Anxiety

Anxiety is the sense of feeling overwhelmed, apprehensive,  out of control and tense regarding something, frequently in the future.  Often our minds rush ahead in time to anticipate all sorts of negative scenarios for us to consider including just how badly we might mess up or fail, and just how awful the consequences might be for us.  Therefore, many folks dealing with anxiety steadfastly avoid situations they know have stimulated past feelings of anxiety.

Aren’t those situation the whole root of the anxiety in the first place?  Actually, no, they are not!   No situation, relationship or person is the actual root of anxiety. Anxiety has core roots in our thoughts, emotions and past feelings associated with a person, situation or type of relationship.  Until we actually go into the midst of the anxiety and try to debunk it, we are likely to remain its victim for a long time.

Terry had anxiety attacks every time she had to face exams.  She could feel the anxiety begin to swell about two or three weeks before exams.

Writing Exams by  ccarlstead
Writing Exams by ccarlstead

She would eat non-stop, toss and turn at night and she became seriously grouchy with everyone.  It was a pattern she knew well from her childhood which was getting worse and worse in university.  She essentially went into pre-exam jitters twice a year without fail.  By the second semester of her junior year she was literally having panic attacks when she would try to begin studying for exams.  She would be in the library and have to leave because she was breaking out in a sweat and beginning to shake.  She kept hoping this would all go away but the severity of it got her to eventually seek help.

Rajiv experienced anxiety every time he needed to drive to a new place or ended up in an unfamiliar place.  Therefore, he avoided such possibilities at all costs, thinking this would keep him from having these feelings.  He never willingly drove to new places, even with a GPS system for fear of getting lost.  The anxiety though began to seep into all driving situations where he might possibly end up being lost, such as taking friends to unfamiliar places and giving folks lifts home from parties.  When Rajiv did on occasion did get lost, he would have to stop the car to and try to calm his breathing and then frequently he would have trouble driving again.  He also on occasion had begun to shake when he was lost in unfamiliar surroundings.

Both Terry and Rajiv were having anxiety at serious enough levels to disrupt their lives. Both felt they were victims of something they did not understand and that was even more fearful than they could speak about.  Their reactions privately were feelings of being at fault, lacking and broken because of their anxious reactions to normal life experiences.  Recurring anxiety has ramifications far beyond the specific instance of anxious feelings.  The sense of shame often connected with recurring anxiety is one of the biggest costs to a person.

Perhaps more than with other feelings, the sources of anxiety can be elusive.  Unexamined anxiety tends to grow and grow until it can become crippling and completely removed from the original source of the anxiety.  In contrast, we often have some sense of where jealousy, guilt or anger may have begun in our past.  With anxiety,  there is a tendency to strongly avoid all past anxiety producing experiences in an effort to avoid another “anxiety incident”.   As these experiences are linked with past fears of failing, embarrassment or of loss of control, a common strategy is to energetically surround certain experiences with a  “keep out” warning.  Both Terry and Rajiv thought that their individual experiences were causing their anxiety.  However, their experiences were merely the current triggers for the anxiety response.

keep out by timsnell
keep out by timsnell

The core reason behind anxiety comes from blocked energy from our past which is showing up in the present, as anxiety.  The blocked energy can be emotional, mental, thermal (protective “second skin”) energy or spiritual/fear energy.    Any or all of these types of energy can contribute to the manifesting of anxiety in our current lives.  When we unblock the original blocked energy manifesting as anxiety, the anxiety will stop.  What a concept!  Yes, the anxiety can stop even in response to the exact same situations where there has been anxiety in the past.  In my experience, balance is restored much faster when we work in sacred space in partnership with All That Is/God/Divine Goodness/Higher Power.

Here are some concrete steps to come into balance regarding anxiety. Speak each step of this process out loud so that you give it form, substance and therefore power in this dimension.

1.  Open a Sacred Healing space by calling forth your Highest (I AM ) Self and Divine Presence in whatever form you desire ( Angels, Jesus, Mary, Ascended Masters, Divine Cosmic Light Beings,  etc.)

I open a Sacred Healing space with my Highest Self and the energy of the Ascended Masters, Mary and all other forms of the Divine Presence I need for this healing.

2.  Name the specific anxiety you are addressing today.

I experience anxiety whenever I face visiting with my spouse’s family.

3.  State your intention for healing and energy release.

My intention is to release all the original blocked energy I am carrying which is currently manifesting as anxiety when I have to visit my spouse’s family.

4.  Call out the original blocked energy manifesting as anxiety in your life now.  ( Divine Knowing, knows the source of this anxiety already however you must command it out of your energy field to be free of its impact on you.)

a. I command out the original blocked energy from the specific year, month and day of its inception into my energy field which is now manifesting as anxiety when I have to visit my spouse’s family. Take all this old stuck energy from my field completely.

b. I call forth the Eternal Flame within me.   Eternal Flame consume all the core blocked energy from the specific year, month and day of its inception into my field which is now manifesting as anxiety when I have to visit my spouse’s family.

5. Sit in the sacred space for a few minutes until you feel settled.

6. Give thanks for the release of the old stuck energy which has manifest as anxiety.

Thank you so much for the clearing of this old energy.  I welcome continued guidance and support in how to face other areas where I still hold anxiety.  I am very grateful.

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You have most probably spent months or years manifesting anxiety. Therefore, you may need to call for the clearing of this energy more than one time.  Further, we need to call for the clearing of blocked energy from each situation where we experience anxiety. The pattern of anxiety may be our response to several different situations but may stem from different origins in our past.  Keep working this material in this way until the anxieties are completely gone.  When you get there, you will experience a new sense of freedom and power.

You are a Being of the Light.  Therefore, you must command the Light into places where you need it.  Write and let us know how you are doing!

Expect the Goodness

Holding the space for Goodness in our lives is a powerful mindset and the expectation of Goodness can permeate all aspects of our lives.

Heres to a Summery Week by  AtilaTheHun
Here's to a Summery Week by AtilaTheHun

At the same time, fears can play an important role in calling us to seek further, for Peace.

Have you ever found yourself, even when things are really good, waiting for something bad to happen?  Do you prepare for potential tragedy by running things through your mind to see how you might react?  Have you ever been in a relationship and find yourself thinking about how you will feel when it is over, when he/she walks out,  or when you grow apart?  This process of preparing for the worst, just to feel in control and ready for bad things is very likely to have just the opposite effect we are trying to guard against.

My husband used to commute to another state, 2 weeks a month, early in our marriage.   I dutifully made sure to know exactly when my husband was flying.  However, that increasingly meant I was ill at ease for the duration of his  flight, every time he traveled.   I had emotional melt downs if I did not hear from him within a “reasonable” time after the flight.   I would work myself into a tizzy, with pent up worry and frustration and then erupt when he did finally call for “making we worry” .   I carried some deep fear about losing him.  However,  I was thoroughly busy ignoring the real fear with mind preparation drills for the possibility of future tragedy.   At the time, I really thought I was being responsible, in caring so deeply.  Right motivation, wrong execution.

Foods by amarette
Foods by amarette

I did not realize what I was doing was feeding my worst fears, those which were truly unspeakable.  I was so conscientiously preparing for the worst, that I was really feeding the beast within me, which I had completely created.   I vividly recall the pit in my stomach, the fear in my mind and the tenseness in my breathing of those times.  I was truly capable of making myself sick with fear and dark imaginings.

One of the worst outcomes of this, was that this fear seeped into all manner of situations.  I would worry about my husband going to the store and being run into.  I would obsess about walking around the block at night by myself.   I would even imagine strangers breaking into my home while I was alone.   Clearly, my mind had run amok. Thankfully, I still had some small perspective on what I was doing to myself.  I did stop watching violence on television as one positive step towards more peace.

One day,  years later, a book came to my rescue which I felt was written specifically for me. It was called Fear No Evil, by Eva Pierrakos.  Talk about direct and to the point!  My number was up.  This book literally fell off a shelf before me in a bookstore even though I had let some of my darker fears subside.  It changed my habit of preparing for darkness and fearing evil, for good.

Those months of commuting would have been so much better if I could have faced my fears and focused on the Goodness we had been graced with.  We were awash in Goodness with good health, good jobs, supportive families, good friends, disposable income, a nice home, etc.   I had regularly strayed into the darkness though and did not have the faintest inkling about trying something else.   The fear of losing the Goodness I had been given was instrumental in my spiritual journey but perhaps y0u may avoid this particular detour.

What I recall from Fear No Evil is that I learned that fear comes from the part of us that is unwhole and hurting.  Fear shows up when we feel disconnected from Divine Peace.  I learned that what we focus on grows.  All the fears that I felt were from the exact places where I was disconnected from God.  I learned that fear was my own creation and therefore wonder of wonders,  I could let it go.

Free happy smiling baby face by Pink Sherbet Photography
Free happy smiling baby face by Pink Sherbet Photography

For all those years, I had thought fear was real.  I felt as though someone had released me to Goodness, to the very real possibility that Goodness attracts goodness.  I learned when bad things happen, the Goodness is still present even when it seems covered by the darkness.  I felt that “Someone” had rattled my cage and helped me remember Goodness.

Step by step I took a look at the real fears behind those manifesting in my life. I was afraid of my husband dying because I myself was afraid of being alone, unloved and bereft.  I was afraid of being attacked and losing my safety because I was afraid of losing the Goodness of my life.  I was so into thinking it was all up to me that God was a way distance second to ME.  These real fears propelled me front and center into dialog with the Divine Presence.  When I realized I had created and grown my own fears, I could let the fears go, and focus on the Goodness of Life.

I now highly recommend the  practice of Expecting Goodness.  Train your thoughts to expect the Goodness, think about it, nurture it, focus on the Goodness you have and see it continuing.  As I slowly learned to do this, Goodness beyond my wildest imaginings showed up.  To date, the Goodness given has always been infinitely better than what I might have envisioned.  It’s a God thing!!

Steps towards Expecting Goodness

1. Name your presenting fears, those showing up in your life and then seek the deeper core fears fueling the feelings and actions in your life.  (I am afraid my spouse and I won’t be able to have children.  Core Fear-  I am afraid I will miss out on one of  Life’s irreplaceable blessings and that my spouse and I will grow apart. )

2. Release the fears you no longer want, to Divine Presence.  We are never alone in facing our fears. ( I release the fear that my spouse and I will suffer and remain sad by missing out on one of Life’s blessings which will cause us to grow apart.)

3. Train your mind to see the goodness in all situations by actually speaking about it out loud to self and others. (My spouse and I will find infinite ways to love in this world, in ways we can equally share. )

4. Expect the Goodness — I  call forth the Goodness of Life into all aspects of my thinking, feeling, acting self.  I expect the Goodness of Life in whatever way it chooses to manifest in my life.