What is “the dark”  anyway?  Is there a dark side as presented in all those sci-fi movies? What if the way we think about good and bad, light and dark, is all wrong.  I had occasion to seriously consider these issues recently.

DARTH VADER by foxspain

My husband and I were sitting at a red light and were hit from behind by a semi truck. Thankfully, through the grace of All That Is, which is something  way beyond us, we were spared great injury though our beloved car is a goner. Therefore, I have been deeply listening and asking very pointed questions about the presence or absence of darkness and about the real energetic causes behind such an accident in this cause and effect world.

The stages I have experienced after our our accident have been shock, rage, defiance, befuddlement, questioning, then listening and reintegrating.  The first stage was simply a numbness and exhaustion while all that had happened sank in. This went on for several days and was overlaid with rage and defiance.  The rage was directed at some unknown entity in my mind known “the dark”, envisioned as some power apart from the goodness of All That Is.  I was defiant and literally remember raising my fist into the air and hissing out loud, a number of times,  ” you are not going to get me.”  I suppose that was better than wallowing in fear and victim energy, perhaps only marginally though.  However, it did not feel very good to be facing the unknowable face of  ”the dark” nor to imagine “the dark” coming after me again.  As there was incredulity and fear connected with all of this, I increasingly became mixed up, unsure of what I was possibly dealing with and I felt lost and befuddled.  I also increasingly wondered how could I possibly make sense out of this fear filled and seemingly senseless experience.

My next stage was full of questions.  I talked with God, my sons, my husband, my friends, my colleagues, basically anyone who would engage with me.  I talked and talked getting out all my questions and misgivings and when I was completely talked out, I listened in silence. I felt no peace in the self-fashioned image I had of  ”the dark”.  As I listened and sensed the Divine Energy of All That Is,  I felt more and more deeply that All There Is is the Oneness. We are all connect to that energy, indeed we come from the same source, though some of us do not recognize this in our present state of consciousness.

A handful of sunshine by stuant63

The Oneness knows all the goodness and all the evil as we are given complete free will to live as we so choose.   Some of us choose to consciously live in that energy of the Light and others of us do not.  There are natural consequences for remaining outside Light space. One feels alone, fearful, angry, rage, resentment, uncertain, anxious, and far worse as well. That energy manifests as unkindness, cruelty, violence, disaster, war, and disintegration in varying levels to self and others.  This is the source of the darkness, these human choices, these human fears and their human consequences.

Through all this searching,  a deep knowing has emerged from within.  All darkness stems from the human choice to separate from the Light.   Darkness is the state of separation of individuals from the Light/ All That Is/ the Greater Whole/ the One Mind. I have suspected this for a while.  However, I was amazed that such deep soul searching was still needed to resolve my feelings.   With such a highly noticeable event in my life, it was challenging to come to balance with regard to,  ”why me”?   One day, in silence,  I realized that I was not the only person involved in this accident.  DUH!  There were two others in this accident, my husband and the truck driver.  So, possibly it was not necessary to wrack my brain for a plausible explanation as it probably did not “belong” solely to me.  That was a total relief.

Still, there can be the appearance of darkness everywhere we look.  Someone in my meditation group asked about how my insights about there being no “dark” source energy fit with something as horrible as the holocaust.  How could anything less that deep darkness explain such horror, death and destruction?

We have had some simply horrific things occur throughout all time and across this entire globe.  With the holocaust, in our time, we can  include  Darfur, the ethnic cleansing in Rwanda,  the killing fields in Cambodia plus the Iraq and Afghanistan wars and 9/11 in New York, Pennsylvania and Washington D.C., the Haiti earthquake, not to mention the four most recent oil spills and millions of other devastating events.  The question is how does one really believe that there is no “dark” in the face of the horrific situations clearly evident to us, all around.

Dark energy does exist, but it exists through our thoughts, fears and emotions. Millions are making choices individually and collectively which are not in Right Relationship with the Great I AM/Universal One God/Divine Creation.  Where there is the appearance of darkness, what we are truly seeing is the result of a human or group of humans making decisions which are not of the Light, disconnected from All That Is, not in alignment with the Highest Good.  Those who make decisions and take action, while being separated from the Light, are the creators of darkness.  There is no source other than the Energy of All That Is.

We experience human catastrophe, because we have made decisions which are separated from the Light, and are not of the highest good. The decisions are highly likely to originate from fear and anger.  We therefore see the absence of Light showing up as war, genocide, murder and abuse.  These are all consequences of choices we or those around us have made to act upon fear, greed, jealousy, shame, guilt, hatred, anger and pride.

Walter Hanson Winter Circus Holland by dirkjanranzijn

All the horrible and the all the wonderful things we see are a result of balance or imbalance coming from our thoughts and feelings.  We have control over those thoughts and feelings and therefore, the way to a more balanced life is through attention to what we are thinking and feeling.  (stay tuned for part 2)

Guilt is energy run amok.  Perhaps guilt comes about through the twisted thought that feeling guilty is a deserved response to a horrible choice we have made in the past.  Perhaps guilt is born when we have the feeling that we have let another person down.  Guilt can certainly surface when we know we have been seriously unkind or mean to another person or when we have indulged ourselves in ways that are bad for us.

Guilt serves you right... by Rob

Whatever its origins, Dr. David Hawkins author of  Power vs. Force says it is next to the lowest of all our emotional energies in vibration, just above shame.  Thus guilt is a energy drain on our being, physically, emotionally and mentally. Guilt is an emotion we have to chose to have and continue to hold and strengthen, by giving our power to it.

Elise is a medical intuitive.  She gives readings for people as a service for which she charges. Early in her career, Elise had a reading with a male, mid-sixties client and sensed energy imbalances on his arms.  She told him he had skin cancer and in this case, she was wrong about that diagnosis.  This was shared with her through an angry email which the client sent to her after he had had a skin biopsy taken of the places in question.  The client suggested she stop her readings if she was going to cause such upset for no reason.

In working with Elise five years later, she was still carrying deep guilt about this client. Elise was fearful about fully exploring and using her talents because she had been inaccurate other times as well.  This guilt was seriously interfering with her practice and desire to serve others.  My question to her was if perhaps she was picking up on cancer from another area of the client’s body.  She had had that very thought herself after the angry email arrived though with no way to pursue it.  Further, the client’s biopsies would have required a doctor’s approval so the client’s anger was somewhat misplaced.

When Elise asked in earnest for forgiveness for the impact of the inaccurate readings she had given in the past, the presence of guilt in her energy field cleared completely.  Then Elise was able to develop new information, safe-guards and protocols for the readings she wanted to offer. Elise’s taking on of the guilt was due to her own insecurities about her gift of intuition.  This is precisely why this situation was attracted to her, so these insecurities could be healed and she could move on.  It took 5 years to completely heal but that is a short time in eternity.

empty cage by h.koppdelaney

Where in your life are you taking on guilt?  Guilt is never useful and often masks the real steps that need to be taken to correct  a situation. Even if you feel guilty and responsible for your parents’ divorce or you lied or cheated and got some reward you did not earn,  guilt serves no good purpose for anyone. There is always an energy of the Light which will completely heal the feelings of guilt and remorse.  In Elise’s case, she needed to ask for forgiveness and receive it, in order to release the guilt.  In feeling guilty about one’s parents’ divorce, it is highly likely that shame about our own behavior or acute loss around the family unit is fueling feeling guilty about such a situation.  Misplaced energies can result seemingly in feelings of guilt.  If guilt lingers as a result of lying and getting some reward we have not earned, questions of self-worth and personal integrity can also be stirring the pot of guilt.

Remember, we take on guilt from a place of imbalance and we can set it down when balance is restored. Search for the real feelings and blocked energy masquerading as guilt.  There are always reasons we have chosen to hold onto guilt feelings. Guilt is something we allow in our energy fields and it does not support any good thing at all. In fact it is a major drain on our overall energy.  Guilt is a misplaced thought fueled by emotions of regret.

If you are feeling guilt energy, open a Sacred Space and ask yourself:

Why am I  holding onto this guilt energy?

Is there something I need to ask forgiveness for?

Is there some other energy I am carrying which is fueling or sustaining this guilt  energy?

What benefits am I getting by holding onto this guilt energy?

Then go into Silence and sit with Divine Knowing/Ascended Masters/All That Is, with these questions presented.  When you have done that, go about your life and wait until the desired insight is revealed to you.  It will present when you are ready to hear it.  The goal of identifying guilt energy is to ultimately release the blocked energy behind the feelings of guilt so that the guilt can also be released.

When you are ready to release blocked energy and guilt, ask Divine Presence:

to clear all blocked, stuck energy and  feelings from you energy field, masquerading as guilt

to clear all the guilt energy from you field

for forgiveness for all the pain you have caused self and others

to witness the thanks you are feeling for Divine Support

Then, write me and tell me about your experiences with casting out guilt.

To walk in integrity, we have to lose our fear about the future.  We have to embrace the Goodness of God.  We have to wrestle our human thoughts about appearances to the ground.

Siberian Tigers Play Wrestling in the Water by Abysim

Above all, we have to speak our truth. This is walking in integrity.  When we are walking in integrity, we are able to be at peace within, in a deeply whole way.

Stewart, a graduate student, competed for and was awarded a paid summer internship paying $7000. He was thrilled. The program’s literature guaranteed a good match for the selected students with organizations in the area.  Stewart was tentatively matched with an assignment in a public school system.  After the interview in the school, he realized that he had already done that same type of work 4 years earlier and had moved on from there in the intervening years. When no other placements were actually available, he told the granting organization this placement was not a good match for him.  They strongly advised him to take the placement and told him if he did not,  they would “be obliged” to call his college and say that he reneged on his contract.

He was both disappointed about the mismatch and yet offended by the treatment he had received through veiled threats and serious arm twisting to take a job which was so clearly a bad match for him.  After a second round of meetings, and a lot of soul searching,  Stewart respectfully resigned the paid internship.  By the time he made his decision,  he was in a good place looking forward to a summer of doing his own research and work.  The very day he let this go, however, he was asked to join a team in Africa to work on more efficient ways to deliver medical support for malaria.  This offer was a much better match for Stewart on many levels.

This is a situation where walking in integrity paid off in a rather dramatic turn of events.  In one conversation, we talked about Tom Stoppard’s line, “every exit is an entrance somewhere else.” This was truly Stewart’s experience.  However, he alone had to weight the consequences and act.  He was the only person who could decide what walking in integrity was for him.

One characteristic of being in integrity is that it requires deep personal soul searching at times.  It requires getting our ego out of the way and listening to the energy of the Highest Good.  Walking in integrity often requires facing our doubts, fears and misgivings rather than taking the expected option or path because of the promised rewards. At the end of the day, walking in integrity requires courage, the conviction of the heart that if something is not a good option, the right options will present in the fullness of time.

Meravigliosa Creatura II by dBencheci

One great way to walk in integrity is to write to God or talk to God.  This way, we are not tempted to shade things, twist motivations or color the truth.  We can more easily speak the truth because we know all is already known anyway. Making up a good story for God is a futile act. When we communicate with the All Knowing Divine Presence, we can frequently find out what integrity looks like.  It is never too late to walk in integrity around issues in the past or present.

When Ria began a spiritual practice of meditation, her world began to change.  She began to realize just how unkindly she had treated some of the men she had dated much earlier in her life.  She felt deep guilt and shame around some of her actions and was at a loss to know what to do.  Though she was not in touch with any of these men anymore, the drive to “make things right” would not go away.  She was led to write in her journal to each of the mistreated men, to say clearly what she needed to say, and to ask for forgiveness.  She worked on this process until all the men she had mistreated had been written to in her journal, before God and until she felt whole and clean.  Nearing the end of this process, she had a service for the men of her past.  She blessed each one of them, acknowledged what she had learned from them, asked again for forgiveness  and gave all her shame and guilt to God.  She had walked in integrity with the past.

Where might you need to walk in integrity?  What is keeping you from making amends with your past or your present? Might you be prostituting yourself for the sake of money, prestige, reputation, influence or recognition?

Rock Balance by Marty. FM

All things, no matter what they consist of, can be taken to God/the Great Knowing/the Oneness.  When we take steps to walk in integrity we come into Right Relationship with ourselves, with others and with God.  We come to a place of deep inner balance and peace.  There are ALWAYS better options for us than remaining out of integrity with ourselves and our lives. As we come into integrity, we manifest more balance in our lives, more love and more forgiveness.  Our lives can be literally transformed by taking a walk with integrity.

All acts of the past, those in integrity and those out of integrity are traveling along with us.  Any set of actions we have taken which have been out of integrity are negatively affecting us in one way or another.  We are the accumulations of our past actions, thoughts, deeds and feelings.  Only when we bring those into the space of integrity can we be truly at Peace.   Go hunting for places where you are not walking in integrity. You will be supported beyond your wildest imagination by the Presence of God.

Steps to Integrity

1. Open a Sacred Space with Divine Energy/God/Ascended Masters/Angels and your Highest Self, to support your work.

2. Name the specific person(s) or incident where you are out of integrity with All That Is.

3. Speak or write to God about the feelings you have regarding your situation. Name your fears.  Go thoroughly into this situation and explore it deeply.

4. Ask for the support you need, a way out, a way to let it go of the guilt or fear, forgiveness, support in facing what you have done, etc.

5. Give all negative thoughts and feelings to Divine Presence, in writing or out loud.

6. Give thanks for the support you are receiving to walk in integrity.

7. Wait upon the Presence of God to work within your energy field.

8. Repeat this process with other situations or persons until you feel you are walking in full integrity.

Here are specific prayers and approaches to help us come into balance with All That Is/ God/ Universal Goodness. These prayers target blocked energy for clearing energy fields to allow our feelings, our body or our relationships to heal.  All prayer should begin with opening a sacred healing space. There are many ways to do that.  Here are two options.

Sunset and balancing rock stack by James Jordan

I. Before prayer, open the Sacred Space.

This is done to amplify our prayers, to create a protected healing space for the prayers and to help us begin to create real partnerships with these Divine Energy Beings who are always available to support us.

Options

A.  I call forth my highest I AM Self. ( This is the part of us that is always One with God. ) I call the Angelic Host, the Ascended Masters and the Highest Cosmic Light Beings of the Universe to hold this sacred space for healing and wisdom with me.  And so it is.

B.  I am opening a sacred space for this prayer.  My deepest thanks for this support and healing grace.

II. Clear your own energy before commanding energy through prayer.

If you have any inkling that you feel your prayer is not going to work, clear your doubt and fear before praying.  ALL OUR PRAYERS ARE HEARD!! Further, if you are carrying un-forgiveness about yourself,  this needs to be released before prayer is powerful.

Options

A.  Divine Knowing, clear the blocked energy I am carrying which is manifesting as doubt and fear concerning what I am about to pray for.  My thanks.

B.  Spirit of the Living God, I ask for forgiveness for the anxiety I am carrying about my job interview.  Thank you.

Fruit balance by Pickersgill Reef

III.  I have a body part that is in pain.

I call forth the Sacred Flame ( God in flame form within us) to consume the blocked mental, thermal (protective) and spiritual (fear) energy originating from this lifetime or any other lifetime from the year, month and day of its inception into my field which is manifesting now as a painful _______ (knee, hip, hand), etc.  Consume the blocked energy to allow for balance of my _______ (knee, hip, hand), etc. in present time.  I am open to the healing energy in any form that is possible.  Thanks be to God.

IV. I have a stuffy nose with cloudy discharge. (fill in the condition/symptoms)

I call forth the Sacred Flame ( God in flame form within us) to consume the blocked mental, thermal (protective) and spiritual (fear) energy originating from this lifetime or any other lifetime from the year, month and day of its inception into my field which is manifesting now as a stuffy nose with cloudy discharge. Consume the blocked energy allowing for balance of my body with regard to the symptoms of this stuffy nose.  Thanks be to All That Is.

V. Brad has recurring headaches. (fill in the condition/symptoms)

I call Brad’s highest I AM Self into this sacred healing and wisdom circle.  I call forth the Sacred Flame  from within Brad to consume the blocked emotional, mental, thermal(protective) and spiritual (fear) energy originating from this lifetime or any other lifetime from the year, month and day of its inception into Brad’s field which is manifesting now as recurring headaches. Consume the blocked energy allowing for balance of his body.  Thanks be to All That Is.

VI.  I had a bad argument with my spouse,child, co-worker, mother, friend.

I ask for deep forgiveness for my part in escalating the argument with _____ (name) last night.  I call forth the Sacred Flame to consume the blocked emotional, mental, thermal and spiritual energy from my energy field from this lifetime or from any previous lifetime which is manifesting now as this argument with _____ (name). Clear all this old stagnant, blocked energy which can go today.  I call Peace and Divine Energy into the midst of my relationship with _____ (name).  Thank you, Divine Grace.

VII.  I feel angry with my spouse for his lack of awareness of what needs to be done around the house.

Sacred Flame come forth and consume the blocked mental, thermal and spiritual energy originating from this lifetime or any other lifetime which is manifesting as my repeated anger and frustration with my spouse about his lack of awareness of what needs to be done in our house.  I call forth the Blessings of the Light for our relationship.  I am so grateful for this support and healing energy.

VIII.  I feel depressed and lethargic.

I call forth the Sacred Flame of All That Is from within me.  Sacred Flame, come forth and consume the emotional, mental, thermal and spiritual energy originating from my lifetime or from any other lifetime from the specific year, month and year of its inception which is currently manifesting as my feeling depressed and lethargic.  Show me ways to move out of this place of darkness and separation.  Help me to see small steps I can take.  My profound thanks.

IX.  I am afraid for __________(name)  and what is happening to him/her.

Sacred flame consume the blocked mental, thermal (protective) and spiritual energy (fear) originating from this lifetime or any previous lifetimes which is manifesting as my being afraid for ___________ ( name).  I call forth the Divine Presence within ________ (name) for his/her Highest Benevolent Good.  I turn this fear over to All That Is for a perfect outcome.   My thanks.

2 1/2 minutes in Photoshop by Via Moi

X.  I am out of Right Relationship with my _________ self, work, husband, mother, aunt, boss, upcoming performance, spending/eating/exercise habits, responsibilities to my children, anger towards others, desire for a mate,  seeming inability to make money,  etc.

Right Relationship means in Right Relationship with All That Is, with God.  We often know or suspect when we are out of Right Relationship with a person,  situation or our self.   This sacred term, Right Relationship means as defined by God. This takes the guess work out of defining what is “wrong” with the relationship.

Divine Presence, my heart is heavy.  I call forth the Sacred Flame to consume the blocked emotional, mental, thermal (protective) and spiritual ( fear) energy from all core sources in this lifetime or any previous lifetime which is now manifesting as my being out of Right Relationship with my _____________ ( see above list).  I release all this stuck energy willingly with deep and lasting thanks.  And so it is, Amen.

Earlier this month, I went to the Dominican Republic.  I thought we were going on vacation and in part, we were. However, there was a broader purpose for my being there.  On the first morning I went into Silence, as is my daily custom, and listened for any people or places which needed prayer.   I was guided to call in healing energy to clear aspects of  the energy of criminal intent, present in the DR.  In listening further,  I was invited to include Haiti in the prayers as well.

Turquesa by Malkav

Haiti is on the western end of the same island as the Dominican Republic.  We were on the northern coast of the Dominican Republic.  I  did expand the prayer focus to include Haiti. More imbalances were named for healing during the hour and over the next two days. Corruption, domestic violence, ethnic hatred, subjugation energy, financial instability, energy of poverty, violence, abuse, fear of being poor,  and many other areas were identified for re-balancing.  For each imbalance, the century of the original blocked energy was given.  Also the type of blocked energy (emotional, mental, thermal, spiritual or physical) when this imbalance first appeared was specified as well.

This process is the exact same process I have learned to use with individuals when clearing blocked energies showing up as  imbalances in the body. To do this work effectively, we need to really grasp that all imbalances either personal or global are directly due to blocked energy coming from someone or somewhere. When the blocked energies are cleared, the body, the sea, the earth’s crust can heal itself because balance is the natural state of all living entities.

We humans must call Divine Presence into our lives so that this Presence in its myriad of forms is “allowed” to work with us.  Each of us  has the sovereign right to live our lives any way we so choose.  We can ignore or accept anything we want.  We have all the time we need and all the help we need to bring peace and balance to our lives but we have to ask for the help we want and are willing to receive.  As we know, with some of the conditions at the global level, we are running short of time.

When we  call in Divine Presence, what is needed is specifically provided.  After many hundreds of these experiences, I know this will always happen.  The outcome may not happen as I envision it, but the energy is always re-balanced in one way or another.  We are the hands of All That Is upon the Earth and we have the power to call Divine Intervention into lives and aspects of our Earth where imbalances are manifesting.

There seemed to be an urgency in the work I was doing in the DR.  After 3 days of deeply focused healing energy for Haiti and the Dominican Republic, I was invited to extend the boundaries of this work to all of the Caribbean and Central America.  The process started all over again and continued for two more days.  Then I got an email from a spiritual healer and friend who suggested that I listen to the sea creatures around the island.  How she got that message, I am not sure but I have stopped asking the “how” questions with this type of work.

Delphinus delphis by Ricardo G77

That evening I set up a sacred healing and wisdom “virtual” circle as I do with all healing work.  I invited the sea creatures to join us in spirit and I waited.  I had never worked with sea creatures before and was wondering how I would know if they were there and if I was hearing them.  I settled into a comfortable meditative state.  I listened for a long time and heard nothing but felt the energy of Peace and Harmony, or what I sensed as that.   After about 20-30 minutes, as clear as a bell I heard, “we would like to work with you in this healing”.  I was at once both thrilled and floored!  I knew the voice was not mine because I would have never even thought of such a thing.  I had thought we were simply meditating together.   We then spent a very powerful hour together exchanging energy and it seemed like we were playing in God’s space for lack of a better description.

Sea Otters Up Close by Andy- Beal

The next day right before 6 PM,  we felt the earth shake very clearly.  We went outside and it stopped.  My husband checked the seas from the third floor to see if a very low tide was indicating a tsunami.  No low tide was evident.  We surfed the cable TV but did not get news of the earthquake for about two hours.  I was stunned.  In all the time I had spent in prayer, I had never once even considered working with the earth energy of the island.  It had not been given or I had not heard it, and I had not thought of it, either.  Immediately I thought that perhaps I had missed something very important in the prayer dialog of the week.   The devastation in Haiti was enormous and the faces of those affected were heartbreaking.

I went into prayer and I wrote my spiritual colleagues to see what they were picking up about the earthquake and my work in the DR.  I eventually learned that I was not to have focused on the earthquake.  Our work was the clearing of the blocked energy which would affect the rebuilding of that area of the world, now especially with Haiti but more extensively as well.  The prayers were now to be, Come Divine Intervention for the Highest Benevolent Outcome for Haiti and her people on all levels.

Belugas Underwater by flickkerphotos

Of all the information given though, about the work that was done, that of the sea creatures took my heart.  I was told that they quelled the seas to prevent the tsunamis which were being formed as a result of the violent shaking.  This broke open every boundary I had ever erected between humans and sea creatures.  Of course, they knew there were imbalances of a major order and offered to help. The sea creatures in connection with Divine Grace in many forms,  quelled the imbalances in the water, averting the tsunamis.

Never mind if this does not seem plausible.  It is not plausible with our minds.  This is only plausible and possible to grasp with our hearts.  This experience though has dramatically changed my view of sea creatures and I will never swim in the oceans again without thanking them for their presence here among us and for all the healing energy they are bringing to our world.