherwise we are eaten alive. … Ultimately, progress is not so much a matter of ascending as of clearing all that obstructs — when we are clear, everything is THERE. …..When the seeker has had a first decisive opening above, when he has seen the Light, he almost simultaneously feels a battering below, as if something in him were aching. …And he will have learned his first lesson: we cannot take one step above without taking one step below… As soon as we have touched a certain intensity of consciousness or light, it automatically exerts a pressure on the rest of our nature and brings out the corresponding obscurities or resistances. *Institut de Recherches Evolutives, Paris, 1996-2003, pgs 235-239.

This extended pain finally made sense. My confinement and pain was not a punishment, not a “bad thing”, not cooked up for me to suffer. It was a necessary experience if I was going to really escape all the emotions I had of blaming and raging against the Universe when my body was deeply hurting. Having spent 18 years earlier in my life with debilitating back pain, I was deeply familiar with pain. However this time, I could see that my body was speaking to me LOUDLY about letting go all blame, anger, outrage and pain.

Resist not evil came hurling into my mind and saturated the pores of my body. The message was to simply allow and this would pass as well. It did pass and I had a talk with the Universe to arrange for other means to get my attention if and when I needed such a clearing in the future! I envision an email from God with a clear message, “clean up your act, you need to move on! ” I would hope I would get such a message now and not need more weeks in bed.

Have you gotten any emails from God recently? I had probably gotten lots of messages which I had not recognized or ignored before my knee episode. The “big guns” were brought in so that I had to attend to the messages. May we each attend to the areas of our lives which are bringing us imbalance. They don’t go away, ever, they just retreat and wait for another occasion to get us to pay attention to what needs clearing and balance in our lives. As we are eternal through and through, we have all the time we need to learn the lessons before us.

Prayer and Clearing Suggestion

Open a Sacred Healing Circle as you envision that for yourself.

Say from your heart : I forgive myself completely and ask forgiveness from all others, where I have tried to hurt or punish myself or another knowingly or unknowingly including the following specific incidents ( _____) through all space and time. I want to walk more fully in the Light, in Balance and In Harmony with myself and with others. Thanks be to All That Is.

Jul 10 2009

Clearing Imbalance

Illness is caused at its core by an imbalance in the flow of unseen energy in our bodies. If there is stuck energy, various imbalances manifest in our physical body to get our attention. I work with unseen energies such as thoughts, feelings and sense of connection with the Greater Whole. When these unseen energies are blocked, our health is affected even though we can’t see this energy. Illness, in many cases, is a warning system about blocked energy.

We live in a world filled with germs, bacteria, viruses, spirochetes, parasites, worms, etc. Why can two people encounter the same virus and one person develops a full blown set of symptoms while the other manifests no symptoms at all? We might claim a strong immune system or general resistance to viruses and leave it to a vague sense of heredity. However, I have experienced that we manifest strong immune systems when we are in balance with our thoughts, feelings and sense of connectedness to the Greater Whole. Our body reflects the nature of our unseen internal balance or imbalance as the case may be.

We can more readily sense this in our relationships. If we have a recurring argument with our spouse, child or parent, there is very likely blocked energy in our thoughts, emotions, or connection with the Greater Whole which keeps coming up to fuel these recurring arguments. We often even know what that blocked energy is.

Again and again, in working with people manifesting persistent mis-alignments, infections, fever, fungus, viruses, rashes, etc. there is some blocked unseen energy which must be cleared first, before the body can heal. Clear the energetic imbalance and the body heals in nearly all cases. Systemic imbalance in the energy field does not allow the body to fully heal and manifest balance.

There are levels of imbalance. An allergy to mold can often be effectively treated with homeopathic medicine or acupressure and the body comes into balance. When a person has extensive allergies with little improvement over time, systemic blocked energy is clearly present.

Louisa had suffered with allergies, year around, for many years by the time I saw her. She had taken dozens of medicines, tried various treatments including acupuncture, been to numerous doctors and still suffered severely with allergies. She found that if the medicines worked for the allergies, she felt sluggish and “off” energetically.

She was increasingly spending her time in a drugged daze. She was depressed by the constancy of the attacks. They were deeply affecting her ability to be outside and enjoy nature. The question we asked of Divine Knowing was, what is the blocked energy manifesting now as allergies? Louisa was carrying blocked spiritual energy manifesting as allergies.

We have four energetic bodies each with a unique type of energy. The only one we see is our physical body. Right next to our physical body, though unseen, is our emotional body. Next out is our mental body and furthest from our physical body is the spiritual body. The spiritual body is made up of our sense of connectedness with the Greater Whole/God/All That Is. Each of these bodies vibrate at different levels of megahertz. The physical body is the densest body and therefore vibrates at the slowest rate. The spiritual body is the least dense body and vibrates at the fastest rate. In fact, we need to be very quiet and still to even perceive our spiritual bodies at all. Meditation, therefore, can be very helpful in helping us become more aware of our spiritual bodies.

Louisa carried disconnected energy from the Greater Whole, though she was not conscious of this. She would not have been able to recognize this unless those allergies demanded her attention in the way they did. As she began to release blocked spiritual and fear energy from her life experiences, she came increasingly into physical balance. Her allergies diminished and eventually her whole body came into balance.

What were some of the specific blocked energies she was dealing with? Actually, we don’t have to know what those specific energies are for them to clear from our field. It is possible to open a sacred space with Divine Presence, call out the blocked spiritual energy manifesting as allergies and have that blocked energy clear from our field. You may need to repeat this several times if you have hesitations about this working or if you have fear that you will never be free of allergies. However, every time you call for such clearing, some of the blocked energy leaves. Blocked energy first leaves from the unseen areas of our being and eventually the shift in energy shows up as greater balance in the body.

Spiritual healing is not a magical fix. It is about coming into greater and greater connection with Divine Peace, Love and Balance.

If we have had a condition for a long time, it is rare that that condition is healed with one call for clearing. However, it is equally true that with one call for the clearing of blocked energy, some of the stuck energy will leave, every time. This is so because we are One with All That Is even if we don’t know it to be so. We are One and therefore we can use our Oneness to clear our own field of blocked energy. Try it. You will experience blocked energy clearing, the more you use it. Share your experiences with us!

ENERGY CLEARING PROCESS

I open a sacred healing circle with my highest I AM energy (the part of us which is eternal), the Ascended Masters, the Angelic Host, (any others, your choice).

I call forth the blocked emotional, mental and spiritual energy I am carrying which is currently manifesting as allergies to tree pollen ( state your own imbalance).

I call for the Sacred Flame ( God’s Presence in flame form) to consume this blocked energy at its very source in the specific year, month and day of its inception in my field. I release all of this blocked energy and call for Divine Presence in the place of this stagnant energy.

Thanks Be to God/All That Is/Great Oneness/ Allah.

Reminder: After clearing of blocked energy, you may experience detox. You can feel worse before you feel better. When clearing takes place, your body vibrates at a higher frequency and toxins are sloughed off from the body. Tiredness and bowel changes are frequent detox symptoms. Drink lots of water and eat lightly to reduce the symptoms.