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Guilt and Its Costs

Guilt is energy run amok.  Perhaps guilt comes about through the twisted thought that feeling guilty is a deserved response to a horrible choice we have made in the past.  Perhaps guilt is born when we have the feeling that we have let another person down.  Guilt can certainly surface when we know we have been seriously unkind or mean to another person or when we have indulged ourselves in ways that are bad for us.

Guilt serves you right... by Rob

Whatever its origins, Dr. David Hawkins author of  Power vs. Force says it is next to the lowest of all our emotional energies in vibration, just above shame.  Thus guilt is a energy drain on our being, physically, emotionally and mentally. Guilt is an emotion we have to chose to have and continue to hold and strengthen, by giving our power to it.

Elise is a medical intuitive.  She gives readings for people as a service for which she charges. Early in her career, Elise had a reading with a male, mid-sixties client and sensed energy imbalances on his arms.  She told him he had skin cancer and in this case, she was wrong about that diagnosis.  This was shared with her through an angry email which the client sent to her after he had had a skin biopsy taken of the places in question.  The client suggested she stop her readings if she was going to cause such upset for no reason.

In working with Elise five years later, she was still carrying deep guilt about this client. Elise was fearful about fully exploring and using her talents because she had been inaccurate other times as well.  This guilt was seriously interfering with her practice and desire to serve others.  My question to her was if perhaps she was picking up on cancer from another area of the client’s body.  She had had that very thought herself after the angry email arrived though with no way to pursue it.  Further, the client’s biopsies would have required a doctor’s approval so the client’s anger was somewhat misplaced.

When Elise asked in earnest for forgiveness for the impact of the inaccurate readings she had given in the past, the presence of guilt in her energy field cleared completely.  Then Elise was able to develop new information, safe-guards and protocols for the readings she wanted to offer. Elise’s taking on of the guilt was due to her own insecurities about her gift of intuition.  This is precisely why this situation was attracted to her, so these insecurities could be healed and she could move on.  It took 5 years to completely heal but that is a short time in eternity.

empty cage by h.koppdelaney

Where in your life are you taking on guilt?  Guilt is never useful and often masks the real steps that need to be taken to correct  a situation. Even if you feel guilty and responsible for your parents’ divorce or you lied or cheated and got some reward you did not earn,  guilt serves no good purpose for anyone. There is always an energy of the Light which will completely heal the feelings of guilt and remorse.  In Elise’s case, she needed to ask for forgiveness and receive it, in order to release the guilt.  In feeling guilty about one’s parents’ divorce, it is highly likely that shame about our own behavior or acute loss around the family unit is fueling feeling guilty about such a situation.  Misplaced energies can result seemingly in feelings of guilt.  If guilt lingers as a result of lying and getting some reward we have not earned, questions of self-worth and personal integrity can also be stirring the pot of guilt.

Remember, we take on guilt from a place of imbalance and we can set it down when balance is restored. Search for the real feelings and blocked energy masquerading as guilt.  There are always reasons we have chosen to hold onto guilt feelings. Guilt is something we allow in our energy fields and it does not support any good thing at all. In fact it is a major drain on our overall energy.  Guilt is a misplaced thought fueled by emotions of regret.

If you are feeling guilt energy, open a Sacred Space and ask yourself:

Why am I  holding onto this guilt energy?

Is there something I need to ask forgiveness for?

Is there some other energy I am carrying which is fueling or sustaining this guilt  energy?

What benefits am I getting by holding onto this guilt energy?

Then go into Silence and sit with Divine Knowing/Ascended Masters/All That Is, with these questions presented.  When you have done that, go about your life and wait until the desired insight is revealed to you.  It will present when you are ready to hear it.  The goal of identifying guilt energy is to ultimately release the blocked energy behind the feelings of guilt so that the guilt can also be released.

When you are ready to release blocked energy and guilt, ask Divine Presence:

to clear all blocked, stuck energy and  feelings from you energy field, masquerading as guilt

to clear all the guilt energy from you field

for forgiveness for all the pain you have caused self and others

to witness the thanks you are feeling for Divine Support

Then, write me and tell me about your experiences with casting out guilt.

Posted on June 5th, 2010 by Robbins  |  Comments Off

Walking in Integrity

To walk in integrity, we have to lose our fear about the future.  We have to embrace the Goodness of God.  We have to wrestle our human thoughts about appearances to the ground.

Siberian Tigers Play Wrestling in the Water by Abysim

Above all, we have to speak our truth. This is walking in integrity.  When we are walking in integrity, we are able to be at peace within, in a deeply whole way.

Stewart, a graduate student, competed for and was awarded a paid summer internship paying $7000. He was thrilled. The program’s literature guaranteed a good match for the selected students with organizations in the area.  Stewart was tentatively matched with an assignment in a public school system.  After the interview in the school, he realized that he had already done that same type of work 4 years earlier and had moved on from there in the intervening years. When no other placements were actually available, he told the granting organization this placement was not a good match for him.  They strongly advised him to take the placement and told him if he did not,  they would “be obliged” to call his college and say that he reneged on his contract.

He was both disappointed about the mismatch and yet offended by the treatment he had received through veiled threats and serious arm twisting to take a job which was so clearly a bad match for him.  After a second round of meetings, and a lot of soul searching,  Stewart respectfully resigned the paid internship.  By the time he made his decision,  he was in a good place looking forward to a summer of doing his own research and work.  The very day he let this go, however, he was asked to join a team in Africa to work on more efficient ways to deliver medical support for malaria.  This offer was a much better match for Stewart on many levels.

This is a situation where walking in integrity paid off in a rather dramatic turn of events.  In one conversation, we talked about Tom Stoppard’s line, “every exit is an entrance somewhere else.” This was truly Stewart’s experience.  However, he alone had to weight the consequences and act.  He was the only person who could decide what walking in integrity was for him.

One characteristic of being in integrity is that it requires deep personal soul searching at times.  It requires getting our ego out of the way and listening to the energy of the Highest Good.  Walking in integrity often requires facing our doubts, fears and misgivings rather than taking the expected option or path because of the promised rewards. At the end of the day, walking in integrity requires courage, the conviction of the heart that if something is not a good option, the right options will present in the fullness of time.

Meravigliosa Creatura II by dBencheci

One great way to walk in integrity is to write to God or talk to God.  This way, we are not tempted to shade things, twist motivations or color the truth.  We can more easily speak the truth because we know all is already known anyway. Making up a good story for God is a futile act. When we communicate with the All Knowing Divine Presence, we can frequently find out what integrity looks like.  It is never too late to walk in integrity around issues in the past or present.

When Ria began a spiritual practice of meditation, her world began to change.  She began to realize just how unkindly she had treated some of the men she had dated much earlier in her life.  She felt deep guilt and shame around some of her actions and was at a loss to know what to do.  Though she was not in touch with any of these men anymore, the drive to “make things right” would not go away.  She was led to write in her journal to each of the mistreated men, to say clearly what she needed to say, and to ask for forgiveness.  She worked on this process until all the men she had mistreated had been written to in her journal, before God and until she felt whole and clean.  Nearing the end of this process, she had a service for the men of her past.  She blessed each one of them, acknowledged what she had learned from them, asked again for forgiveness  and gave all her shame and guilt to God.  She had walked in integrity with the past.

Where might you need to walk in integrity?  What is keeping you from making amends with your past or your present? Might you be prostituting yourself for the sake of money, prestige, reputation, influence or recognition?

Rock Balance by Marty. FM

All things, no matter what they consist of, can be taken to God/the Great Knowing/the Oneness.  When we take steps to walk in integrity we come into Right Relationship with ourselves, with others and with God.  We come to a place of deep inner balance and peace.  There are ALWAYS better options for us than remaining out of integrity with ourselves and our lives. As we come into integrity, we manifest more balance in our lives, more love and more forgiveness.  Our lives can be literally transformed by taking a walk with integrity.

All acts of the past, those in integrity and those out of integrity are traveling along with us.  Any set of actions we have taken which have been out of integrity are negatively affecting us in one way or another.  We are the accumulations of our past actions, thoughts, deeds and feelings.  Only when we bring those into the space of integrity can we be truly at Peace.   Go hunting for places where you are not walking in integrity. You will be supported beyond your wildest imagination by the Presence of God.

Steps to Integrity

1. Open a Sacred Space with Divine Energy/God/Ascended Masters/Angels and your Highest Self, to support your work.

2. Name the specific person(s) or incident where you are out of integrity with All That Is.

3. Speak or write to God about the feelings you have regarding your situation. Name your fears.  Go thoroughly into this situation and explore it deeply.

4. Ask for the support you need, a way out, a way to let it go of the guilt or fear, forgiveness, support in facing what you have done, etc.

5. Give all negative thoughts and feelings to Divine Presence, in writing or out loud.

6. Give thanks for the support you are receiving to walk in integrity.

7. Wait upon the Presence of God to work within your energy field.

8. Repeat this process with other situations or persons until you feel you are walking in full integrity.

Posted on May 19th, 2010 by Robbins  |  Comments Off

No Death for Us

Good Friday is here and Easter is upon us.  Regardless of the religious or spiritual path you have taken, there are lessons for all of us from the Easter story.  God was sending all of us lessons about life and death those many years ago. There is eternal life. There is no death.

Easter Morning, Crosby Beach by stringberd

This is hard to grasp because in this dimension, people appear to “die” and they seem to “disappear”.  This does not however mean that people do actually “die”, pass into nothingness and cease to exist. They simply change dimensions. Truly, this is how the plan goes.

In 2004, I was with Joao de Deus, John of God, at his spiritual healing center in Abadiania, Brazil.  I had been working as a spiritual healer for approximately 10 years in varying ways. In Brazil, I was learning how to differentiate between Divine Spirits I was working with on the other side, in my healing practice.   I was sitting in the current room with about 75 others in 90 plus degree weather. We were all in prayerful Silence to help raise the vibration of the healing center so others could receive the healing energy they needed.

The attendants in the current room announced that Jesus’ energy was entering the space. Suddenly, a radiant Being of immense stature,  at least 9 feet tall, was directly before me.  It would have been impossible to miss this because my whole body was being penetrated by the Presence.

Light of Eternity by Loci Lenar

I heard a strong and clear voice directly in front of me say, “You are never again to question that you have come to heal others.”  That was it. Short and sweet. Then the radiance left from in front of me.

The words and energy enveloped my whole body and my consciousness.  I began to sob uncontrollably.  I knew in my heart that no one in the world could have possibly known that I was still questioning that I was here to heal.   I had not even acknowledged this out loud to myself. However, in my heart, I was feeling great uncertainty about my work as a spiritual healer.  Only one of immense Knowing could have possibly known this secret I was holding onto.  I finally got that Jesus was alive, knew me intimately, and had a clear directive for me.

What exactly does it mean to have eternal life? At the most basic levels, it means that no one dies and fades away, we simply change states of being as we enter other dimensions of life.  Imagine that everything we know about being One with God stays with us when we pass out of body.  Also, there is clear evidence that when we come back into body, unresolved feelings and thoughts in our souls show up again for us to respond to.  Things like fear of death, fear of failure, fear of betrayal, or shame and guilt are some of the feelings that can follow us from previous times in body. We literally get all the chances we need to let go of thoughts and feelings which separate us from God.

When I am in meditative space, deep Silence, I work with the Ascended Masters and Angels.  This has been going on most days for 17 years in this lifetime.  Ascended Masters are very much alive and they have all been in body many, many times.  Angels and Ascended Masters are eager to work with us, support us, guide us, talk with us, help us hold Sacred Space and help us discover Peace that is beyond all understanding.

So take a leap of faith.  Open your mind and heart to the possibility that there is eternal life and there is no death. The Truth is, we are really eternal.  However, we can choose to embrace this or not, as we have free will about what we choose to think is true. The message of Easter is about this for all peoples.

raising Lazarus by Martin LaBar

In the Bible, we have the story of Lazarus raised from the dead and the story of Jesus raised from the dead among others.  In one case, Lazarus returned to his body and was seen by many others, immediately.  In Jesus’ case, he did not return to a body that other’s immediately recognized, though he was eventually recognized by those who loved him deeply.  Whatever we take to be true from the scriptures, the message is that there is no death.  ”FEAR NOT”.

What would your life be like if you knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that you are eternal?  Can you imagine the freedom, the license you might give yourself to really live, to love and to receive love? What if you knew that you have all the time and support you need to learn the lessons of the Oneness which are all around you?  Can you imagine giving yourself another real chance to know God? After all we are One with Divine Energy, have been, and will be, for evermore.  What are we waiting for, really?

This Easter story of Jesus was given to us so that we could “get” things not ordinarily experienced in this dimension. People actually saw Jesus after he died, in the flesh. Through working with the Divine Beings of the other side, I can say without a doubt that there is eternal life for every one of us.  Additionally, if we seriously get our act together and hang out with Divine Love Energy in the Silence now, we will be shown how we can leave a whole load of unhelpful stuff here this time around.  We will be shown how we can leave anger, loss, fear, suffering, resentment and unforgiveness here and not take it forward with us into the Light when it is our time to pass over.   Further, if we set down our fear, rage, shame and guilt now, we won’t continue to attract more of this into our energy fields again. This change can begin almost immediately. This allows our souls to heal and balance.

The strong and clear message from centuries from all our prophets, messiahs, avatars, mystics, rishis and yogis is, and continues to be,  “drop the dark stuff“, “get to know God better” !!   The dark feelings are not real, in the sense of  lasting, though charged thoughts can seem very real at times.  These tough feelings are with us PRECISELY so we can clear them away and experience Peace and Balance from now into all our futures.  God is all Light. We have to drop the darkness to know God personally. Fear of death is one of the most powerfully charged dark engeries, we hang onto. Take a step towards trusting that we are truly eternal.

Your own knowing about life and death will come in ways uniquely perfect for you. You have to open to that knowing however.  Enter Silence, and sit with All That Is, God, the Deep Silence.  That is where the mysteries of life are shared.  Happy Spring.

Posted on April 3rd, 2010 by Robbins  |  Comments Off

Loving Oneself to Wholeness

Whenever Joyce looked in the mirror, she was angry with herself and angry at her body and mad with the world.  She was heavier than she wanted to be and had been that way for over 10 years.  The negative messages were really getting more and more self-punishing.  ”You are good for nothing, you are a lazy bum, you are ugly, ugly, ugly, you are a failure”, etc.  Saying that everyday was like taking a poison bath in the morning.  She often had to have three cups of coffee to counteract the lethargy that immediately descended upon her after taking her shower, where she also saw her body in the mirror.  Somewhere in the recesses of her mind she thought that saying such awful things might motivate her to do something about her weight and general health.  These raw self messages though made her feel worse and worse over time.

Bob feels a deep loneliness in his life which descends upon him regularly on Friday evenings.  He has been through lots of relationship but none of them have worked out.

Trust by rogiro

He wants to be in a great relationship where he can love and be loved.  He spends weekends going from bar to bar hoping to meet someone of interest. That is mostly depressing and he often comes home with his insides churning from a sense of failure.  He has lost weight, is increasingly down and has nearly constant indigestion at this point. This malaise is creeping into his weekdays as well.  His thoughts are filled with images of  being alone and of feeling unlovable.   Bob is still trying out new places on the weekends but he is pretty sure he will continue to fail.

One way to work out negative feelings towards ourselves is to do something or find some place where we do feel good about ourselves and hope it transfers to the areas we are beating ourselves up about.   Giving to others is a tried and true way to generate love within.  We can also try new things such as diets, dating services, exercise, reading other’s stories, or travel in the hopes of finding something to blast us out of where we are.  All these steps could bring us some relief.

We probably all know if what we are doing does not work,  we need to try something else.  However, realizing we are doing the same thing over and over again which is not working, is the kicker.   Something about a familiar though unhelpful pattern is better than the unfamiliar, more risky option. Clearly though, repeating what is not working is a road to more pain.

What to do? TAKE THE FEELINGS INTO SILENCE FOR HELP.

Imagine there is a space inside of you where you are truly loved, because there is. Imagine that you can go there whenever you want to, because you can.  Imagine that there is a plan for you full of abundance and joy, because there is.  Simply sit and speak to the Divine Universe, which is all ears.

Devon on the mountain by Maya De La Rosa-Cohen

People ask me what I do in Silence.  I open the space with Divine Energy. I invite all Divine forms of energy to join with me for the purpose of creating more wholeness and peace.  I am still for as long as I can be which varies by the session.  Then I scan my sadness and my fear and I speak of it out loud so that I can call in Divine Help in alleviating the stuckness I feel.  Working with Divine Intervention, Knowing, Love and Presence informs and fuels my intention to feel better about myself. When I release my sadness and my fear, I feel better.  When I call in Divine Intervention right into the source of my sorrow and sense of failure, I experience a shift in the heaviness of carrying those misperceptions I have been feeling.

Each person has internal Light which we were born with.  It may be dimmed though through unloving messages from our growing up, due to traumas in our lives or by unloving messages from our own personal fears.

Cal-2005-444 by Paul-W

We have not however come here without a rudder, without direction, or without purpose. The feeling though of sailing without a rudder may well be an indication that we might go within and ask for help.  When we do this, we then have to wait knowing that we have been heard and we will get all the help we need. This help may not be in the form we expect to receive it.  This help may still require us to do something new, to risk.

If you are not sure you “have done enough to get the help you need” here are a few pointers.

1. Do not judge by appearances. If you go into Silence and then immediately go out and do just exactly what you have done before the Silence, like berate yourself, simply stop.  Accept that you are between unhealed and healed, which you are.  Realize that you have moved closer to wholeness, through that realization alone.  Congratulate yourself and let it go.

2. Talk to yourself in a loving  way, such as,  ”this thought is not loving and has no power, so I let it go.”  ” I am lovable and capable.” ” I am getting all the help I need even though now, I do feel lousy.”  ” I call into my life good thoughts and feelings about myself and ask for help in guiding me to people and places where this can occur.”

3.  Ask once and give it time to manifest in your life. Do not pick up your issue every day and re-ask for the same help, as if you have not been heard.  If you can’t help doing this, figure out what fear you are still carrying that is fueling this response.  It could be the fear of not deserving any help in this life.  A feeling of fear can completely block your receiving the support you seek.  Go after the fear face on!   Call for the Light to dispel this fear you have. Fear has only the power we, ourselves, give it.

Love is the absolute way to Wholeness. Love and joy are ours when we face our fears and let them go.  Loving oneself  manifests Wholeness.  When we face tough issues alone though, we often can’t access enough Love ourselves to shift our energy. That is one MAJOR reason to work through it with Divine Presence which is within.  There is ALWAYS enough Love to take us to Wholeness if we seek within, in the Silence.

The first step towards Loving oneself to Wholeness is often the hardest.  Ask, seek, sit in stillness, scan for fears and sadness and wait holding the space for shifting energy. Wholeness can come to each and every one of us.   Love is everywhere present, all knowing and all powerful.  Loving oneself is one major highway to Wholeness. Try it and let me know what you find.

Posted on January 12th, 2010 by Robbins  |  2 Comments »