There is a space beyond my mind and body where energy flows without hindrance. Where I am one with the Universe and we commune through energy alone. It is the energy of Love and Acceptance, the energy of Infinite Possibility and Grace. At times I have felt so connected, my body vibrates, totally alive with the recognition of Source Presence. This tells me I count. This tells me I am a person of substance. This reminds me that I am always seconds away from checking in and touching to Divine Energy.
I am not sure I could always live in that space. It is exhilarating and phenomenal. It moves me beyond body, thought, or encumbrances. It is all encompassing though eventually I am delivered back to this dimension, more peaceful and gentle, more centered and grounded. I marvel at these experiences. They come upon me when I least expect them. When I am seemingly just going about my business. They catch me like a practice in reverie, though without the thoughts and without anything of human substance. I am floating along in wholeness, existing in vibration.
These experiences remind me that I am more than my words, more than my convictions, more than this body. I am of the Oneness, eternal and always growing. I have a trajectory of being that eclipses all the negativity I have ever touched to. I cannot die and fade away into nothingness. No one really does that. I change states and keep on moving along. If I so choose, I can continue to explore pure Love, call it to myself, and keep setting down all that does not serve me. I can face my demons and amazingly, they leave me. I can create the Peace I seek. I am always connected to Love and Wholeness, regardless of the the ever present darkness, visible daily.
So I belong and I don’t belong. I belong to a world of ever changing possibility. I don’t belong to the woes, slings, and arrows that continue to challenge me to make a choice for Love. Those are the trail signs helping me to follow the Light. I do belong to seeking and wonder. I do belong to an inner knowing of integrity with self and others. I do not belong to the suffering of the world though I touch to it daily. It is my choice not to remain there. It is my choice to make another move towards clearing and balance, towards loving and forgiving, towards prayer and re-centering. I do belong to the vicissitudes of life though knowing they are informed by the blessings of a spiritual path evolving the formation of my human self.