Grief

How do we go on when we feel crippling grief?  We sob and scream, cry and cry. We hide under our bed covers and hope when we awake from sleep,  it will all have left.  Life moves in grey colored tones.  Every action feels like a huge effort. We walk through daily life without joy, peace or hope and that adds to the grief depression already with us. Who understands us? Who will help us?  Where do we turn? Will we ever smile again?  Will the deep sense of loss ever go away?

HELP US, we are lost.

Lost Tree, heavens' mourning by h.koppdelaney

Everything I thought about life has changed.  The unspeakable deep sense of loss is so real, so deep.  It hurts and keeps hurting.  Is there anyone there?  How can I go on? I don’t want this present I have now.  I want the grief to leave me and the hurt to stop and the fear to disappear, now.  I want the longing to stop. Who is running the show anyway?  Why did this happen?  How can I go on?

HELP ME Please, I am lost.

These Burdens by fallingwater123

She is so distraught, she can’t eat.  She is unable to sleep, for days she hasn’t slept.  She is afraid of being alone now in the world.  She is afraid of the world in which this grief is so overwhelming.  She is a skeleton of herself. She is too sad to cry anymore, all the crying is gone and the only energy left is heartache.

He is imploding into numbness.  His love has died.  She was so vibrant and whole, so full of energy and vitality.  How can she be gone, really gone?  His heart is pining and raw.  He can’t work, he can’t find any happiness, he walks and walks as if to get away from the feelings.  When he returns, he lies all day on the couch with no energy to focus.  The TV passes by in hours and no connection is made.  He is lost to himself and to all of us.

HELP THEM, they are so lost.

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Bring all your burdens to me.  For I AM Perfect Love and I AM Perfect Balance and I AM Eternity, Joy, Forgiveness and Wholeness.  I AM the Love, the Light and the Life Everlasting.  I AM All That you truly seek.  There is no other. AND SO IT IS.

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How do we release the grief and sadness of loss, of regret, of un-forgiveness, of shame, of guilt and of depression? We begin in Stillness and Silence.  WE MUST ASK Divine Presence to come to us in any way we can think of.

Autumn dawn by James Jordan

Calling in Healing Energy

Beloved God, I need help.  I can’t continue with this grief and unbearable dark feelings of loss.  I am so shut down.  Come to me and clear this darkness away. I want to be joyful again but I don’t know how.  I want to be whole again.  I am so disconnected now.

Come to me, Divine Loving Power, I am in great need.  I don’t know what to do. Healing Energy of the Universe, I call you to me,  now.  Move this grief.  Show me joy again. Mend my heart, it is so broken.  I am so deeply grateful.

Jesus, loving Presence.  I need help and healing.  I am so sad, lost and afraid I can’t go on.  I don’t want to live this life with all this lost and grief.  I miss __________  so much. I feel like part of my own being has left me.  I feel un-whole and incapable of my own healing.  I drag through the days and I am so deeply sad, I can’t speak of this.  Come to me. I need help.

Ascended Masters, you know how to do this. You have been here, you know the grief, the darkness and the sadness here.  I am being eaten up by these feelings.  I can’t find my center, my balance.  I can’t find my way.  Help me heal.  I am so utterly sad and lost.  I am afraid.  I feel unsafe.

Oh dear God.  I am so lonely. My heart aches and aches and I can’t do anything else.  Help me to find my way.  I feel like I have nothing to live for.  I am afraid of things I can’t name.  Come Divine Grace, I open my heart to healing.  Thank you.

If there is Perfect Love out there or in me, I need it.  Come to help me heal. Thank you.

Sadness and grief is our right.  We can feel it for as long and as deeply as we need to feel it. We can also let it go when we are ready.  This is about how to get the help we need to let grief go.  However, there are times when we need to simply feel the grief as humans.  We need to shut out the world and be in grief.

Carrying grief however is not expected of us by some mythic “Board of Right Living”.   We each have our own timing for how long we remain in a state of sadness and grief and what it looks like for us.  And yet, it is really okay to set it all down, to release our heaviness and burdens to the Greater Loving Energy of the Universe.  All the darkness can be handled there.  It is fully okay to feel joy, delight and passion again after we have lost or after another has died.

floral tribute at Nerang by Leonard John Matthew

Send blessings to those who have left human life,  to the ones who have suffered, and send blessings to yourself.  Call in the help you need to embrace your path again.  It will appear with new colors and new depth for you have loved, grieved and chosen to love again. All that is needed is provided WHEN we ask.

Bless us all as we ask for and receive the help that is waiting for us, after we have grieved what is.

Our Thanks,  and So It Is.



The Dark or The Absence of Light? Part 2

*Part one of this blog can be read at http://www.robbinshopkins.com/2010/08/the-dark-or-the-absence-of-light/

We can choose to be afraid or trusting.   We can choose to be selfish or generous.  We can choose to be welcoming or restrained.  Each and every choice we make for the goodness of the greater whole produces more balance.  Each and every choice we make which is not for the goodness of the greater whole produces more imbalance.

Free Child Walking on White Round Spheres by D. Sharon Pruitt

The greater the imbalance we feel within ourselves, the greater these imbalances manifest in our lives.  There is however no dark entity of dark power to be reckoned with sometimes known as the dark side.  We can know we are connected in one part of our lives to the Light and we can feel disconnected in other parts of our lives from the Light.  In my case, I was very surprised that I felt attacked by something I envisioned as dark energy.  I had not felt that fearful energy for years and years and yet there it was showing its ugly head right after our car accident. (spoken about in part 1)

Regardless of where we are in our journey, what we  feel,  see,  sense, and experience is a reflection of the choice to be connected to the Light or the choice to be separated from the Light.  This leads us back to the accident.

Why did that accident really happen to us?  I kept asking this in my mind and had a hard time not getting an immediate answer.  I wondered if I had attracted that accident to us through some means, if I needed to pay a karmic debt that I was not aware of, or if I was being attacked by the dark. I gave a lot of power to this last thought.

There are multiple true answers to this question.  Each of us involved, my husband, the truck driver, and me experienced this same accident for different reasons.  I now feel that I had this accident to give me a chance to directly face my deeply hidden fear about some force I thought of as the dark.  This was not something I might take a Sunday afternoon to contemplate! As with most of us, I would probably always choose to engage in something else, anything else, actually.  I needed a deeply shocking experience to go into my own darkness and wrestle my way through all of that old stuck energy.

Next Dimension by By h.koppdelaney- Hartwig HKD

Even though I slogged through the darkness after the accident, I sensed the minute we were hit, at some unconscious level, that we were not hurt.  Immediately after the impact, I was led to pray for the complete and total healing of  our fear from our energy fields.  I felt an insulating energy drop in around us as the accident occurred and as the  investigation was taking place.  I also had the dawning thought with increasing certainty that the impact of the truck’s energy on our van was buffered by Divine Presence.  We were surrounded immediately by that Divine Energy of Light. We were protected from harm’s way.

This experience of the Divine Presence with us at the accident continued to be present while I wrestled with my own created fear of the darkness. That powerful knowing just stayed within my energy field through all my stages of anger, frustration, uncertainly and questioning I felt I needed to feel. During one phase of my deeply questioning and anger tinged state about this accident,   I asked about all the times I had been killed from this dimension.  I was told the number.  Then immediately following this exchange I heard, “but you agreed to that”.  I started to laugh knowing deeply that this was true.  Further, if this is true for me, then it is true for every one of us.  Even the “innocent bystander” leaves when it is his or her time to leave.  At the same time, an innocent bystander does not leave before it is his or her time either.

Yet the question remains, why do some come here and physically suffer and others come and mentally or emotionally  suffer? Our entire journey is about coming into balance within our own energy.  When we begin to experience this inside, it begins to manifest all around us in all our affairs.  Many of the challenges, problems, conflicts, situations we get into are a result of imbalances we have chosen in our lives.  If we need to “atone” or re-balance, from some past transgression we have caused, we have infinite ways that we can do that in a lifetime.

Balanced Rocks by By squarewithin- Matthew Trentacost

Parts of our lives can appear like suffering until we get that we are One with the Light and that we are being given our specific life circumstances so that deep imbalances in our human selves can be re-balanced with the Love of the Universe.  We may also have a life in which we are given the option of being here in illness or disability as a way to re-balance some huge transgression of our past or as a way to develop compassion for ourselves and others, or as an example of living with joy and grace with our disability for others to learn from.

We are given whatever we need to come into a more loving and whole space with All That Is.  We cannot judge by appearances for ourselves or for others. There is a Divine and Holy Order within this Earth dimension even though we may not be able to discern it. The process of re-balancing for the Goodness of the Whole is taking place, all the time for all people everywhere.

If you think you have brought imbalances, fears and transgressions of the past with you,  you can work them out before you are required to do so, in some totally WAKE UP fashion.  I recommend all the preemptive work we can do to clear the darkness, fear and imbalance we feel inside ourselves.

  • You can pray and ask forgiveness for all the people you have hurt throughout all space and time.
  • You can ask for all the debts of imbalance you have brought about in your times of  separation from the Light to be made whole in all ways by Divine Grace.
  • You can literally call in the healing energy of the Light for all those you have specifically hurt.
  • You can call for the fear of anything you know you are facing to be consumed by the Light of God/All That Is.

Of course, one has to have the feeling that restoring balance is important.  We are loved beyond all measure but knowing that at the soul level requires our acting in this energy. We need to embrace the fact that we can clear our old stagnant energies and past misdeeds by calling for this to happen.

We have to embrace a new intention for being here, one that embraces that all living is for the purpose of healing and thereby for coming into the Energy of the One, the Whole, the Eternal Community of Life. Then all is possible.